‘This way,’ he indicated quietly, and she turned and followed him along a small track that eventually came out on the road. A hundred yards further on was the conference centre. It had once been a dower house on what had been a large estate, and she was now helping to convert it to hold conferences.
He unlocked the front door before she could get out her own keys, and led the way inside.
On her own ground, so to speak, she looked quickly round with a critical eye, then nodded in satisfaction. The plasterers had finished the walls, as they’d promised.
Throwing open the door on the left, she walked inside to retrieve her notebook.
‘Is there anything you need to check?’
‘Upstairs bathroom, and one of the bedrooms in the new extension. I like your restaurant,’ she murmured as she headed for the staircase. ‘Were you open last night?’
‘No, lunch only on Sundays.’
‘Someone left their car behind.’
He nodded. ‘One of the waitresses. It wouldn’t start and so I ran her home. That’s why I was out. What did the law want?’
‘Oh, just some stupid policeman being officious,’ she muttered as she began climbing. ‘The kitchen equipment is being delivered next week.’
‘Yes. What did he do? Warn you off?’
‘No.’
‘Liar.’
With a disturbed smile, she sighed. ‘Not really; he just said it might not be wise for me to stay here. That you might be—vulnerable.’
‘Ah.’
Are you? she wanted to ask him. But didn’t. She did halt to look back at him, and this time he didn’t look away, just held her gaze for long, long moments. She wanted to smile at him, but smiling could be dangerous. Wrenching her eyes away, she trod carefully across the littered landing. He was watching her, she knew he was, but she dared not look back again.
‘What will happen if they don’t ever find her?’
‘I don’t know. I don’t allow myself to think too far ahead.’
No, well, you wouldn’t, would you?
‘I only hope that your reputation doesn’t suffer because of me.’
‘Is that why you stay away from me when I’m here?’ she asked as she pushed open the bedroom door. ‘Because of my reputation?’ And knew it wasn’t true. ‘I know you didn’t kill her,’ she stated confidently as she walked across the bedroom and into the bathroom.
‘No, you don’t,’ he reproved as he followed her. ‘How many times have you read in the papers that neighbours of murderers had thought them the nicest, quietest of people?’
‘That’s different.’
‘No, it isn’t.’
‘But you didn’t kill her!’ she persisted.
‘No,’ he agreed. ‘I didn’t. But on the off chance that I did people here will keep their distance, just in case, by association, they get mixed up in this mess.’
‘They don’t keep their distance from your restaurant,’ she pointed out as she stared with a critical eye at the fittings. ‘You said it did very well.’
‘It does, but that’s voyeuristic, dicing with danger—I don’t know, but if those same customers saw me in the street they would cross over, ignore me.’
‘Well, I don’t intend to ignore you! And if you ever need a character witness…’ Turning, she waited for him to move so that she could return to the landing. Tension rippled between them. Tension and something else. But he still didn’t move.
‘And what could you say?’ he asked pointedly. ‘That you’ve worked for me for a few weeks? But that we very rarely meet? And what did you learn about him? the lawyer would ask. Oh, not much—that he seemed very fond of his dog, liked walking in the rain…’
‘Do you?’
‘Carrie! What do you really know about me?’
‘That you have the ability to make me ache,’ she whispered. ‘Fantasise. And that although we don’t very often meet I watch for you. Hope, like an adolescent, to catch a glimpse of you walking in the grounds. That I’m violently attracted to you and that if I stay standing close to you for much longer I’m going to do something really stupid. Like kiss you.’
He moved quickly to one side, and she escaped. Hurrying, despairing, not looking where she was going, she trod on a piece of wood that had been left lying on the floor, lurched, and he caught her, held her safe.
‘Thanks,’ she muttered.
When he didn’t release her, she turned her head to look up into his rather bleak face—and couldn’t look away. The first time they’d met, the look they’d shared had been one of warmth, possible friendship, and that little leap of attraction that was so exciting, so—hopeful. The look they exchanged now was one of wariness, want and an aching despair that it wasn’t going to happen. That nothing was going to happen. Because of Helena.
‘It won’t work,’ he said quietly.
‘I know.’
‘I have to find her, Carenza.’
‘Yes.’ Both were tense, both holding back, and then he opened his hands and released her.
‘Come on, back to the house—if I can give you nothing else,’ he added almost inaudibly, ‘I can at least offer you a warm fire.’
The least? she wondered bleakly. Or all?
CHAPTER THREE
LOOKING away, she said neutrally, ‘I just need to check something in one of the bedrooms in the extension. I’ll join you outside.’ Walking quickly away, she ran down the staircase, pushed open the door to the annexe that ran at right angles to the main building, and cursed herself for a fool. Hands clenched, she strode blindly along the narrow, glassed-in passageway to the room at the end.
She should never have agreed to work for him. Not after she’d known about Helena. Was honour more important than happiness? she wondered. Helena had left him, and that surely broke the engagement, didn’t it? Unless she’d been kidnapped, or worse…But how could he be attracted to herself if he loved Helena? Some men did. Some men were incapable of fidelity. But not Beck.
You don’t know him, Carenza. Don’t know what sort of man he is. And hearts weren’t the most reliable organs for judgement. ‘What else can you do?’ she’d asked. ‘Whatever you want…’ Face troubled, she checked the light fitting, and quietly closed the door behind her. Hands shoved into her pockets—Helena’s pockets—she stared out at the small courtyard beyond the windows. The paving had almost been finished. With tubs of flowers, tables and chairs, it would make
