Rhoda Fleming. Complete. George Meredith
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Rhoda coloured, and said, after a time, “It would please me if people didn’t speak about my looks.”
The looking-glass probably told her no more than that she was nice to the eye, but a young man who sees anything should not see like a mirror, and a girl’s instinct whispers to her, that her image has not been taken to heart when she is accurately and impartially described by him.
The key to Rhoda at this period was a desire to be made warm with praise of her person. She beheld her face at times, and shivered. The face was so strange with its dark thick eyebrows, and peculiarly straight-gazing brown eyes; the level long red under-lip and curved upper; and the chin and nose, so unlike Dahlia’s, whose nose was, after a little dip from the forehead, one soft line to its extremity, and whose chin seemed shaped to a cup. Rhoda’s outlines were harder. There was a suspicion of a heavenward turn to her nose, and of squareness to her chin. Her face, when studied, inspired in its owner’s mind a doubt of her being even nice to the eye, though she knew that in exercise, and when smitten by a blush, brightness and colour aided her claims. She knew also that her head was easily poised on her neck; and that her figure was reasonably good; but all this was unconfirmed knowledge, quickly shadowed by the doubt. As the sun is wanted to glorify the right features of a landscape, this girl thirsted for a dose of golden flattery. She felt, without envy of her sister, that Dahlia eclipsed her: and all she prayed for was that she might not be quite so much in the background and obscure.
But great, powerful London—the new universe to her spirit—was opening its arms to her. In her half sleep that night she heard the mighty thunder of the city, crashing, tumults of disordered harmonies, and the splendour of the lamp-lighted city appeared to hang up under a dark-blue heaven, removed from earth, like a fresh planet to which she was being beckoned.
At breakfast on the Sunday morning, her departure was necessarily spoken of in public. Robert talked to her exactly as he had talked to Dahlia, on the like occasion. He mentioned, as she remembered in one or two instances, the names of the same streets, and professed a similar anxiety as regarded driving her to the station and catching the train. “That’s a thing which makes a man feel his strength’s nothing,” he said. “You can’t stop it. I fancy I could stop a four-in-hand at full gallop. Mind, I only fancy I could; but when you come to do with iron and steam, I feel like a baby. You can’t stop trains.”
“You can trip ‘em,” said Anthony, a remark that called forth general laughter, and increased the impression that he was a man of resources.
Rhoda was vexed by Robert’s devotion to his strength. She was going, and wished to go, but she wished to be regretted as well; and she looked at him more. He, on the contrary, scarcely looked at her at all. He threw verbal turnips, oats, oxen, poultry, and every possible melancholy matter-of-fact thing, about the table, described the farm and his fondness for it and the neighbourhood; said a farmer’s life was best, and gave Rhoda a week in which to be tired of London.
She sneered in her soul, thinking “how little he knows of the constancy in the nature of women!” adding, “when they form attachments.”
Anthony was shown at church, in spite of a feeble intimation he expressed, that it would be agreeable to him to walk about in the March sunshine, and see the grounds and the wild flowers, which never gave trouble, nor cost a penny, and were always pretty, and worth twenty of your artificial contrivances.
“Same as I say to Miss Dahly,” he took occasion to remark; “but no!—no good. I don’t believe women hear ye, when you talk sense of that kind. ‘Look,’ says I, ‘at a violet.’ ‘Look,’ says she, ‘at a rose.’ Well, what can ye say after that? She swears the rose looks best. You swear the violet costs least. Then there you have a battle between what it costs and how it looks.”
Robert pronounced a conventional affirmative, when called on for it by a look from Anthony. Whereupon Rhoda cried out,—
“Dahlia was right—she was right, uncle.”
“She was right, my dear, if she was a ten-thousander. She wasn’t right as a farmer’s daughter with poor expectations.—I’d say humble, if humble she were. As a farmer’s daughter, she should choose the violet side. That’s clear as day. One thing’s good, I admit; she tells me she makes her own bonnets, and they’re as good as milliners’, and that’s a proud matter to say of your own niece. And to buy dresses for herself, I suppose, she’s sat down and she made dresses for fine ladies. I’ve found her at it. Save the money for the work, says I. What does she reply—she always has a reply: ‘Uncle, I know the value of money better. ‘You mean, you spend it,’ I says to her. ‘I buy more than it’s worth,’ says she. And I’ll tell you what, Mr. Robert Armstrong, as I find your name to be, sir; if you beat women at talking, my lord! you’re a clever chap.”
Robert laughed. “I give in at the first mile.”
“Don’t think much of women—is that it, sir?”
“I’m glad to say I don’t think of them at all.”
“Do you think of one woman, now, Mr. Robert Armstrong?”
“I’d much rather think of two.”
“And why, may I ask?”
“It’s safer.”
“Now, I don’t exactly see that,” said Anthony.
“You set one to tear the other,” Robert explained.
“You’re a Grand Turk Mogul in your reasonings of women, Mr. Robert Armstrong. I hope as your morals are sound, sir?”
They were on the road to church, but Robert could not restrain a swinging outburst.
He observed that he hoped likewise that his morals were sound.
“Because,” said Anthony, “do you see, sir, two wives—”
“No, no; one wife,” interposed Robert. “You said ‘think about;’ I’d ‘think about’ any number of women, if I was idle. But the woman you mean to make your wife, you go to at once, and don’t ‘think about’ her or the question either.”
“You make sure of her, do you, sir?”
“No: I try my luck; that is all.”
“Suppose she won’t have ye?”
“Then I wait for her.”
“Suppose she gets married to somebody else?”
“Well, you know, I shouldn’t cast eye on a woman who was a fool.”
“Well, upon my—” Anthony checked his exclamation, returning to the charge with, “Just suppose, for the sake of supposing—supposing she was a fool, and gone and got married, and you thrown back’ard on one leg, starin’ at the other, stupified-like?”
“I don’t mind supposing it,” said Robert. “Say, she’s a fool. Her being a fool argues that I was one in making a fool’s choice. So, she jilts me, and I get a pistol, or I get a neat bit of rope,