nice, and she’s totally into him. I’d probably kiss her myself if the chance came along.”
“Good to know,” said Jamie. “Honestly, I hope he is spending all his time with her. It would be a lot healthier than chaining himself to his desk.”
“Agreed,” said Kate. “But we both know that won’t be what’s happening. They’re probably in the lab right now while we’re sat here drinking beer. It’s what they do.”
“Probably,” said Jamie. “So you think it’s real? Matt and Natalia, I mean?”
“I do,” said Kate, instantly. “I talked to her about him months ago, just before the bomb in my quarters. She was falling for him then, never mind now. And Matt, thank all the stars in the heavens, seems to have managed not to screw it up. So yeah, I think it’s real.”
“I hope so,” said Jamie. “It would be good for at least one of us to have somebody. Especially if the world really is about to end.”
Kate rolled her eyes. “What a cheerful thought,” she said. “The world has been about to end ever since you all got back from France, Jamie. It’s still here.”
“For now,” he said. “Part of me just wishes Dracula would get on with it.”
“Don’t say that.”
“Why not?” he said. “We’d either win or we’d lose. At least we’d know. Or we’d be dead.”
“Wow,” said Kate. “You’re really going for the angry nihilist thing these days, aren’t you?”
Jamie stared intently at her for a long moment, then smiled. “Am I carrying it off?”
“More or less,” said Kate. “I know you really are angry, and I know you feel like you’re alone, but you’re not. I’m still here, Jamie. So is Matt, and so are Ellison and Qiang, and Angela and Jack and Dominique and Paul and everyone else.”
He didn’t respond; he merely stared at his friend.
“Talk to me, Jamie,” she continued. “Talk to me about Larissa.”
He shrugged. “There’s nothing to say.”
“I don’t believe that. Not for a minute.”
“It’s the truth,” said Jamie. “I wish she hadn’t gone, I miss her, and I wish she’d come back. That’s all there is to it.”
“If you say so,” said Kate.
“What about you?” he said. “Do you still miss Shaun?”
Kate grimaced, but gave a brief nod. “Every day,” she said. “Being here makes it harder, to be honest. When people lose somebody out there, they grieve for as long as it takes and then they get to forget about them. I know that sounds bad, and I don’t mean they never think about the person again, but they forget enough to be able to carry on. I get reminded of Shaun every day. Every single day. I see his dad, or one of his friends, or I find myself somewhere we had a conversation. It’s like I’m not allowed to move on.”
Jamie’s heart ached for his friend as she spoke, and he was momentarily furious with Shaun Turner for leaving her like this, trapped by his memory, unable to mourn him and let him go. But it wasn’t Shaun’s fault; he hadn’t asked to have his neck broken by Valeri Rusmanov, hadn’t done anything to deserve the fate that had befallen him apart from fight bravely against almost overwhelming odds.
“I’m sorry,” said Jamie. He picked up his beer, found it empty, and took a long drink from his fourth bottle. “I don’t know what else to say. I’m really sorry, Kate.”
“It’s not your fault,” she said, and gave him a fierce smile. “But thank you for saying it.”
“No worries,” he said. “I was going to ask you about your dad, but maybe we’ve spent enough time discussing friends and family?”
Kate’s smile curdled into a frown. “Oh, on the contrary,” she said. “I’m happy to talk about him. I assume you read that stupid website interview?”
“I read it,” said Jamie. “I take it you weren’t thrilled?”
“That would be putting it very, very mildly,” said Kate, a slight edge to her voice. “I mean, I get that SSL is him trying to make a difference, and I suppose I’m proud of him for that, but I’ll never understand why he decided to tell the whole world that Matt and I work for the Department. Not only was it a crime, given that they both signed the Official Secrets Act, but it was just such a stupidly dangerous thing to do. If SSL hasn’t already made them targets to the people that hate anyone who seems like they’re on the side of the vamps, what do they think announcing that they’re related to serving Blacklight Operators is going to do? What happens when the next psycho with a grudge against the Department decides they can get to me and Matt by hurting our dads? And what if I can’t protect him if that happens? It’s ridiculous, Jamie. It’s absolutely ridiculous. I’m so angry with him.”
Jamie leant forward. “That’s all fair,” he said. “Are Surveillance keeping an eye on him?”
“Yes,” she said. The colour that had risen in her cheeks as she spoke was starting to recede. “There’s a standing watch on him and Greg. But watching is one thing. Dealing with anything that happens is something else.”
“Right.”
“Anyway,” said Kate, “I’m doing what I can from Security. I just have to trust the two of them not to get themselves into any trouble.”
Jamie smiled. “How are you getting on with that?”
Kate laughed. “Pretty badly,” she said. “I sometimes forget which one of us is the parent.”
Jamie nodded, and drained his beer. His body felt pleasantly loose, his head warm and fuzzy.
“God,” said Kate, holding her own empty bottle up to the light. “I’m going to regret this when my alarm goes off tomorrow, but I really don’t care right now. This has been nice, Jamie. I think I needed it.”
“Me too,” said Jamie. “Although what I really need right now is to lie down.”
“Good plan,” said Kate, and smiled at him. “Let’s call it a night.”
Jamie got to his feet, and immediately realised that he was quite a bit drunker than he had thought; he felt unsteady on his feet, as though he was swaying gently from side to side. He looked at Kate and grinned; the expression on her face told him that she had made exactly the same discovery as him. She giggled as she noticed him staring at her, and shook her head.
“This isn’t fair,” she said. “You can just sober up whenever you want. I’m stuck like this.”
Jamie recoiled. “I can do what?”
“Your vampire side sobers you up. Larissa found out in Las Vegas. Don’t you remember?”
“Shit,” said Jamie. “That is seriously tempting. But you’re right, it wouldn’t be fair. I’ll suffer with you.”
