Copycat: The unputdownable new thriller from the bestselling author of After Anna. Alex Lake

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far as Sarah knew, she and Jeremy never got together, and in any case, six months later Jeremy was gone, his dad’s job transferred back to the West Coast. Until now, Sarah had never thought of him again.

      But all that was nothing to do with this. It was years ago, and it had been irrelevant even back then.

      ‘I think it’s all a coincidence,’ Sarah said.

      ‘So whoever’s behind this just happened to send it today?’ Jean replied. ‘Bit weird.’

      ‘I hope so,’ Sarah said. ‘Because the alternative is someone’s watching me.’

      She poured a glass of wine; Jean didn’t drink a great deal but she had half a bottle someone had left after a cook-out at the weekend. She stared at the red liquid, looking at her distorted reflection. It was ridiculous. Either this was some kind of elaborate joke or Rachel Little was doing it or there was some fucking stalker out there, but whatever it was, it was crazy.

      And it had been going on for six months. For six months someone had been on Facebook, pretending to be her. The more she thought about it, the more scared she became.

      ‘Who’s she friends with?’ Jean said. ‘The fake Sarah? Who’s been looking at her posts?’

      ‘I checked,’ Sarah said. ‘A bunch of random people; no one we know. You know how Facebook is.’ Sarah shook her head. ‘Which means this is purely for me.’

      Jean smiled, but they had been close friends long enough for Sarah to recognize it as a smile she was forcing on to her lips.

      ‘It’ll be fine,’ she said. ‘Soon we’ll be looking back at this as some weird shit that happened in the past.’

      ‘I hope so,’ Sarah said. ‘I really hope so.’

       7

      This is all part of the plan. She is confused, naturally. She starts to question things. People. Friends. Events. She wonders what happened. She wonders whether there is a link between the friend request from her fake self to her real self and the fact it came on the same day she discovered her fake self. She considers there must be. But what? And why? And who? She cannot work this out, so she will think it might be a coincidence. And this thought will be nice and comforting and so gradually she will let this thought become her explanation.

      A coincidence. Yes, it is a coincidence. The alternative – a stalker, watching her, hidden in the shadows – is too awful to contemplate, so a coincidence it is.

      But she is wrong. She has been watched for a long time. Watched until she found the Facebook account.

      Finally. For now, after all the planning and waiting and watching, it truly starts. It has been a long time in the weaving, this tangled web. And now she has taken one thread of it, and she will start to pull.

      She will pull and it will unravel in ways she cannot imagine. For there are many threads. And as she thinks she is making progress, as she thinks she is figuring this all out, she will discover the truth.

      In untangling the web, she has merely become trapped in it.

      Stuck fast.

      A fish in a net. And the more she struggles, the tighter it will grip her.

      Until there is no way out.

       8

      Sarah lay in bed, eyes open. She had got back from Jean’s house at eleven and had struggled to fall asleep. Now, after not much more than four hours of fitful sleep, she was awake.

      Wide awake. Too much wine had given her a headache and, although the ibuprofen she had taken had dulled the pain, it was not much use in calming the other problem with her head, namely the questions rolling around and around in a futile search for answers. She wanted to know who was behind this, and why.

      And she wanted to know if it was dangerous. Because it certainly felt like it could be. Whoever had done this had been at her daughter’s pre-school. In a restaurant with her and Ben.

      They had been in her house.

      She felt her chest tighten and she inhaled deeply, held her breath, then slowly exhaled.

      Not this, she thought. Please, not this.

      It had been a few years since her last anxiety attack, since the last time her mind had run away with itself and sent her fight-or-flight reflex haywire, leaving her short of breath, dizzy, heart racing and gripped by a powerful nausea. It had felt like she was having a heart attack, or, on occasion even worse: she’d felt like she was dying.

      And, at times, she’d caught herself thinking maybe she would be better off dead. The panic could start at any time. In the car, in the supermarket, at work. She lived in a debilitating fear, and she wasn’t sure she could go on.

      She had always been anxious, but what made the panic attacks even harder to bear was that they had started in earnest when Miles was born, and so she associated them with him. This in turn made her feel guilty, which triggered the panic.

      Ben had been very worried – this in itself was a big deal, which made her even more anxious – and had spoken to some of the other doctors about possible solutions. In the end, Sarah had seen a colleague who had given her some coping strategies – deep breaths, positive thinking, exercise, and, initially, medication. She had, mercifully, managed to avoid them since.

      But the threat of their return had been in the background; they were gone, but there was always the lurking thought: only for now.

      And, right on cue, here they were. Hands shaking, heart skipping out of control, she sat up, her head against the cool wall. Next to her, Ben snored gently.

      There was no point trying to go to sleep. She swung her legs over the side of the bed and went downstairs.

      She was watching the local news when the door to the living room opened. It was Ben, hair tousled, in his boxer shorts.

      ‘You’re up early,’ he said.

      ‘You too,’ she replied. ‘You should go back to bed.’

      ‘I can’t sleep when I know you’re down here.’ He sat beside her and took a swig from her coffee, then began to massage her shoulders. ‘You OK?’

      ‘I guess. But this Facebook thing has freaked me out. I can’t stop thinking about it. I felt like I was going to have a panic attack. You know, like I used to.’

      ‘Hmm,’ he said. ‘Not good.’

      The pressure from his fingers intensified. It felt wonderful, and she leaned against him. His left hand slid forward, over her shoulder and on to her breast.

      ‘Hey,’ she said. ‘I thought this was a back rub?’

      ‘I never

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