The Pilgrim’s Regress. C. S. Lewis

Чтение книги онлайн.

Читать онлайн книгу The Pilgrim’s Regress - C. S. Lewis страница 11

The Pilgrim’s Regress - C. S. Lewis

Скачать книгу

and the world is a glory among glories.’

      At that moment he saw a man walking up the hill to meet him. Now I knew in my dream that this man’s name was Mr Vertue, and he was about of an age with John, or a little older.

      ‘What is the name of this place?’ said John.

      ‘It is called Jehovah-Jirah,’ said Mr Vertue.

      Then they both turned and continued their journey to the West. After they had gone a little way Mr Vertue stole a glance at John’s face and then he smiled a little.

      ‘Why do you smile?’ said John.

      ‘I was thinking that you looked very glad.’

      ‘So would you be if you had lived in the fear of a Landlord all your life and had just discovered that you were a free man.’

      ‘Oh, it’s that, is it?’

      ‘You don’t believe in the Landlord, do you?’

      ‘I know nothing about him – except by hearsay like the rest of us.’

      ‘You wouldn’t like to be under his thumb.’

      ‘Wouldn’t like? I wouldn’t be under anyone’s thumb.’

      ‘You might have to, if he had a black hole.’

      ‘I’d let him put me in the black hole sooner than take orders if the orders were not to my mind.’

      ‘Why, I think you are right. I can hardly believe it yet – that I need not obey the rules. There’s that robin again. To think that I could have a shot at it if I liked and no one would interfere with me!’

      ‘Do you want to?’

      ‘I’m not sure that I do,’ said John, fingering his sling. But when he looked round on the sunshine and remembered his great happiness and looked twice at the bird, he said, ‘No, I don’t. There is nothing I want less. Still – I could if I liked.’

      ‘You mean you could if you chose.’

      ‘Where’s the difference?’

      ‘All the difference in the world.’

       A LITTLE SOUTHWARD

      The Moral Imperative does not fully understand itselfJohn decides that Aesthetic Experience is the thing to pursue

      I thought that John would have questioned him further, but now they came in sight of a woman who was walking slower than they so that presently they came up with her and wished her good-day. When she turned, they saw that she was young and comely, though a little dark of complexion. She was friendly and frank, but not wanton like the brown girls, and the whole world became pleasanter to the young men because they were travelling the same way with her. But first they told her their names, and she told them hers, which was Media Halfways.

      ‘And where are you travelling to, Mr Vertue?’ she asked.

      ‘To travel hopefully is better than to arrive,’ said Vertue.

      ‘Do you mean you are just out for a walk, just for exercise?’

      ‘Certainly not,’ said Vertue, who was becoming a little confused. ‘I am on a pilgrimage. I must admit, now that you press me, I have not a very clear idea of the end. But that is not the important question. These speculations don’t make one a better walker. The great thing is to do one’s thirty miles a day.’

      ‘Why?’

      ‘Because that is the rule.’

      ‘Ho-ho!’ said John. ‘So you do believe in the Landlord after all.’

      ‘Not at all. I didn’t say it was the Landlord’s rule.’

      ‘Whose is it then?’

      ‘It is my own rule. I made it myself.’

      ‘But why?’

      ‘Well, that again is a speculative question. I have made the best rules I can. If I find any better ones I shall adopt them. In the meantime, the great thing is to have rules of some sort and to keep them.’

      ‘And where are you going?’ said Media, turning to John.

      Then John began to tell his companions about the Island, and how he had first seen it, and was determined to give up everything for the hope of finding it.

      ‘Then you had better come and see my father,’ said she. ‘He lives in the city of Thrill, and at the bottom of this hill there is a turn to the left which will bring us there in half an hour.’

      ‘Has your Father been to the Island? Does he know the way?’

      ‘He often talks about something very like it.’

      ‘You had better come with us, Vertue,’ said John, ‘since you do not know where you are going and there can be no place better to go than the Island.’

      ‘Certainly not,’ said Vertue. ‘We must keep to the road. We must keep on.’

      ‘I don’t see why,’ said John.

      ‘I dare say you don’t,’ said Vertue.

      All this time they were going down the hill, and now they came to a little grassy lane on the left which went off through a wood. Then I thought that John had a little hesitation: but partly because the sun was now hot and the hard metal of the road was becoming sore to his feet, and partly because he felt a little angry with Vertue, and most of all because Media was going that way, he decided to turn down the lane. They said good-bye to Vertue, and he went on his way stumping up the next hill without ever looking back.

       SOFT GOING

      When they were in the lane they walked more gently. The grass was soft under their feet, and the afternoon sun beating down on the sheltered place made it warm. And presently they heard a sound of sweet and melancholy chimes.

      ‘Those are the bells of the city,’ said Media.

      As they went on they walked closer together, and soon they were walking arm in arm. Then they kissed each other: and after that they went on their way kissing and talking in slow voices, of sad and beautiful things. And the shadow of the wood and the sweetness of the girl and the sleepy sound of the bells reminded John a little bit of the Island, and a little bit of the brown girls.

      ‘This is what I have been looking for all my life,’ said John. ‘The brown girls were too gross and the Island was too fine. This is the real thing.’

      ‘This

Скачать книгу