the net, and thump on the matting. She snored. She thrashed about in her bed. Next door the boy shouted in his sleep. Once she quarrelled so loudly with the boy my mother appeared in the doorway, a candle in her hand, and her hair flowing about her to stop the two yelling at each other, and saw the candle sloping in Mrs Mitchell’s hand, the candle grease spattering, the flame lengthening and dipping and smoking an inch or two from the mosquito net.
Both Mrs Mitchell and her son shouted and screamed at the black servants. When my father remonstrated she shouted at him that he understood nothing about the country: perhaps it was the first time I heard all the white clichés: You don’t understand our problems. They only understand the stick. They are nothing but savages. They are just down from the trees. You have to keep them in their place. (Just like Dr Truby King’s infants.)
I was afraid to go anywhere near Mrs Mitchell’s son. He was perhaps twelve but seemed to me as powerful as a grown-up. He tormented and teased the black child who was piccanin for the household. He chased and teased and tormented the dogs and cats. His catapult he used not only on birds, but to aim stones at the bare feet of any black person who came near.
Nothing I can do, no cajolements or enticements of memory, can bring back more than this: no incident or event bad enough to explain my dread of that woman. And probably there was no actual cruelty or blow, but only the foul angry voice, and the high scolding vituperation of the black-hater.
I cannot even begin to imagine what that year was like for my father. His wife was bedridden, and if she had ‘a heart’ there was no reason why she should ever get up. They had so little money, yet whenever she was worse the doctor would arrive from Sinoia. Two little children, one still not six, the other four. They needed tender care, but what they were getting was Mrs Mitchell and her bully of a son. My father was still trying to get lands stumped, bush cleared, fields made. He had to be down all day on the lands, for until there were fields there would be no crops. Meanwhile the debt to the Land Bank grew.
For some months he had an assistant, a Dutchman with many children. The story The Second Hut was written from memories of that year.
It was as early as that when we, the children, began to go with him down to the lands. The horse had died: that part of the District was not good for horses – they got diseases. It was on the sand veld at the other side of the District that horses thrived and people went in for racing. We bought two donkeys and my father rode one. We were put on the other. Later we got a car, an Overland, already third- or fourth-hand. We, the children, the two dogs, Lion and Tiger, cheerful mongrels, bottles of cold tea and packets of store biscuits went down to the land with our father, and played in the bush while my mother was in bed, being tended by Mrs Mitchell.
She left. Then came someone who was not paid, but helping out of kindness, Mrs Taylor, a Danish woman. Since she had a life of her own she did not move in, but might stay a few days, leave and come back, and soon we forgot the nightmare of Mrs Mitchell. She was a large, calm, good-looking woman, and my father liked her very much. My father liked women. Women liked him. He had a gentle, courtly, considerate way with him, and the undertones of regret and wistfulness were not anything a child could understand. All I knew was that throughout my growing up there was always this woman – the wife of a neighbour, or a visitor to the District – with whom he might sit and talk in this particular way, as if the time they were in, the two of them, was in another range of being altogether, something larger and tenderer than quotidian life, and where they shared, too, a rakish and amused recognition, never to be put into words. Mrs Taylor was not around for long – she was on the move somewhere. People were always moving about the country, farm to farm, from either to the town, or off ‘up north’ – meaning Nyasaland or Northern Rhodesia – or back to England, because they found the life disappointing. ‘Not everyone can take the life, you know.’ Women most especially often could not take the life.
If my father always enjoyed tender and, of course, platonic friendships (now you have to spell out what would have been taken for granted then), my mother also had admirers who knew she was fitting her remarkable capacities into too small a space. One of them was a George Laws, who was a brother of Miss Laws, a teacher in Sinoia and some sort of a cousin of my father’s. Mr Laws owned a timber concession in the government land between the rivers. It was he who made my mother a fitment that enabled her to read while she was ill, a bed rest, piano stool, couches and chairs of slatted wood, and ‘occasional’ tables so heavy they could scarcely be moved even when not buried under books, newspapers, magazines.
Then my mother got out of bed. She had to. She said her weight of hair was giving her headaches, and she cut it all off and appeared with a nude shorn nape. A ‘shingle’. My brother wept. I wept. We sat in the pillows and billows of her brown hair and wrapped it around us and bawled while she sat and ironically watched us. She said Right! That’s that!, and she wrapped her hair up in paper and threw it into the rubbish pit.
Correspondence courses still arrived by every post, but she wondered what she was paying money for when she could do better herself. She taught us geography by sloshing water into our sand pit and making continents, isthmuses, estuaries, islands. Being taught to see land masses and oceans like this repeats that stage of human knowledge when the world was flat. Then she ordered a little globe from Salisbury which arrived on the train, and with it we entered the mind of Copernicus. She sat my father in his folding chair on the sharp slope down outside the house, summoned the cook and the piccanin from the kitchen. My father was the sun. The two servants were the heavy planets, Jupiter and Saturn. Stones stood for Pluto, for Mars. I was Mercury and my brother Venus, running around my father, while she was the earth, moving slowly. ‘You have to imagine the stars are moving at different rates, everything moving, all the time.’ And then she abolished this system of cosmic order with an impatient wave of her hand. My father was now the earth, and my brother and I by turns the moon. ‘Of course you have to imagine that …’
We interminably chanted the multiplication tables. We learned English trees and flowers from little books. One was French Without Tears. The inspectors came out from Salisbury to check on the farmers’ children, and said yes, we were doing well. Yes, we were in advance of our ages. But we had to go to school. It was the law. Besides, children have to learn to be social beings.
For a time, my mother wondered about starting a little school there, on the farm. There were children of various ages on the near farms. But if this would be easy now, with good roads, then the question was, how to get those children every day, two, three, four, five, seven miles, to school and back again? Besides, this woman who had a genius for teaching small children was not qualified. And that was that.
I WAS NOW IN THE ROOM the third along from the front, which would be mine until I left the farm for good. It was a large, square, high-thatched room, whitewashed, full of light. From my bed I saw the sun spring up behind the chrome mountain and pass rapidly up out of sight, I saw the moon rise, soar up and away. I used to prop the door open with a stone, so that what went on in the bush was always visible to me – it was only a few paces away down the steep slope. I fought with my mother to have this door open. ‘Snakes,’ she cried, ‘scorpions … mosquitoes … I won’t have it!’ But I kept the door open knowing I was safe inside the mosquito net. Besides, we took all that quinine for the months of the rainy season. Snakes did come into the house, and more than once my mother had to shoot one. The fact is, I was brought up in one of the most heavily snake-infested areas in the world. They were all poisonous, some deadly. For years I was in the bush with bare legs and often bare feet, and I was never bitten. Clearly they fear us more than we fear them. Impossible not to remember the threat of snakes dinned into us always. Remember to watch where you tread, never put your hand on a branch without looking, never climb a tree carelessly, puff adders like to lie out on hot paths and roads and they move slowly
