paused for a moment and Jesus could tell how difficult it was for him to continue with his explanations.
“But now you have arrived, in order to divide the light from the darkness as if with a mighty sword. I too am one of the Essene. It was my task to prepare you for your future life. All Essenes have incarnated for this one purpose, for your life, for your mission. By the way, the name Essene has its root in the name Essnar, who maintained the connection between the ancestors and the Essenes here on earth. Around three hundred years ago the Essenes began to write down the universal truths which they had received from their ancestors. they also began to distribute them for the benefit of future generations, for these truths had to become known so that you, the eldest son of the light, would find it easier to convince humanity of your teachings of the loving heavenly father. This copying of the teachings took place mostly nearby the salt sea, while the training of the Essenes was mostly done here in Alexandria.” Bakenor paused to gaze at a passing boat.
“Even if the true teachings of the Essenes and their star brethren has been watered down or even misinterpreted over the centuries, the true teaching of the Essenes nonetheless still has the most valuable content compared to other groups that are around these days. You will continue to be in contact with the few remaining true Essenes in the future, however I have to tell you something. You have to learn to ignore the strictness of some of thee members of this brotherhood, for the forces of darkness are naturally trying to disrupt and sabotage these preparations. Hence there are some among the Essene who take an almost identical view of rituals and interpretation of the scriptures as the God of your ancestors. They speak much of punishment and of the end times, but you, Jesus, know best how are loving heavenly father is in reality. many of the Essenes these days no longer carry the spirit in them with which this brotherhood was founded. But don't forget that the star brethren, the great holy lineage is always watching over you from on high. You will hear from them from time to time or possibly even spot them as a small point on the horizon.”
Bakenor tossed a flat stone over the water of the lake, which sank down after skipping on the surface a couple of times. “One more thing. In the next couple of years, before you have developed your full potential of consciousness, there will be some moments in which you will feel overwhelmed and may have a hard time coping. Those moments will be premonitions and reflect a deep knowledge regarding your future. No one else will be able to understand this, however your soul will be opened more and more by these experiences. It won't be easy for you in those moments, yet they will be important for your entire development. Jesus, you are chosen. Your life will not be easy, you will often have to fight against the angels of darkness, but they will not prevail. Let yourself always be guided by your father in heaven. And remember all that I have told you today.”
Jesus was suddenly shaken by a violent cramp and screamed out loudly. Immediately his mother rushed into his room, sat down next to him and placed her healing hands on his hot and sweaty body. After a few minutes, when Jesus had recovered some, she left and prepared him some warm milk and honey. When she returned and wanted to give him a kiss, she saw that he had already fallen asleep again.
The following two days Jesus und Joshua did not see each other, for Jesus was lying in his bedroom, shaken by feverish fits. On the third day Joshua went to the house of Jesus again. He wanted to inquire of Miriam regarding the condition of Jesus, but then to his surprise and joy he was greeted by his friend Jesus himself.
“Joshua, nice of you to come by.” Jesus appeared to be stronger again.
“Jesus, what happened?” Joshua was still shocked when he thought about the long journey from Sepphoris back home.
“That is a long story, Joshua. But also a short one. Do you really want to know?”
“Well of course. After all I am your friend.”
“Good, then let's first find a quiet spot somewhere in the courtyard.”
Joshua followed Jesus into the inner courtyard and sat down next to him in the shade.
“I experienced my future life while sitting in the theater. I experienced, what kind of difficult times I will probably have to endure in the last couple months of my life.”
Joshua went pale. “You beheld your future? And now you feel better about it?”
“Yes, Joshua. I am aware that I have a difficult life ahead of me. Although I am only about seven years old, I feel older than seven already. Can you understand that?”
“Hmm“, Joshua was so amazed at the clarity with which his friend, who was even a year younger than him, spoke of his future life. He himself had not spent a lot of time thinking about such things yet. The only thing he was worried about was that he had to leave Nazareth soon. But he was not concerned about what his task in this life was or what he could expect, much less, when he would die. He was not even sure about what dying meant.
“Jesus, what exactly did you experience?”
“I saw that I would travel in various countries when I am older. There I will be prepared for my work. Then I saw how myself travelling in my home country and not being understood by anyone here. They even tried to throw stones at me. I spent much time in Galilee and before that also quite a while in …“ At that moment Jesus stopped and wondered whether he should already let Joshua know that he would be living in Ephesus for a few years as well. He had had a vision in the theater of how things currently looked in that city. It had become clear to him that part of his mission involved being in Ephesus for some time.
“Please continue, Jesus. Where will you spend some time as well? In Jerusalem?”
“Yes, there too.” Jesus paused again, but then decided to let Joshua know. Perhaps it would help him get over the pain of goodbye. “Before I travel in Galilee and Judah, I will spend some years in Ephesus.”
“What?” Joshua was utterly amazed. “Why exactly in that city? We have hardly ever heard anything about this city so far and there must be many others. Why are you gong to be spending time in that city?”
“Because our father wishes this. He told me that the task in Ephesus was very important.” As usual Jesus spoke with great clarity.
“Jesus, I am very happy. Then we can go to the theater together.” Joshua was delighted beyond belief.
“Yes, Joshua.” Jesus refrained from telling Joshua that it would be over two decades till that time arrived. Perhaps Joshua would have forgotten about him by then, for he was not going to have an easy life in that city. He had witnessed this during his vision in the theater, which he naturally had not told Joshua or the others, and did not wish too, either. He suddenly felt very tired and asked Joshua to leave. They would see each other again tomorrow.
The last couple of days have been the worst in my life. Father, I ask you from the depths of my soul: Will I be crucified? Will I have to undergo all that pain? If yes, do I really have to take on this mission? I can already sense your answer, while I am writing these words. Why can't I just lead a normal life like everybody else?
Father, please help me and think it over again. I can't write anymore today since I am feeling too weak today.
Over Mount Tabor
The Santinian Tai Shiin stood above Mt. Tabor with his spaceship as always and observed what was going on in Nazareth via his numerous screens, especially the activity of Jesus and Joshua. Tai Shiin was glad that the last couple of weeks following the theater visit had
