said Mike Parisi had urged her to run only because she was Lawrence’s widow and he needed the Stockwell name behind him.
No…I won’t think about that now.
She’d had a postcard that morning from Henry and Lillian in Texas. They seemed to be enjoying themselves at the dude ranch. She felt good about her decision to send them. She wanted them to carry on as normally as possible as they adjusted to all the changes in their lives. Big Mike had been an enormous, charismatic presence in so many people’s lives, her children’s included.
If not for Lawrence, Allyson wondered, would she ever have met Mike Parisi? He and her husband were such unlikely friends—Lawrence, the Connecticut blueblood, and Big Mike, the self-made man from a working-class neighborhood—but they’d suited each other. Lawrence, dedicated to public service, preferred to work behind the scenes and appreciated Mike’s passion and drive, just as Mike had appreciated his wealthy friend’s genuine concern for the people of his state.
Twenty years older than Allyson, Lawrence was just forty-seven when he died ten years ago. She never thought she’d make it without him. She didn’t lack for anything material, just for the man she’d fallen in love with at twenty-one. Use your law degree, Big Mike had told her. Use your brain. Don’t wither away. Do something.
She had, and now she was governor. And alone again, on her own with so many responsibilities. Children who needed her, grieving friends, a grieving state.
She breathed in the warm, clean summer air. She hadn’t been out to Bluefield since Mike’s death. Lawrence had grown up out here on Stockwell Farm, the sprawling estate set amidst rolling hills and fields that his grandfather had purchased and expanded. His mother still lived here, but, as was the case with Allyson, Stockwell Farm would never be hers. Madeleine Stockwell could live in the white clapboard, black-shuttered house for as long as she chose—no one could throw her out but it and the grounds, all of Stockwell Farm, were held in trust for Lawrence’s children.
Allyson had never wanted the main house. She and Lawrence had converted the barn on the edge of the fields, and she continued to take Henry and Lillian there. Allyson thought they liked it better than the main house. The barn, too, would go to them. But Stonebrook Cottage, across the fields and through the woods from the main grounds, was Allyson’s and Allyson’s alone, a bit of Stockwell Farm that Lawrence had carved out for her. She liked having it for guests but planned to leave it to her children, too.
Once they got back from Texas, they’d all move into the Governor’s Residence in Hartford. Henry and Lillian would continue to attend their school in West Hartford, and Allyson had no intention of getting rid of their permanent home there.
At least the kids were having fun at the dude ranch. They loved it out at Stockwell Farm and would have liked nothing better than to run loose there all summer, but that was out of the question. Madeleine wouldn’t stand for it. Allyson remembered Lawrence telling her how his father had fancied himself a gentleman farmer and had horses and apple trees and gardens. He would have Madeleine and Lawrence cart jugs of water from a spring in the woods just so they’d know where it was and how to do it. He wanted them to be self-sufficient, capable, never helpless or idle.
When Lawrence was eight, Edward Stockwell cut his femoral artery with an ax and bled to death before his wife could get him to a doctor. Madeleine remarried three years later, beginning a string of marriages that ended with her divorce from her fourth husband five years ago. She vowed never to take another. Allyson believed her mother-in-law when she said that if Edward had lived, the two would have grown old together.
What a horrible blow to lose Edward’s only child to cancer ten years ago.
Now Lawrence and Mike both were dead, Allyson thought, and she was governor.
I don’t want to be governor.
It complicated everything. She had secrets of her own she wanted to protect.
Her heart raced, and it felt as if someone were standing on her chest. Her doctor was encouraging her to learn stress reduction techniques. Kara had dragged her to a yoga class last year before she left for Texas and demonstrated a simple breathing technique she used before trials. Allyson tried to remember it. In through the nose to the count of eight…hold for eight…out for eight…
She got to four and coughed, nearly dumping herself out of her hammock.
Her cell phone rang, almost paralyzing her. She’d forgotten she’d left the damn thing on, but since it was the number Henry and Lillian would use to call her she hated to turn it off. She sat up, her blond hair snagging in the knotted rope as she threw her legs over the side and groped for her phone in her canvas bag. With Mike’s death affecting them so deeply, the children’s counselors at the dude ranch had agreed to let them call home more often than was ordinarily permitted.
Allyson anchored herself with her feet and fumbled for the right button on her cell phone. It might not be that sick jackass who’s been calling.
But it was. She could tell by the quick intake of air on the other end. “Ah, Governor Stockwell. You like the sound of it, don’t you? What would the people of Connecticut think if they knew the truth, hmm? Their slut governor, screwing her working-class ex-con in secret. Do you think they might wonder if Big Mike had found out?”
Click. The call was over, the voice was gone.
Allyson shook. She’d never said a word to the caller. Never. She didn’t want to do anything to encourage another call or escalate the harassment into action. She just wanted the calls to stop. Each time she received one, she tried to convince herself it was the last.
The first one had come a few days before Big Mike’s death. Ye shall reap what ye sow. That was it. She’d dismissed it as a crank call, political harassment, nothing worth mentioning to anyone, never mind Mike or her security detail. Then, after Mike’s funeral, she received another one. Do you really think you can keep your ex-con lover a secret now?
And she knew. Someone had found out about her and Pete Jericho.
Pete was the salt of the earth, a man of the land. His family had owned the two hundred acres on the south border of the Stockwell Farm for generations. They used to be dairy farmers, but now they sold cordwood and Christmas trees, and for the past three years had worked a gravel pit. They plowed driveways and built stone walls and managed their rich neighbors’ properties, the mini-estates that had sprouted around Bluefield.
Pete had served six months in prison eight years ago for a stupid barroom brawl that should have been settled, and stayed, among friends—he wasn’t anyone’s idea of an ex-con. Yet Allyson had kept their affair a secret, begging the question of what she thought of his past. He’d undoubtedly saved her life—her children’s lives—when the gas can exploded during the Fourth of July bonfire. She could still feel his strong arms around her, his body covering hers, as she’d tried to protect Henry and Lillian from the blast.
Somehow an illicit affair with Pete Jericho was different now that she was governor. The anonymous calls didn’t make figuring out what to do about him any easier.
Mike had known. He’d given her an ultimatum a few days after the near disaster at the bonfire. He wanted her relationship with Pete out in the open or over and done with. No secret affairs. Period.
“But what will people say?” she’d asked.
“What the hell do you care? We’re not talking about your position on capital punishment or gay marriage. We’re talking about
