the fight. My cap had been whisked away by the wind, but I had never given it a thought. Now with my heart full I turned upon my Cousin Edie, and the sight of her took me back six years. There was the vacant staring eye and the parted lips, just as I had seen them in her girlhood, and her little hands were clenched until the knuckles gleamed like ivory.
“Ah, that captain!” said she, talking to the heath and the whin-bushes. “There is a man so strong, so resolute! What woman would not be proud of a man like that?”
“Aye, he did well!” I cried with enthusiasm.
She looked at me as if she had forgotten my existence.
“I would give a year of my life to meet such a man,” said she. “But that is what living in the country means. One never sees anybody but just those who are fit for nothing better.”
I do not know that she meant to hurt me, though she was never very backward at that; but whatever her intention, her words seemed to strike straight upon a naked nerve.
“Very well, Cousin Edie,” I said, trying to speak calmly, “that puts the cap on it. I’ll take the bounty in Berwick to-night.”
“What, Jack! you be a soldier!”
“Yes, if you think that every man that bides in the country must be a coward.”
“Oh, you’d look so handsome in a red coat, Jack, and it improves you vastly when you are in a temper. I wish your eyes would always flash like that, for it looks so nice and manly. But I am sure that you are joking about the soldiering.”
“I’ll let you see if I am joking.”
Then and there I set off running over the moor, until I burst into the kitchen where my mother and father were sitting on either side of the ingle.
“Mother,” I cried, “I’m off for a soldier!”
Had I said I was off for a burglar they could not have looked worse over it, for in those days among the decent canny country folks it was mostly the black sheep that were herded by the sergeant. But, my word, those same black sheep did their country some rare service too. My mother put up her mittens to her eyes, and my father looked as black as a peat hole.
“Hoots, Jock, you’re daft,” says he.
“Daft or no, I’m going.”
“Then you’ll have no blessing from me.”
“Then I’ll go without.”
At this my mother gives a screech and throws her arms about my neck. I saw her hand, all hard and worn and knuckly with the work she had done for my up-bringing, and it pleaded with me as words could not have done. My heart was soft for her, but my will was as hard as a flint-edge. I put her back in her chair with a kiss, and then ran to my room to pack my bundle. It was already growing dark, and I had a long walk before me, so I thrust a few things together and hastened out. As I came through the side door someone touched my shoulder, and there was Edie in the gloaming.
“Silly boy,” said she, “you are not really going.”
“Am I not? You’ll see.”
“But your father does not wish it, nor your mother.”
“I know that.”
“Then why go?”
“You ought to know.”
“Why, then?”
“Because you make me!”
“I don’t want you to go, Jack.”
“You said it. You said that the folk in the country were fit for nothing better. You always speak like that. You think no more of me than of those doos in the cot. You think I am nobody at all. I’ll show you different.”
All my troubles came out in hot little spurts of speech. She coloured up as I spoke, and looked at me in her queer half-mocking, half-petting fashion.
“Oh, I think so little of you as that?” said she. “And that is the reason why you are going away? Well then, Jack, will you stay if I am-if I am kind to you?”
We were face to face and close together, and in an instant the thing was done. My arms were round her, and I was kissing her, and kissing her, and kissing her, on her mouth, her cheeks, her eyes, and pressing her to my heart, and whispering to her that she was all, all, to me, and that I could not be without her. She said nothing, but it was long before she turned her face aside, and when she pushed me back it was not very hard.
“Why, you are quite your rude, old, impudent self!” said she, patting her hair with her two hands. “You have tossed me, Jack; I had no idea that you would be so forward!”
But all my fear of her was gone, and a love tenfold hotter than ever was boiling in my veins. I took her up again, and kissed her as if it were my right.
“You are my very own now!” I cried. “I shall not go to Berwick, but I’ll stay and marry you.”
But she laughed when I spoke of marriage.
“Silly boy! Silly boy!” said she, with her forefinger up; and then when I tried to lay hands on her again, she gave a little dainty curtsy, and was off into the house.
Chapter 4.
The Choosing of Jim
And then there came those ten weeks which were like a dream, and are so now to look back upon. I would weary you were I to tell you what passed between us; but oh, how earnest and fateful and all-important it was at the time! Her waywardness; her ever-varying moods, now bright, now dark, like a meadow under drifting clouds; her causeless angers; her sudden repentances, each in turn filling me with joy or sorrow: these were my life, and all the rest was but emptiness. But ever deep down behind all my other feelings was a vague disquiet, a fear that I was like the man who set forth to lay hands upon the rainbow, and that the real Edie Calder, however near she might seem, was in truth for ever beyond my reach.
For she was so hard to understand, or, at least, she was so for a dull-witted country lad like me. For if I would talk to her of my real prospects, and how by taking in the whole of Corriemuir we might earn a hundred good pounds over the extra rent, and maybe be able to build out the parlour at West Inch, so as to make it fine for her when we married, she would pout her lips and droop her eyes, as though she scarce had patience to listen to me. But if I would let her build up dreams about what I might become, how I might find a paper which proved me to be the true heir of the laird, or how, without joining the army, which she would by no means hear of, I showed myself to be a great warrior until my name was in all folks’ mouths, then she would be as blithe as the May. I would keep up the play as well as I could, but soon some luckless word would show that I was only plain Jock Calder of West Inch, and out would come her lip again in scorn of me. So we moved on, she in the air and I on the ground; and if the rift had not come in one way, it must in another.
It was after Christmas, but the winter had been mild, with just frost
