with anger. I deserve better, after all I’ve done for them, I deserve better.
Anger and resentment moved my hand to a chunk of stone that had fallen from the rockery, forced my hand to pick it up, made my hand hurl it at the glass of the kitchen window. I paused for a second as the glass shattered in a beautiful shower of wanton destruction – a shock to wake the dead but not enough to kill the living.
Not yet.
Shocks take time to kill.
It was inherent cowardice that made me run and I hate my weakness more than I hate them. And I hate that I made my move too soon, I have a treat in store for the nurse. I shouldn’t drive her out just yet.
And they forget.
I have a key.
A grizzled Bob picked up the stone, stared at it and shook his head again. He’d done it at least ten times and Maura was using the rhythm of his bemusement like a metronome; it was the only way she could get her heart rate to slow down. Despite the police checking the grounds, despite the presence of Bob, and even though Gordon hadn’t heard a thing, Maura’s senses were still on high alert and she was jumping at shadows. In a house that was riddled with them, it was doing little to calm her down.
Every time she thought she’d cleared the last of the glass, another tiny shard would glisten like a minute jewel and drag her attention towards it. ‘I keep trying to believe that the wind blew it through the window, but that’s bollocks, isn’t it? It would have to be a tornado to do that, and somehow I think we’re still very much in bloody Kansas, Toto.’
Bob switched his bemusement to her and placed the rock back on the table, into the neat dent it had made when it landed. ‘Wind didn’t do that, love. No way it could, is there? So, this man you said you saw?’
‘I don’t even know if I did see someone – it might have been a shadow. There was so much blowing about out there it might even have been my mind playing tricks on me – but I suppose someone lobbed that through the window. The question is, who and why?’
Bob picked the rock up again, as if it would tell him who’d thrown it by some form of psychometry. It hadn’t told the police much; fingerprints didn’t stick to wet, mossy stone. ‘Your guess is as good as mine. That copper asked you if you’d upset anyone lately. You said no – that true?’
‘I’ve probably upset a great many people lately, but none of them know I’m here, so I don’t think it has anything to do with me personally. What about the Hendersons, have they upset anyone?’ Either way, she was ringing the agency the minute they opened and giving them a piece of her mind for not vetting the job properly. No amount of money or desire to escape a dismal home life could compensate for being scared shitless in the dead of night by a rock-wielding maniac and being forced to stay in Essen’s answer to the House of Usher.
Bob shrugged. ‘No more than usual, I don’t suppose. They’ve never been well-liked, but no one’s ever thrown rocks at them before. They’re a funny bunch and keep themselves to themselves. They like their privacy, see?’
Maura sighed. ‘That copper, as you call him, wasn’t very helpful, was he? I guess they’re not that interested in petty vandals having a pop at the people in the big house, eh?’ she said with a weak smile, thinking that if she minimized it verbally, the incident would become smaller in reality.
‘Prob’ly not, no. Anyway, this won’t get that hole mended. Stick the kettle on and I’ll get that boarded up. I’ll get a bit of glass tomorrow and do a proper job.’
It was 4 a.m. and Maura had plied Bob with more cups of tea than a man with apparently hollow legs could possibly want to consume. She was on her fourth herself, hot and sweet and entirely useless for managing shock, but a good alternative to sitting and dwelling on who might want to launch rocks at her. Sarah had sprung to mind, but it couldn’t be – and, given the circumstances, it should be Maura casting the first stone at her. Richard was long gone; besides, he’d already done her as much harm as it was possible to do and even he couldn’t rise from the dead. Whatever this was, it didn’t have anything to do with her. As she faffed with the tea things, she hoped it was a one-off, a chancy kid letting off steam or a stroppy drunk who’d taken a wrong turn on the way home and decided to have a pop at the posh folk. Thank God for Bob and his willingness to turn out in the dead of night and come to the rescue. He was hardly a knight in shining armour, more a dishevelled old codger with a five o’clock shadow, a missing ear that she was dying to ask about but didn’t feel she should, and a distinct lack of wit, but he was there and Maura was glad of him. ‘Tea’s on the table. I’d better go and check on Himself.’
Gordon Henderson had slept through it all, or so it appeared. He didn’t even stir when she let herself into the room and allowed the light from the hallway to stray onto his face. Not that she wanted to wake him; she just needed to check he was still breathing. Any man who could sleep through windows breaking, nurses screaming, police banging on the door and Bob hammering was either drugged or dead. Maura was relieved to see that it was the former – Mr Henderson had been well and truly smacked with the chemical cosh. Under the circumstances it was probably a good thing, but Maura couldn’t help thinking she’d given an awful lot of drugs to a very frail man. It occurred to her that she’d have to talk to Dr Moss about what had been prescribed for Gordon; there were enough pills in his medicine reminder to restock a branch of Boots and it was only a week’s supply. Moss wasn’t going to like being questioned, but his ego came second to her duty of care.
Satisfied the old man was still in the land of the living (and that she wouldn’t have to report she’d not only allowed an assault on the house, but had also allowed her charge to die on her first evening), she gently closed the door and replaced the chain. The adrenaline rush that had fuelled the aftermath of the incident had long worn off and she was exhausted. There would be little chance of sleep with Bob hammering away in the kitchen, and she didn’t relish the thought of him going back to his own cosy bed and leaving her on her own either. Sleep deprivation and Bob’s noisy presence were preferable to even a few hours alone in a house that was giving her the distinct impression it didn’t like her.
Tiredness was making her irrational and making her doubt her decision to take the job, let alone whether she was willing to stay. It was just a house – a big, old, ugly house that made horrible noises, but just a house – and it had a resident incapable of caring for himself. Maybe if Bob was willing to stay she could get a few hours’ sleep and wake up with her sensible head on?
Bob did stay, on a sofa in one of the downstairs rooms, his snores punching their way through the early morning and drowning out the birdsong to the point where Maura gave up on any thought of sleep and made her way back downstairs. She was battling Gordon over the state of his porridge when Cheryl’s less than dulcet tones broke the uneasy peace.
‘What in hell’s name happened to my kitchen?’ Cheryl demanded. ‘And why is Bob Silver asleep on the morning-room sofa?’
Maura had anticipated Cheryl’s anger, but not the thread of panic that wound through her voice, tightening the shrill voice to a screech.
At that moment Gordon decided to tip the contents of his breakfast bowl onto the tray. ‘Porridge should be a solid thing, not this slop. Look at it!’
Maura did look, staring with exhaustion and exasperation at the mess he was prodding with a bony finger. ‘I’ll make some more, Mr Henderson.’
‘Too late,
