was able to precisely locate the turning point. A single night of too much beer and too little judgment had set him on a path that had changed every plan he’d ever made.
Yet when he looked into his son’s face, he did not have a single regret. Teddy had come into the world a squalling, red-faced, needy bundle of noise, and Fletcher’s reaction had not been love at first sight. It had been fear at first sight. He wasn’t afraid of the baby. He was afraid of failing him. Afraid to do something that would screw up this tiny, perfect, helpless human.
There was only one choice he could make. He had shoved aside the fear. He had given his entire self to Teddy, driven by a powerful sense of mission and a love like nothing he’d ever felt before. Now Teddy was in fifth grade, ridiculously cute, athletic, goofy, and sweet. Sometimes, he was a total pain in the ass. Yet every moment of every day, he was the center of Fletcher’s universe.
Teddy had always been a happy kid. The kind of happy that made Fletcher want to enclose him in a protective bubble. Now Fletcher realized that, despite his intentions, the bubble had been pierced. The end of his marriage had been a long time coming, and he knew the transition was hard on Teddy. Fletcher wished he could have spared his son the pain and confusion, but he needed to end it in order to breathe again. He only hoped that one day Teddy would understand.
“The water buffalo is a remarkable feat of nature’s engineering,” said the cohost of The Key Ingredient, who served as the sidekick of the life-support system for an ego, aka Martin Harlow.
“Why is that, Melissa?” asked the host in a phony voice.
She gestured at the sad-looking buffalo, standing in a small pen against a none-too-subtle computer-generated swamp. “Well, the animal’s wide hooves allow her to walk on extremely soft surfaces without sinking.”
The host stroked his chin. “Good point. You know, when I was a kid, I thought I had a fifty percent chance of drowning in quicksand, because it happened so much in the movies.”
The blonde laughed and shook back her hair. “We’re glad you didn’t!”
Fletcher winced. “Hey, buddy, give me a hand with the unpacking, will you?”
The big items had all been delivered, but there were several loads of unopened boxes.
“The show’s almost over. I want to see how the cheese turns out.”
“The suspense must be killing you,” said Fletcher. “Hey, you know what they make with the mozzarella cheese?”
“Pizza! Can we order pizza tonight?”
“Sure. Or we could just eat the leftover pizza from last night.”
“It’s better fresh.”
“Good point. I’ll call after we unpack two more boxes. Deal?”
“Yeah,” Teddy said with a quick fist pump.
The new house had everything Fletcher had once envisioned, back when he’d had someone to dream with—a big kitchen open to the rest of the house. If he knew how to cook, delicious things would happen here. But the person who made the delicious things was long gone from his life. Still the old dream lingered, leading Fletcher to this particular house, a New England classic a century old. It had a fireplace and a room with enough bookshelves to be called a library. There was a back porch with a swing he’d spent the afternoon putting together, and it was not just any swing, but a big, comfortable one with cushions large enough for a fine nap—a swing he’d been picturing for more than a decade.
They tackled a couple of boxes of books. Teddy was quiet for a while as he shelved them. Then he held up one of the books. “Why’s it called Lord of the Flies?”
“Because it’s awesome,” Fletcher said.
“Okay, but why is it called that?”
“You’ll find out when you’re older.”
“Is it something dirty I’m not supposed to know about?”
“It’s filthy dirty.”
“Mom would have a cow if I told her you had a dirty book.”
“Great. Here’s a thought. Don’t tell her.”
Teddy put the book on the shelf, then added a few more to the collection. “So, Dad?”
“Yeah, buddy?”
“Is this really where we live now?” He looked around the room, his eyes two saucers of hurt.
Fletcher nodded. “This is where we live.”
“Forever and ever?”
“Yep.”
“That’s a long time.”
“It is.”
“So when I tell my friends to come over to my house, will they come to this one or our other house?”
There was no our anymore. Celia had taken possession of the custom-built place west of town.
He stopped shelving books and turned to Teddy. “Wherever you are, that’s home.”
They worked together, putting up the last of the books. Fletcher stepped back, liking the balance of the bookcases flanking the fireplace, the breeze from the back porch stirring the chains of the swing.
The only thing missing was the one person who had shared the dream with him.
Open your eyes.”
An unfamiliar voice drifted overhead. She couldn’t tell if the spoken words were in her mind or in the room. The sound floated away into silence, punctuated by hissing and a low hum. Despite the request, she couldn’t open her eyes. The room didn’t exist. Only blackness. She was swimming in dark water, yet for some reason, she could breathe in and out as though the water nourished her lungs.
Other sounds filled the space around her, but she couldn’t identify them—the rhythmic suck and sigh of a machine, maybe a dishwasher or a mechanical pump of some kind. A hydraulic pump?
She smelled … something. Flowers in bloom. Maybe bug spray. No, flowers. Lilies. Stargazer lilies.
Lilies of the field. Wasn’t that from the Sermon on the Mount? It was the name of a high school play. Yes, her friend Gordy had won the Sidney Poitier role in the production.
“… more activity by the hour. She’s progressed to minimal consciousness. The night aide caught it. Dr. King ordered another EEG and a new series of scans.”
A stranger’s voice. That accent. “Caught” sounded like “cot.” Losing the r in “ordered” and “another.” That was known as non-rhotic pronunciation. She remembered this from broadcast
