‘Ah, you’re up.’ Luke closed his bedroom door behind him just as Whitney came out of her own room the next morning. ‘Do you normally lie in bed this late?’
Coffee. Whitney swept past him and made for the stairs. She always needed that first cup of coffee to get her going... but today, she needed it much more than she normally did, in order to be able to cope with this man.
‘One could hardly sleep with that racket you’ve been making in the attic,’ she said over her shoulder. ‘I assume,’ she added, as she ran down the stairs with his heavy tread not far behind her, ‘you found what you needed?’
‘Yup. Everything’s washed down, and I have the cot mattress airing in front of the living room fire.’
Hand on the banister, she jolted to a stop, and looked back up at him with an eyebrow cocked ironically. ‘So you’re not above setting a fire and getting it going?’
‘Needs must, when the devil drives.’
‘Whom.’
‘Whom what?’
“‘He must needs go whom the devil doth drive.’”
‘So...you got yourself an education while I’ve been away. And who paid for that, I wonder?’
She subjected him to a rigid glance but wasn’t so angry that she didn’t see, before she jerked her gaze away again, that he was wearing a crisp white T-shirt and black jeans. In that one glance she’d also noticed that his hair was still damp from his shower, and that he’d shaved; the cleft on his chin was now visible—a cleft she’d forgotten was there. Thirteen years was a long time, after all...and she’d been just twelve when she’d known him before.
Known him...she smiled self-derisively as she stalked to the kitchen...now that was a misnomer. She’d never known him. They’d lived in the same house for a few months, that was all—the most awful months of her life. She’d just lost her mother; and she’d cowed in terror as Luke had fought savagely with his grandmother over the elderly woman’s decision to give a home to this girl Luke hated so viciously.
The ongoing battle had culminated in that last, dreadful row, when Luke had called her those ugly names, yelling them at her, after describing her mother and Ben Brannigan in words she’d never heard before and didn’t understand.
But Cressida had heard ... and she had understood.
Shaking with anger, she’d ordered Luke to apologize or get out.
He’d shouted that he was going to leave.
And she’d called after him not to come back, then, till he was ready to say he was sorry.
He’d never, apparently, been ready to do so.
And it wasn’t till Whitney was almost fourteen that she realized Luke’s leaving had broken his grand-mother’s heart.
‘You ought to try to find him,’ Whitney had said one day, stumblingly.
‘I have my pride, child.’ Cressida had replied, her slender back ramrod straight as always. ‘I have my pride.’
And was it pride that had kept Luke away?
But even if she knew the answer to that, Whitney reflected, what good would it do now?
‘I’m going to make coffee.’ She pushed the kitchen door open and went in. ‘And then we’ll talk. We have things to discuss.’
He leaned back against the fridge as she poured cold water into the coffeemaker. ‘Tell me,’ he said, ‘about my grandmother. She’d been ill for some time?’
‘She fell a year ago and broke her hip. It seemed to be taking a long time to heal so the doctors ran some tests. They discovered a tumor—’ Whitney cleared her throat of a sudden huskiness. ‘Strong coffee okay with you?’
‘Stronger the better.’
She measured eight scoops into the filter, and switched on the coffeemaker. ‘She was very weak by the time they sent her home from hospital, and for the next ten months or so, she passed most of her time in bed.’
‘And in pain?’
‘Yes.’ Understatement of the century.
‘Why the hell didn’t you try to contact me?’
‘She didn’t want me to.’
He swore vehemently.
‘You had thirteen years.’ Her tone was heavily laced with accusation. ‘Why did you never come home?’
‘She told me to leave.’
‘Oh, for heaven’s sake, you sound like a spoiled child! All you had to do was say you were sorry.’
‘I wasn’t sorry.’ He pushed himself from the fridge and crossed to the sink. Grasping the countertop edge with white-knuckled hands, he stared out the uncurtained window. ‘What my grandmother did—taking you in—was unforgivable.’
‘Your grandmother was a warm and compassionate woman.’ Whitney fought to keep control of her emotions. ‘I know it must have been hard for you to understand her actions—after all, you were only seventeen and had been very badly hurt—’
‘I wasn’t thinking of myself!’ He whirled around and his eyes reflected more than a decade of built-up pent-up resentment at her. ‘I was thinking of my mother. Of what they—my father and your mother—had done to her—’
‘Don’t!’ Shaking, Whitney put up her hands to stop him. ‘Please don’t let’s start all this over again. I do understand why you’re so resentful, but, Luke, for your own sanity you have to put it all behind you—’
‘Don’t you think I’ve tried? Don’t you think I’ve tried to forgive? To forgive and forget? What do you think it did to me, walking away from my grandmother, the one person in the world who meant anything to me? And now—’ he swung an arm out wildly ‘—to come back to this house, and find I’m too late—my God, it’s ripping me apart!’
Taut silence vibrated through the kitchen following Luke’s outburst, a silence suddenly broken by the wavering cry of a baby.
Whitney looked around confusedly.
Luke exhaled a heavy breath, and said wearily, ‘It’s the baby monitor. Over by the bread bin.’
She saw it then, a blue-and-white gadget, with a red light flickering.
‘I haven’t seen one of those before.’ Her voice came out stiltedly, but she kept going. ‘You leave one part in the baby’s room, and set the other up wherever you are?’
‘That’s right. I’ll just go up and fetch him...’
‘What’s his name?’
‘Troy,’ he said over his shoulder, as he left the room.
