faintly at his private joke. Or was it private? He glanced furtively at Sara; he never knew with her. Her face remained polite and aloof.
“But she’ll be along in a minute,” he finished lamely, feeling crude and collegiate.
“That’s good. It’s really nice to see you here again. Tim will be so glad to see you too. Now drink up, Joe.”
Joe paused, the glass on its way to his open and thirsty mouth to say, “How is Tim?”
“Oh, fine as ever . . . a little pooped now and then. He gets upset, little things that he doesn’t like to talk about. It’s been a funny summer, what with this and that. But he’ll be really, really glad when you get there.”
Joe felt once more the uncertainty he so often had with Sara Porter. Was she really cold, really pushing all the world from her in a thousand subtle ways, or was she the warm hospitable woman he believed he knew? He shook his head slightly. Why worry? Most of the time, except when he remembered how long he had known her, yet how little he knew her, he felt all right about her and that it might not really matter.
They clinked glasses, and then sat for a minute without talking, watched the green light flicker over their table, listened to children playing lazily on the quay by the boat landing. Joe finished his glass and then poured half a second one solemnly into Sara’s before he drank from it.
“God, that’s good,” he said, wiping the foam from his full wide lips, then smiling. “You know the beer in Munich isn’t as good as it used to be, Sara. It tastes thin, somehow.”
“What?”
“I said the Munich beer tastes thin, different from the old days.”
“You know you speak more softly all the time, Joe. Whenever you blow into town I always go through a few hours of wondering if I’m becoming deaf.”
“Blow in is right! Hell! And I promised you, last time, that I’d let you know in advance of my coming, didn’t I?”
“Oh, don’t brood. But yes, it is more convenient to know at least a few hours before, but I suppose you got all balled up again or something.”
Joe peered at her suspiciously, but her eyes were as bland as the rest of her face and betrayed nothing.
“What I’m afraid,” she went right on, “is that this time we can’t put you up.” She then stopped speaking to laugh at his pained and horror-struck face.
“Oh Christ, no,” Joe said in protest. “And after all I’ve told Sue about La Prairie and your cooking? And how we’ve walked all the way from Munich just to get to you.”
“You walked?” Sara asked. “Do you mean to tell me, Joseph Kelly, that you made Sue hitchhike? That tiny dainty little thing? No wonder you’re late. It’s a wonder you didn’t kill her.”
“Nothing of the kind! She actually loved it. It was the first time in her life she’d ever done anything so daring. And anyway, her size has nothing to do with it—that girl is as strong as a horse.
“But, Sara,” Joe asked, “is it because you’re sore that I didn’t tell you when we’d land?”
“Of course not. As a matter of fact, we just got in last night ourselves from a jaunt up to Dijon. But the truth is the place is more full than it’s ever been, but wait, here she is!”
Susan Harper stood for a moment on the edge of the terrace looking at Joe and his friend. If she didn’t feel so awful, she thought, she’d be hurt at the free and easy expression in her lover’s dark and undeveloped face, the new relaxation in his huge shoulders. But she did happen to feel so sick. Her head felt as if it were full of old feathers and she knew with a chill and a dreadful certainty that somewhere between Munich and Veytaux she had caught a prize cold. She sniffed angrily.
Then, as if it had been held at bay by space alone, shyness swept over her. She began to tremble inside and pray to God that her head and her voice would not quake and betray how her stomach was shaking as she began to totter across the miles of terrace that separated her from them.
She was wondering as she went along how this woman managed to scare her so thoroughly. The several times she’d seen Sara before, in America, she’d been quiet and kind and—in her own detached way—seemed honestly interested in what Susan was doing and what and where she was studying. Sue and Joe had gone to her house twice for dinner and had eaten and drunk and talked well into the night; rather Joe had. Sue still remembered the agonies of her own shyness that had almost conquered her before each visit and the awkwardness that conspired to make her clumsily drop glasses and trip over rugs and stutter as she never had since grammar school.
Was all that to start again? she wondered. She was grown up now, no longer the foolish virgin. In fact, Susan was only a few years younger than Sara was herself. And Sara hadn’t needed these four years of living in Europe to make her polished, as she’d already been so smart and so cool.
Sue surreptitiously wiped a little tear of perspiration from the hollow of her upper lip, then stretched to make the most of her fifty-nine inches, pulled her skirt smoother over her tight little buttocks, and walked as haughtily as she could manage across the terrace.
“Good morning, Mrs. Porter,” she said without smiling. “It’s wonderful to see you again after so long. I hope you will excuse my being late.”
Oh dear God, Sue thought as she sat down and remained stiffly posed on the hard café chair. She was wondering what had happened to her. At home she was one of those who had social poise, as it was called, one of the more valuable helps during rushing at the sorority house, necessary to impress the timid freshwomen with her sophistication.
Where, she thought, was all that now?
Sue frowned, suddenly hating Joe for bringing her here, all the while trying not to sniff. Sara’s voice came to her as if through a dense fog.
“I’m glad to see you here, Susan. And Tim will be too. He’s anxious to meet you. And of course it’s all right about being late. I did a lot of marketing and then came back here because I didn’t know which hotel you were staying at. I’m so terribly sorry not to have been able to put you up last night—we’d just got in from Dijon. You want some beer, don’t you? Jean, three beers. And then . . .” Sara looked at her watch and smiled at Sue and Joe before she turned to the waiter, “. . . and then in exactly seven minutes, three more, please.”
Susan stirred herself to protest, permitting herself a quiet, rather unsatisfactory sniff, the sound covered, she hoped, by Joe’s laughter.
“We haven’t seen anyone order beers in such a lordly way for weeks, have we, Sue?”
“Maybe the beer in Munich tasted thin because of your politics, Joe, you don’t suppose?”
“Well, no,” he said. “Not even the political rape and treason that we’ve witnessed there could spoil my fine appreciative taste for beer. I swear, Sara, even French beer tastes better than that stuff in Germany now! And the food? Do you know that if you order butter in a restaurant . . .”
Susan listened to their voices flowing on wordlessly. She raised her glass as they did theirs, then sat sipping at it, wishing it was water. How could a thin woman like Sara hold her liquor so well? Wasn’t beer bad for
