wage of your own, then you can make the rules. Till then, you do as I say. Now get out of my sight.’
Fuming, Weird stormed out of the room and ran up the stairs. God, he hated his family. And he hated this house. Raith Estate was supposed to be the last word in modern living, but he thought this was yet another con perpetrated by the grey men in suits. You didn’t have to be smart to recognize that this wasn’t a patch on the house they used to live in. Stone walls, solid wooden doors with panels and beading, stained glass in the landing window. That was a house. OK, this box had more rooms, but they were poky, the ceilings and doorways so low that Weird felt he had to stoop constantly to accommodate his six feet and three inches. The walls were paper thin too. You could hear someone fart in the next room. Which was pretty funny, when you thought about it. His parents were so repressed, they wouldn’t know an emotion if it bit them on the leg. And yet they’d spent a fortune on a house that stripped everyone of privacy. Sharing a room with Alex felt more privileged than living under his parents’ roof.
Why had they never made any attempt to understand the first thing about him? He felt as if he’d spent his whole life in rebellion. Nothing he achieved had ever cut any ice here because it didn’t fit the narrow confines of his parents’ aspirations. When he’d been crowned school chess champion, his father had harrumphed that he’d have been better off joining the bridge team. When he’d asked to take up a musical instrument, his father had refused point blank, offering to buy him a set of golf clubs instead. When he’d won the mathematics prize every single year in high school, his father had responded by buying him books on accountancy, completely missing the point. Maths to Weird wasn’t about totting up figures; it was the beauty of the graph of a quadratic equation, the elegance of calculus, the mysterious language of algebra. If it hadn’t been for his pals, he’d have felt like a complete freak. As it was, they’d given him a place to let off steam safely, a chance to spread his wings without crashing and burning.
And all he’d done in return was to give them grief. Guilt washed over him as he remembered his latest madness. This time, he’d gone too far. It had started as a joke, nicking Henry Cavendish’s motor. He’d had no idea then where it might lead. None of the others could save him from the consequences if this came out, he realized that. He only hoped he wouldn’t bring them down with him.
Weird slotted his new Clash tape into the stereo and threw himself down on the bed. He’d listen to the first side, then he’d get ready for bed. He had to be up at five to meet Alex and Mondo for their early shift at the supermarket. Normally, the prospect of rising so early would have depressed the hell out of him. But the way things were here, it would be a relief to be out of the house, a mercy to have something to stop his mind spinning in circles. Christ, he wished he had a joint.
At least his father’s emotional brutality had pushed the invasive thoughts of Rosie Duff to one side. By the time Joe Strummer sang ‘Julie’s in the Drug Squad’, Weird was locked in deep, dreamless sleep.
Karel Malkiewicz drove like an old man at the best of times. Hesitant, slow, entirely unpredictable at junctions. He was also a fair-weather driver. Under normal circumstances, the first sign of fog or frost would mean the car stayed put and he’d walk down the steep hill of Massareene Road to Bennochy, where he could catch a bus that would take him to Factory Road and his work as an electrician in the floor-covering works. It had been a long time since the disappearance of the pall of linseed oil that had given the town its reputation of ‘the queer-like smell’, but although linoleum had plummeted out of fashion, what came out of Nairn’s factory still covered the floors of millions of kitchens, bathrooms and hallways. It had given Karel Malkiewicz a decent living since he’d come out of the RAF after the war, and he was grateful.
That didn’t mean he’d forgotten the reasons why he’d left Krakow in the first place. Nobody could survive that toxic atmosphere of mistrust and perfidy without scars, especially not a Polish Jew who had been lucky enough to get out before the pogrom that had left him without a family to call his own.
He’d had to rebuild his life, create a new family for himself. His old family had never been particularly observant, so he hadn’t felt too bereft by his abandonment of his religion. There were no Jews in Kirkcaldy, he remembered someone telling him a few days after he’d arrived in the town. The sentiment was clear: ‘That’s the way we like it.’ And so he’d assimilated, even going so far as to marry his wife in a Catholic church. He’d learned how to belong in this strange, insular land that had made him welcome. He’d surprised himself at the fierce possessive pride he’d felt when a Pole had become Pope so recently. He so seldom thought of himself as Polish these days.
He’d been almost forty when the son he’d always dreamed of had finally arrived. It was a cause for rejoicing, but also for a renewal of fear. Now he had so much more to lose. This was a civilized country. The fascists could never gain a hold here. That was the received wisdom, anyway. But Germany too had been a civilized country. No one could predict what might happen in any country when the numbers of the dispossessed reached a critical mass. Anyone who promised salvation would find a following.
And lately, there had been good grounds for fear. The National Front were creeping through the political undergrowth. Strikes and industrial unrest were making the government edgy. The IRA’s bombing campaign gave the politicians all the excuses they needed for introducing repressive measures. And that cold bitch who ran the Tory party talked of immigrants swamping the indigenous culture. Oh yes, the seeds were all there.
So when Alex Gilbey had rung and told him his son had spent the night in a police station, Karel Malkiewicz had no choice. He wanted his boy under his roof, under his wing. Nobody would come and take his son away in the night. He wrapped up warmly, instructing his wife to prepare a flask of hot soup and a parcel of sandwiches. Then he set off across Fife to bring his son home.
It took him nearly two hours to negotiate the thirty miles in his elderly Vauxhall. But he was relieved to see lights on in the house Sigmund shared with his friends. He parked the car, picked up his supplies and marched up the path.
There was no answer to his knocking at first. He stepped gingerly on to the snow and looked in through the brightly lit kitchen window. The room was empty. He banged on the window and shouted, ‘Sigmund! Open up, it’s your father.’
He heard the sound of feet clattering down stairs, then the door opened to reveal his handsome son, grinning from ear to ear, his arms spread wide in welcome. ‘Dad,’ he said, stepping barefoot into the slush to embrace his father. ‘I didn’t expect to see you.’
‘Alex called. I didn’t want you to be alone. So I came to get you.’ Karel clasped his son to him, the butterfly of fear beating its wings inside his chest. Love, he thought, was a terrible thing.
Mondo sat cross-legged on his bed, within easy reach of his turntable. He was listening, over and over again, to his personal theme, ‘Shine On, You Crazy Diamond’. The swooping guitars, the heartfelt anguish of Roger Waters’ voice, the elegiac synths, the breathy saxophone provided the perfect soundtrack for wallowing to.
And wallowing was exactly what Mondo wanted to do. He’d escaped the smother of his mother’s concern that had swamped him as soon as he’d explained what had happened. It had been quite pleasant for a while, the familiar cocoon of concern spinning itself around him. But gradually, it had started to stifle him and he’d excused himself with the need to be alone. The Greta Garbo routine always worked with his mother, who thought he was an intellectual because he read books in French. It seemed to escape her notice that that’s what you had to do when you were studying the subject at degree level.
Just as well, really. He couldn’t have begun to explain the turmoil of emotion that threatened to swamp him. Violence was alien to him, a foreign language whose grammar and vocabulary he’d never assimilated. His recent confrontation with it had
