back.
Elegant Ev checked in on me more than once; apprehensive Annie sought me out for company; blundering Banning spilled his daughter’s apple juice all over my sandal, making my left foot moist and sticky for the rest of the evening. But otherwise I was left alone. As the soiree progressed, a herd of blond children thundered in and out of the room, raiding the crackers and cheese. They were shooed out onto the porch intermittently by a clucking mother, and, more than once, I thought to follow them, longing for their honesty. As the summer room grew too small to contain the sheer number of Winslows inhabiting it, the party spilled out onto the porch, and I made my way to the other side of the room, thinking I’d go in search of the toilet, when my gaze settled on an alcove built into the wall, out of sight of my previous post. Inside the alcove hung the most beautiful painting I’d ever seen.
True, I hadn’t seen many paintings in my life; the reproductions in the art books at the library had, at best, been murky sketches of the real things. In person, Ev’s Degas had impressed me; I’d known, just by looking at it, that it was Important. Still, that small, predictable work of art called forth a far less rousing sensation than the gasping good fortune I felt as I took in the great painting hanging before me.
It was a Van Gogh.
I couldn’t call up the painting in my memory, so perhaps I’d never seen it reproduced. It was unmistakably one of his, if bigger than I’d ever guessed a Van Gogh to be.
A landscape – his telltale cypress trees in rich greens and blues, reaching up toward a night sky. Above, stars. Below, yellow and green grasses, purpling in the distance. If there was a distance; it was hard to hold on to the perspective in any of it, for just as the eye would settle on a horizon line, a glance to either side would reapportion the whole thing, casting one’s first impression into doubt. But far from causing frustration, as such an effect would have elicited from a lesser artist, the result was exhilarating, pulse-quickening. The painting heightened emotion as only great art can.
For the first time that evening, I forgot about the Winslows. I stepped slowly toward the feverish brushstrokes as though they were calling to me, until I was mere inches away. Had the same work of art been hanging on the wall of my parents’ house (however laughable that possibility), I’d just have assumed it was a cheesy reproduction bought at a mall shop and set in a spray-painted frame. But as the evening light filtered in from the bay, I felt proud, as though somehow, being here with this piece of history, I had already made something of myself.
‘It’s magnificent, isn’t it?’
I turned to find Indo right beside me. I could only nod, enthralled. ‘Is it really …?’
She nodded, a smile forming on her lips. ‘My mother loved art.’
‘She was a collector?’
She took a good while to answer. ‘It’s mine.’
‘Oh?’
‘My financial inheritance was smaller,’ she said, gesturing to the grand house around us, ‘because I was a girl. So Mother gave me the painting. I was the only one who loved it the way great art must be loved. But then my brother magically came up with some heretofore unknown bylaw which apparently gives him the right to march into anyone’s home and seize her personal property like some kind of dictator. So here it hangs, when I was the one who was prepared to do what was right on its behalf, to—’
‘Can I get you girls something?’
I turned, surprised, to find Tilde standing on my other side, smiling falsely, glass of sherry in hand.
‘We were just discussing …’ I gestured back to the Van Gogh.
‘She asked,’ Indo said.
‘Oh, Indo, I’m certain the poor girl did no such thing.’
I stepped back and out of the sandwich they’d made around me. Something was happening that I did not understand. Yes, Indo was spilling family gossip, but she was a good person, and Tilde just seemed mean.
‘It’s beautiful,’ I offered. Something sharp passed between the older women that I could not name.
A little girl ran up and tugged on Tilde’s arm. ‘Auntie T., can we do sparklers down on Flat Rocks?’
‘I’ll bring them right out.’ The girl squealed and ran out into the tangle of adults. Tilde turned to us. ‘If you’ll excuse me, the angels call.’
‘It’s creepy to call children angels,’ Indo said, as she glowered.
‘And you know so much about it because of all your experience parenting,’ Tilde replied.
Indo listed, and Tilde watched her, satisfied she’d stung.
‘No, you’re right,’ Indo said, ‘I should keep to my role as bitter eccentric.’ But Tilde was already gone.
Cursing quietly, Indo gulped down her wine before charging in the other direction, opening a door into the rest of Trillium and slamming it shut behind herself.
I turned back to the painting, unwilling to let it out of my mind. But what had occurred between the two women – even if I didn’t fully understand it – made it impossible to really see again. The beautiful space inside my head that the Van Gogh had created, that the promise of a summer at Winloch had warmed, was filled with the idle babble all around me, about the sad disrepair of the docks over on the far side of camp, and the best breed of hunting dog, and the name of the right contractor to hire for cottage renovation, so that even as I tried to hold on to the painting with my eyes, the cacophony pulled me away from it, rendering the artwork unfriendly.
Soon I found myself drifting, unnoticed, onto the lantern-lit porch and out into the night, where the children’s sparklers made brilliant, swooping circles upon the lawn. Beyond them, the lights atop each of the twenty-six masts bobbed like fairies, reflected in the velvety black water below. That was when I remembered the sound of my brother’s voice, carried along, like the heady smell of a thunderstorm, on the warm night wind.
I GOT THE PACKAGE FROM my mother that Monday morning. From the way it crinkled, I knew it was lined with Bubble Wrap. John delivered the prize himself, along with a bag of apple-cider donuts.
‘You remembered!’ Ev clapped, jumping unabashedly into his arms when he appeared with the treats. He looked alarmed at the public display of affection, so I excused myself to the bathroom, smiling even more broadly to myself in private, giddy at the notion John was the one Ev was sneaking off to in the early morning hours.
Back in the living room, they stood over me eagerly like children at summer camp as I opened my mother’s package. I noticed him link his hand briefly with hers as she hoped aloud for candy. But I knew what the envelope held without having to look: a stack of self-addressed, stamped envelopes that would lead straight back to Oregon.
‘M.,’ the letter began, ‘Jeanne says you had a lovely visit. I forgot to ask you when we talked. Please call when you get a chance. We miss your voice. Please give Mr and Mrs Winslow our
