it with growing disbelief. Some of the words, some of the desires expressed were unfamiliar to her, but those which she did understand were of such a nature as to bring a flush of shame to her cheeks.
‘Oh, but you can’t think … I didn’t write this!’ she had pleaded with him, but his face had remained coldly blank.
‘It is your handwriting, is it not?’ he had demanded imperiously. ‘I have seen it on your schoolbooks—schoolbooks! What would they say, those good nuns who educate you, if they were to read this … this lewd filth?’
‘I didn’t write it!’ Lee protested yet again, but it was no use, he wouldn’t even listen to her, and a schoolgirlish sense of honour prevented her from naming the real culprit. She felt as though she had suddenly slipped into some miry, foul pool, from whose taint she would never be clean again. The way Gilles was looking at her made her shudder with revulsion. She forgot that she had adored him, and felt only fear as she looked up into his condemning face.
‘I have heard my friends talk of girls like you,’ he had said at length, ‘girls who use their lack of years to cloak their lack of innocence!’ He spat out a word in French which she did not catch but was sure was grossly insulting, and then before she could move, reached for her across the brief intervening space and crushed her against his body, so that she was aware all at once of the vast difference between male and female, his hand going to her breast as his lips ground hers back against her teeth until she was crying with the pain, both her body and mind outraged by the assault.
‘I hope you have learned your lesson,’ he said in disgust when he let her go. ‘Although somehow I doubt it. For girls like you the pain and degradation is a vital part of the pleasure, is this not so? Be thankful I do not tell Tante Caroline of this!’
Lee had practically collapsed when he had gone. Her mouth was cut and bleeding, her flesh scorched by the intimate contact with him, and although she had not understood a half of what she had read in the letter she was supposed to have sent, nor the insults he had heaped upon her head, she had set herself the task of learning—a long and arduous process when one’s only source of knowledge was parents, the nuns, and gossip picked up from school friends whose practical knowledge was less than her own.
The incidents had had one salutary effect, though. It had killed for ever any desire for sexual experimentation; no other man was ever going to degrade her with insults such as those Gilles had hurled at her.
She came back to the present with a jerk as someone tapped faintly on her door. She frowned. If it was Gilles there was no way she could face a further attack upon her tonight.
‘Lee, it’s me.’
She sighed with relief as she heard Michael’s brisk familiar tones. Her boss quirked an eyebrow in query as she opened the door.
‘Well, have you been holding out on me, or was the announcement of the engagement as much a shock to you as it was to me?’
‘You know I’m engaged to Drew.’ She longed to be able to pour out her troubles to Michael, but his responsibility was to their employers, and his first charge was to secure the Chauvigny wine for their customers. At twenty-two she was old enough to sort out her own emotional problems, although quite how her present dilemma was to be resolved she had no idea.
‘I take it it was all a plot to get rid of the clinging vine—Louise,’ he elucidated when Lee looked blank. ‘Neat piece of thinking.’
‘Neater than you imagine,’ she told him dryly. ‘Gilles wants us to get married—strictly on a temporary basis, so that he can acquire some land from Louise’s papa, without having to acquire Louise as part of the bargain.’
‘And you being an old friend, he guessed that you would fall in with the idea,’ Michael supplied, totally misunderstanding. ‘Umm, well, I suppose it might work. Drew is likely to be tied up in Canada for twelve months, or so you told me when you applied for your job, and you shouldn’t have any trouble getting the marriage annulled.’
Now, when it was too late, Lee wished she had told Michael the complete truth. But how did you tell a man that you were being blackmailed by a letter you had never written? In not challenging Gilles to do his worst, she had already tacitly admitted that Drew would believe she had written that letter, and why should Michael not do the same?
‘In fact it could work out very nicely for us, altogether,’ Michael commented, not entirely joking. ‘As your husband Gilles would be sure to sell us his lesser quality wine. We’ve won the award for the best supermarket suppliers of wine for the last two years, and I’d like to make it three in a row, which would be almost definite if we get this wine.’
Her vague hope of appealing to Michael for some solution faded; he was, after all, first and foremost, a wine buyer, Lee reminded herself fairly, and as far as he knew what Gilles was proposing was merely an arrangement between friends.
‘Well, Comtesse,’ Michael commented with a grin, ‘I’d better let you get some sleep. When’s the wedding to be, by the way?’
‘I haven’t given Gilles my decision yet,’ Lee protested lightly.
‘Umm—well, I can’t see him accepting it if it isn’t in his favour,’ Michael warned her. ‘Your husband-to-be didn’t strike me as a particularly persuadable man, my dear, so I should tread warily if I were you.’
Lee was already awake when dawn streaked the sky. She washed and dressed, then hurried downstairs. The house might have been deserted. In the courtyard where they had arrived she could hear the soft coo of doves. The clatter of horse’s hooves over the drawbridge warned her that she no longer had the morning to herself, and she shrank back into the shadows as Gilles rode into the yard, astride a huge black stallion. Man and animal made an impressive picture, and Lee held her breath as they walked past her, unwilling to be found watching like a voyeur of two intensely male creatures.
The housekeeper stopped her in the hall, and Lee wondered how such a large woman managed to move so quietly, materialising almost as though by magic. ‘Le petit déjeuner will be served in the small salon,’ she told Lee in repressive tones, her eyes sliding over the slim-fitting rose linen trousers Lee was wearing with a soft cream blouse and a matching rose linen sleeveless tunic.
It was on the tip of Lee’s tongue to deny that she wanted anything to eat, but to do so would be an admission of defeat, and something in the housekeeper’s eyes told her that the woman would dearly love to see her humiliated.
She paused by the stairs, her eyes drawn against her will to the portrait she had noticed before.
‘René de Chauvigny,’ Gilles commented quickly behind her, his hand on the banister over hers, preventing her flight. ‘He was with Napoléon at the sack of Moscow and saved the Emperor’s life. For that he was given these estates, which had belonged to his family before the Revolution, but which had passed into the hands of a second cousin who hated his aristocratic relatives enough to send them to the guillotine without compunction. The man you see portrayed there was little better. He stole a young Russian girl away from her family, ravished her and then married her. The family legend has it that the Chauvigny betrothal ring was part of her dowry. So much did she hate her husband that she locked herself in one of the towers and refused to come out.’
Lee was appalled, contemplating the poor girl’s fate. ‘What happened to her?’
Gilles laughed mirthlessly. ‘If you’re comparing her fate with yours then don’t. My foolish relative made the cardinal error of
