me sorry, or you for me, but just the common infirmities of mankind. “The guilt of Adam’s first sin, the want of original righteousness, and the corruption of my whole nature,” so much I must answer for, and I hope I have been taught where to look for help,’ I said; for I judged from the look of the man he would think the better of me if I knew my questions. ‘But in the way of worldly honour I have no great stumble to reproach myself with; and my difficulties have befallen me very much against my will and (by all that I can see) without my fault. My trouble is to have become dipped in a political complication, which it is judged you would be blythe to avoid a knowledge of.’
‘Why, very well, Mr David,’ he replied, ‘I am pleased to see you are all that Rankeillor represented. And for what you say of political complications, you do me no more than justice. It is my study to be beyond suspicion, and indeed outside the field of it. The question is,’ says he, ‘how, if I am to know nothing of the matter, I can very well assist you?’
‘Why, sir,’ said I, ‘I propose you should write to his lordship, that I am a young man of reasonable good family and of good means: both of which I believe to be the case.’
‘I have Rankeillor’s word for it,’ said Mr Balfour, ‘and I count that a warrandice against all deadly.’
‘To which you might add (if you will take my word for so much) that I am a good churchman, loyal to King George, and so brought up,’ I went on.
‘None of which will do you any harm,’ said Mr Balfour.
‘Then you might go on to say that I sought his lordship on a matter of great moment, connected with His Majesty’s service and the administration of justice,’ I suggested.
‘As I am not to hear the matter,’ says the laird, ‘I will not take upon myself to qualify its weight. “Great moment” therefore falls, and “moment” along with it. For the rest I might express myself much as you propose.’
‘And then, sir,’ said I, and rubbed my neck a little with my thumb, ‘then I would be very desirous if you could slip in a word that might perhaps tell for my protection.’
‘Protection?’ says he, ‘for your protection? Here is a phrase that somewhat dampens me. If the matter be so dangerous, I own I would be a little loath to move in it blindfold.’
‘I believe I could indicate in two words where the thing sticks,’ said I.
‘Perhaps that would be the best,’ said he.
‘Well, it’s the Appin murder,’ said I.
He held up both the hands. ‘Sirs! sirs!’ cried he.
I thought by the expression of his face and voice that I had lost my helper.
‘Let me explain …’ I began.
‘I thank you kindly, I will hear no more of it,’ says he. ‘I decline in toto to hear more of it. For your name’s sake and Rankeillor’s, and perhaps a little for your own, I will do what I can to help you; but I will hear no more upon the facts. And it is my first clear duty to warn you. These are deep waters, Mr David, and you are a young man. Be cautious and think twice.’
‘It is to be supposed I will have thought oftener than that, Mr Balfour,’ said I, ‘and I will direct your attention again to Rankeillor’s letter, where (I hope and believe) he has registered his approval of that which I design.’
‘Well, well,’ said he; and then again, ‘Well, well! I will do what I can for you.’ Therewith he took a pen and paper, sat awhile in thought, and began to write with much consideration. ‘I understand that Rankeillor approves of what you have in mind?’ he asked presently.
‘After some discussion, sir, he bade me to go forward in God’s name,’ said I.
‘That is the name to go in,’ said Mr Balfour, and resumed his writing. Presently, he signed, re-read what he had written, and addressed me again. ‘Now here, Mr David,’ said he, ‘is a letter of introduction, which I will seal without closing, and give into your hands open, as the form requires. But since I am acting in the dark, I will just read it to you, so that you may see if it will secure your end:
Pilrig, August 26th,1751
My Lord,—This is to bring to your notice my namesake and cousin, David Balfour Esquire of Shaws, a young gentleman of unblemished descent and good estate. He has enjoyed besides the more valuable advantages of a godly training, and his political principles are all that your lordship can desire. I am not in Mr Balfour’s confidence, but I understand him to have a matter to declare, touching His Majesty’s service and the administration of justice: purposes for which your Lordship’s zeal is known. I should add that the young gentleman’s intention is known to and approved by some of his friends, who will watch with hopeful anxiety the event of his success or failure.
‘Whereupon,’ continued Mr Balfour, ‘I have subscribed myself with the usual compliments. You observe I have said “some of your friends”; I hope you can justify my plural?’
‘Perfectly, sir; my purpose is known and approved by more than one,’ said I. ‘And your letter, which I take a pleasure to thank you for, is all I could have hoped.’
‘It was all I could squeeze out,’ said he; ‘and from what I know of the matter you design to meddle in, I can only pray God that it may prove sufficient.’
MY KINSMAN KEPT me to a meal, ‘for the honour of the roof’, he said; and I believe I made the better speed on my return. I had no thought but to be done with the next stage, and have myself fully committed; to a person circumstanced as I was, the appearance of closing a door on hesitation and temptation was itself extremely tempting; and I was the more disappointed, when I came to Prestongrange’s house, to be informed he was abroad. I believe it was true at the moment, and for some hours after; and then I have no doubt the Advocate came home again, and enjoyed himself in a neighbouring chamber among friends, while perhaps the very fact of my arrival was forgotten. I would have gone away a dozen times, only for this strong drawing to have done with my declaration out of hand and be able to lay me down to sleep with a free conscience. At first I read, for the little cabinet where I was left contained a variety of books. But I fear I read with little profit; and the weather falling cloudy, the dusk coming up earlier than usual, and my cabinet being lighted with but a loophole of a window, I was at last obliged to desist from this diversion (such as it was), and pass the rest of my time of waiting in a very burthensome vacuity. The sound of people talking in a near chamber, the pleasant note of a harpsichord, and once the voice of a lady singing, bore me a kind of company.
I do not know the hour, but the darkness was long come, when the door of the cabinet opened, and I was aware, by the light behind him, of a tall figure of a man upon the threshold. I rose at once.
‘Is anybody there?’ he asked. ‘Who is that?’
‘I am bearer of a letter from the laird of Pilrig to the Lord Advocate,’ said I.
‘Have you been here long?’ he asked.
‘I
