The Walt Whitman MEGAPACK ®. Walt Whitman

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from where you retired you shall emerge again;

      O I do not know whether many passing by will discover you or inhale your faint odor, but I believe a few will;

      O slender leaves! O blossoms of my blood! I permit you to tell in your own way of the heart that is under you,

      O I do not know what you mean there underneath yourselves, you are not happiness,

      You are often more bitter than I can bear, you burn and sting me,

      Yet you are beautiful to me you faint tinged roots, you make me think of death,

      Death is beautiful from you, (what indeed is finally beautiful except death and love?)

      O I think it is not for life I am chanting here my chant of lovers, I think it must be for death,

      For how calm, how solemn it grows to ascend to the atmosphere of lovers,

      Death or life I am then indifferent, my soul declines to prefer,

      (I am not sure but the high soul of lovers welcomes death most,)

      Indeed O death, I think now these leaves mean precisely the same as you mean,

      Grow up taller sweet leaves that I may see! grow up out of my breast!

      Spring away from the conceal’d heart there!

      Do not fold yourself so in your pink-tinged roots timid leaves!

      Do not remain down there so ashamed, herbage of my breast!

      Come I am determin’d to unbare this broad breast of mine, I have long enough stifled and choked;

      Emblematic and capricious blades I leave you, now you serve me not,

      I will say what I have to say by itself,

      I will sound myself and comrades only, I will never again utter a call only their call,

      I will raise with it immortal reverberations through the States,

      I will give an example to lovers to take permanent shape and will through the States,

      Through me shall the words be said to make death exhilarating,

      Give me your tone therefore O death, that I may accord with it,

      Give me yourself, for I see that you belong to me now above all, and are folded inseparably together, you love and death are,

      Nor will I allow you to balk me any more with what I was calling life,

      For now it is convey’d to me that you are the purports essential,

      That you hide in these shifting forms of life, for reasons, and that they are mainly for you,

      That you beyond them come forth to remain, the real reality,

      That behind the mask of materials you patiently wait, no matter how long,

      That you will one day perhaps take control of all,

      That you will perhaps dissipate this entire show of appearance,

      That may-be you are what it is all for, but it does not last so very long,

      But you will last very long.

      Whoever You Are Holding Me Now in Hand

      Whoever you are holding me now in hand,

      Without one thing all will be useless,

      I give you fair warning before you attempt me further,

      I am not what you supposed, but far different.

      Who is he that would become my follower?

      Who would sign himself a candidate for my affections?

      The way is suspicious, the result uncertain, perhaps destructive,

      You would have to give up all else, I alone would expect to be your sole and exclusive standard,

      Your novitiate would even then be long and exhausting,

      The whole past theory of your life and all conformity to the lives around you would have to be abandon’d,

      Therefore release me now before troubling yourself any further, let go your hand from my shoulders,

      Put me down and depart on your way.

      Or else by stealth in some wood for trial,

      Or back of a rock in the open air,

      (For in any roof’d room of a house I emerge not, nor in company,

      And in libraries I lie as one dumb, a gawk, or unborn, or dead,)

      But just possibly with you on a high hill, first watching lest any person for miles around approach unawares,

      Or possibly with you sailing at sea, or on the beach of the sea or some quiet island,

      Here to put your lips upon mine I permit you,

      With the comrade’s long-dwelling kiss or the new husband’s kiss,

      For I am the new husband and I am the comrade.

      Or if you will, thrusting me beneath your clothing,

      Where I may feel the throbs of your heart or rest upon your hip,

      Carry me when you go forth over land or sea;

      For thus merely touching you is enough, is best,

      And thus touching you would I silently sleep and be carried eternally.

      But these leaves conning you con at peril,

      For these leaves and me you will not understand,

      They will elude you at first and still more afterward, I will certainly elude you.

      Even while you should think you had unquestionably caught me, behold!

      Already you see I have escaped from you.

      For it is not for what I have put into it that I have written this book,

      Nor is it by reading it you will acquire it,

      Nor do those know me best who admire me and vauntingly praise me,

      Nor will the candidates for my love (unless at most a very few) prove victorious,

      Nor will my poems do good only, they will do just as much evil, perhaps more,

      For all is useless without that which you may guess at many times and not hit, that which I hinted at;

      Therefore release me

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