constant re-checking of every one of his instruments might have saved him. But he had been too terrified to think straight, and too ashamed of his “first-run” inexperience to send out a short wave message requesting emergency instructions and advice. Now he was hopelessly off his course and it was too late. Too late!
He could almost feel the steadily-growing pull of his mindless enemy in the distant sky. Floating and kicking his way over to the Tele-screen, he quickly switched the instrument on. Rotating the control dials, he brought the blinding white image of the onrushing solar disk into perfect focus. Automatically he adjusted the two superimposed polaroid filters until the proper amount of light was transmitted to his viewing screen. They really built ships and filters these days, he reflected wryly. Now if they could only form a rescue squad just as easily—
Even through the viewing screen he could almost feel the hot blast of white light hit his face with the physical impact of a baseball bat. With what was almost a whimper of suppressed fear he rocked backward on his heels.
The Sun’s ghastly prominences seemed to reach beckoning fingers toward him, as its flood of burning, radiant light seared through the incalculable cold of space, and its living corona of free electrons and energy particles appeared to swell and throb menacingly.
Fearfully he watched the flaming orb draw closer and closer, and as its pull grew more pronounced he wondered if it were not, in some nightmarishly fantastic fashion becoming malignantly aware of him. It resembled nothing so much as a great festering sore; an infection of the very warp-and-woof stuff of space.
He flipped off the power control on the Tele-screen and watched the image fade away with a depleted whine of dying energy. That incandescent inferno out there— Grimly he tried to recall the name of the man who had said that, philosophically, energy is not actually a real thing at all.
He knew better than to waste time trying the pilot controls again. They were hopelessly jammed by the great magnetic attraction of the Sun. They had been jammed for hours now. He forced his way back to his bunk, and securely lashed himself to it again. Sleep was his only hope now, his only real escape from the growing, screaming hysteria within him.
He flung an arm across his tired face. His thin features trembled as he remembered the continuous alterations in his trajectory that had brought him within range of the Sun’s mighty pull. He remembered also every detail of the last and gravest of the series of miscalculations that had swept him from the established route of the regular Venus-Mercury mail run, and threatened him with a violent, flaming end.
Greatly off course, he had been approaching Mercury, a routine thirty-six million miles from the Sun. On this, the final leg of his long journey, he had deviated just far enough from the extreme limits of safety to find himself and his ship gripped inexorably in the mighty magnetic fields of the Sun’s passage . . . .
He remembered a name— Josephine.
There would be no lover’s meeting now on the green fields of Earth in the dusk of a summer evening. There would be no such meeting now. Not unless the prayers and dreams a boy and a girl had shared had followed him, plunging senselessly into the cold glacial heart of interstellar space.
His false bravado began to break and he began to weep quietly. He began to wish with all his heart that he had never left home.
The sudden crackling of the almost static-jammed ultra-wave radio snapped through to his mind. Quickly he began to free himself from the bunk.
“MR4, come in, MR4.”
An eternity seemed to pass as he floated across the room, deliberately disregarding the strategically-placed hand-grips on the walls, floor, and ceiling. It seemed aeons before he reached the narrow little control compartment, and got the ultra-wave radio into action, nearly wrecking it in his clumsy-fingered haste.
“MR4 to Earth. Over.”
He waited a few moments and then repeated the message as no acknowledgment came through. Then he abruptly remembered the nearby presence of the Sun and its interference with radio transmission and reception. He was white and shaken by the time his message was received and his report requested and given.
He gave the whole tragic picture in frantic short wave. The amount of atomic fuel left in the ship, the internal and external temperatures, the distance from the Sun, and the strength of the solar disk’s magnetic field and his rate of drift toward it—along with a staggering list of other pertinent factors.
At last it was over and he stood by awaiting the decision from Earth headquarters.
It came at last.
“MR4.” The growling voice was Donnelly’s, the huge space-engineer in charge of the smaller mail-rocket units. “You’re in a tough spot but we’ve got an expert here from the Government. He’s worked on deals like this with me before and he’s got an idea.
“Here’s the substance of it. We’re going to send out a space tug from Mercury to see if we can haul you in. It’s a new, experimental tug and it’s been kept under wraps until now. But it’s been designed for jobs like this and we figure it can sure as hell do it.
“There’s just one hitch, though, kid. It’s a mighty powerful ship so there’s going to be a terrific shock when it contacts you and the magnetic grapples set to work. In your medicine kit you’ll find a small hypo in a red-sealed plastic box. Take the shot that’s in it immediately and we’ll have the tug out there as soon as we can. It will probably take about twelve hours.”
Donnelly’s voice broke and he hesitated strangely for a moment. “You’ll be out fast,” he went on. “So you won’t feel a thing when the shock wave hits you. There’s less chance of injuries, this way.”
*
“It’s a lousy thing to do,” cried Donnelly as he snapped off the set. “A rotten, heartless way of giving the lad false hopes. But then you don’t give a damn about anybody’s feelings but your own, do you, Doc?”
“Take it easy, Joe—”
“Shut up, Williams. I’m talking to this little Government time-server over here, not to you.”
The psychiatrist shrugged wearily. “I don’t care what you think. I’ve worked with you both on cases similar to this before, though I’ll admit that none of them were quite as hopeless. In any case, I’ll do it my way, or not at all.”
“Maybe you will, maybe you will,” said Donnelly. “But if I had to wait thirty days in that thing and somebody told me it was only a matter of hours—”
“I know what I’m doing even if you think that I don’t. The Government has developed a set approach in matters like this. Fortunately, there aren’t many of them. Perhaps if there were—”
“Let me take over, Doc,” broke in Donnelly. “I’m a space-engineer and that makes me far better qualified to handle this than you are. Why the hell they ever put a psychiatrist on this job in the first place is something I’ll never know, if I live to be a hundred and ten. It’s a job for an engineer, not a brain washer.”
“There’s a lot of things you’ll never know, Donnelly,” the gaunt, thin little man sighed wearily. He sat down at the long mahogany table in the Radio Room. With a careless wave of one arm, he swept a pile of papers and magazines to the floor.
“Try and get this through your head, Donnelly. There’s
