the clean but faded curtains were not yet open, and in the dim light Kitty could just make out her mother lying on the bed. Ellen’s head was to one side, as if looking down at something, and a small, barely perceptible sound was coming from her direction.
It had gone noon but there was no dinner ready. When Kitty and her brothers, fifteen-year-old Jack and ten-year-old Danny, came home from school and the shipyard there was always something hot to eat, even in the summer. Kitty did not know where her dad was. Maybe he was out looking for work – if he had not got a start on the dock that morning.
‘Mam? Mam, are you all right? Are you sick?’ Rising panic caught Kitty’s throat as she inched towards the bed. When her mother did not answer, fear made Kitty’s heart beat faster.
If she opened the curtains, Mam would wake with a fright, which Kitty knew would make her cross, but Kitty could not see properly in this gloom. Her attention struck by an unfamiliar sound, she made up her mind.
Unhooking the wire that threaded through the top hem, Kitty drew back the faded curtains. They slipped along the wire with ease, and then she placed the wire back onto the nail so they did not sag in the middle. Her mam liked everything tidy and said saggy curtains had a poverty-stricken look about them.
‘I’ll get you a nice cup of tea, Mam,’ Kitty said brightly. ‘I’ll take the afternoon off school to help you out with the baking if you’re not feeling up to it.’ Her mother was not the strongest of women, Kitty knew, even though she was always on the go, taking care of everyone, especially Dad.
It would be nice for her to have a day in bed. She deserved a bit of peace and quiet. Only this morning she said her legs felt like they did not belong to her. Kitty had laughed and wondered to whom the legs did belong. Her mam said some funny things sometimes.
‘Let me wait on you for a change, Mam. I’ll fetch you that nice hot cup of tea,’ Kitty said. ‘You’d like that, wouldn’t you, Mam?’
Turning, Kitty looked again towards the bed, not used to seeing her mother lying down, doing nothing. Usually she was scrubbing out or, more often, making bread and cakes to sell, just to keep body and soul together when Dad was out of work.
A chill came over Kitty and almost without realising it she found herself inching closer towards the bed, almost drawn by an invisible force. Moving slowly, her eyes took in the motionless shape of her mother; the bloodstained bed a deep crimson and her mother’s hand that cradled a quietly mewling bundle, itself huddled into her mother’s still form.
‘Mam …?’ Kitty’s voice wavered. ‘I’m here. It’s going to be all right. I’ll get you help.’ Kitty saw her mam’s half-opened eyes fixed on the newborn baby in the crook of her arm. Quickly now, she moved towards the infant. Its tiny mouth was puckered, searching for sustenance.
Kitty reached towards her mother’s hand, taking it in her own. She let out a small cry of shock; her mother’s hand was as cold as a stone. The dawning realisation that her new sibling’s quest was futile was starting to overwhelm her and she dropped her mother’s hand, unable to bear the coldness from a hand that had once been so warm. The hand that had stroked her with such tenderness; that had held her own reassuringly thousands of times … The motion seemed to distress the child further, and even in her fear Kitty still took in the fact that the infant was a little boy, his face screwed up in frustration and whose cry was growing more strident with each breath.
‘Mam! Mam, wake up!’ Panic screamed through Kitty’s mind and body, even as she shook her head in denial. She wanted it to be five minutes ago when everything was fine. She stood rooted to the spot, her hands trapped under her arms, hugging her body, her legs refusing to move.
‘Mam?’ Kitty’s trembling voice was barely above a whisper as she began to shake uncontrollably. The thought that her beloved mam was dead was too much to take in. She would get the doctor and he could give her something to make her better, couldn’t he?
‘No …’ she groaned in despair. ‘Mam, please don’t go … Don’t go, Mam. Everything will be fine … I am here now … I’ll be good …’ Into her mind sprang the recollection of days when Dad had no work and no money, and her mam, at the end of her tether, said she felt like running miles away …
‘I’ll get the doctor … I’ll get Aunty Doll …’
Still, there was no sign of any movement in her mother’s curled-up body. As hot tears fell freely down Kitty’s cheeks, she rapidly blinked them away. It was too late and she knew it. Her beautiful, kind, hard-working mam could not hear her any more.
Kitty lifted her mother’s marble-cold hand again and curled its icy fingers around her own, she held it to her face and then gently bent down and kissed her mother’s soft cheek. Her hair around her face felt like the softest down. Desolate, Kitty knew without a doubt that her cherished, much-loved mother was beyond anyone’s help.
What was she going to do now? Mam was dead! A scream of anguish escaped her lips and drowned out the cry of the infant, whose tiny purple fists balled in fury, showing no regard for his mother who had made the ultimate sacrifice to bring him into the world.
Quickly coming to her senses, Kitty scooped the newborn babe from her mother’s lifeless arms and wrapped him in a threadbare sheet she retrieved from the dresser drawer. Scurrying from the room, Kitty headed towards the stairs, almost tripping in her haste to be out of the house.
‘Aunty Doll! Aunty Doll!’ she cried. ‘Please help me!’
Frank Feeny, hands in pockets, flat cap pushed to the back of his dark brown hair, whistled a happy tune as he turned the corner of Empire Street. At fourteen years old, he had just received his first pay packet from the Co-op, where he had worked for the past two weeks, and was looking forward to handing it over to his mam.
‘Kitty? Kitty!’ When he saw the distress on the face of the young girl whom he treated like his own kid sister, he broke into a run. She was clearly crying as she banged her front door shut.
‘Kit?’ Frank called again. ‘What’s the matter? What have you got there?’
Empire Street contained only ten houses, five on each side. From the dock road corner, there was the Sailor’s Rest public house opposite a disused warehouse, and at the ‘top’ end, opposite the stable where Frank’s dad kept his horses, was Winnie Kennedy’s general shop, next door to the happy home he shared with his family and where Kitty was now heading.
Everybody knew everybody around here – you couldn’t scratch your nose without somebody commenting on it – and some of the country’s richest men walked the same street as the poorest. Ship owners were only a stone’s throw from the working class and the families who lived hand to mouth.
The ships, the factories, the warehouses were proof of a thriving port; the noisy clang of dockside machinery, the rattle of trains taking goods to every part of the country, and beyond. The overhead railway at the bottom of Empire Street carried dockers, clerks, businessmen and everyone in between. Like any other port, it knew villainy, roguery, had sinners and saints; and everyone looked out for each other because that is what they had to do.
The kids stopped playing their games of hopscotch in the midday heat, while their mothers, sitting on the little walls that separated each doorstep, ceased fanning their faces with newspapers, to gawp at young Kitty darting across the street, carrying a bundle of sheets in her arms.
Kitty needed help. Frank’s legs, normally whippet-fast, felt as if he were wading through mud to get to
