know you probably think I’m being nosy, but I’m your mother, and I only want the best for you. I want to see you happy, and healthy, and have everything good in life.”
I smiled. “I know, Mama, I know. I’ll get there. Things are just a little stressed right now.”
“I know that—which is why I’m glad you’re going to take this trip. I really think it’ll do you some good.” I heard a smile creeping into her voice. “And you can do a little bit of spying on your grandfather for me.”
“You bet. I’ll have daily updates for you, if you want,” I replied.
She laughed. It was a beautiful sound—one I couldn’t bear to think about never hearing again. How do you deal with the loss of your mother? I wondered silently.
“Mama?” I ventured. “I know you’re worried about me, and you’re worried about Grandpa…but how are you? How are you feeling these days? I know it’s been a few weeks since we had some time together, and I feel like I’m being a horrible daughter,” I said, adding one more item to my own guilt list. “Are you doing okay?”
There was a deafening silence on the other end.
“Mama?” I asked again.
“Mmm?”
“I love you.” My voice was thick with emotion.
“I love you back, baby. So much,” she whispered.
“So, so much,” I echoed.
“Now go pack,” she said, clearly having decided to regain her grip on her composure. “You only have three days until you leave.”
I rolled my eyes, letting my gaze fall on the itinerary I’d printed out. As if I could forget. Three days to pack. Three days to wrap my head around this whole thing. Only three days. I felt my gut tighten.
“Three days,” I repeated flatly.
“Suck it up, Buttercup,” Mama said, sounding gleeful.
“And put on my Big Girl Panties?”
“You got it. Just make sure they’re presentable.”
“Ooh, can I go, too?” My sister was surprisingly excited over the thought of underwear shopping—especially for a pregnant woman. Maybe she was thinking ahead and looking forward to being able to see her toes…and other parts of herself when she looked down again. Or perhaps there was some kind of Panty Fever sweeping Pensacola and the rest of the Florida panhandle that I didn’t know about; but the last time I checked, we were hardly the lingerie capital of the world. People here were generally more focused on fishing lures and tackle boxes than fishnet stockings and bustiers.
“When are you going?” Charlie asked, breaking into my thoughts.
“Seriously? You want to go underwear shopping with me?”
“It’s not just underwear shopping, Dellie, remember? It’s part of your bucket list,” she said, reminding me of my new project. I’d told her about it in a text, and now I was wondering if maybe that had been a mistake. “We have to find you something really pretty. The sparklier, the better. No Granny Panties for you,” she declared.
“Why does it matter what they look like? No one’s going to see them, anyway,” I replied, feeling myself waver a bit.
“It matters because you see them,” Charlie said.
“So?”
“So that still matters. No one else sees them, true. But you’ll know they’re there. Think of them like a superhero cape.”
“Since when did I become Wonder Woman?” I snorted.
“Who says you can’t be?”
“What do your panties look like?” I asked, my curiosity suddenly piqued.
Charlie sighed wistfully from her end of the line.
“You don’t want to know,” she moaned. “I miss pretty panties. And pretty bras. I’d kill for a new bra.”
“Really?”
“Are you kidding? I haven’t had a new bra since the last time I was pregnant, and now I’m in this nursing bra that’s barely holding its own. I’ve got saggy boobies, so nothing looks like it fits right.”
I shook my head. “Charlie, you’re crazy,” I said. “I just don’t see it. You’ve got three kids and you look more put-together than I do. And I don’t even have the saggy booby thing going on. I’ve got the no booby thing, remember?”
“Believe it. This is the same nursing bra I used on the last go round, so it’s looking pretty sad.”
I smiled. “Well, your underwear might be sad, but I seriously doubt that Mike is,” I said wickedly.
“O-delle!” she scolded, sounding slightly scandalized. I could almost hear the blush in her voice. But there was also the slightest tinge of delight.
“It’s true, and you know it, Charlotte. Don’t try to be all sweet and innocent preacher’s wife with me.” I laughed. “I know better than that. I don’t care what the sorry state of your underwear might be, Mike can’t keep his hands off you. And why not? He’s a man of God, and you and I both know that God is a huge fan of sex. Remember that sermon Mike preached on Song of Solomon? Some racy stuff right there,” I sniggered oh-so-maturely. It seemed so easy to be silly when we were talking about something else other than me. “Plus, I happen to know for a fact that eighty percent of the women in your congregation would trade places with you in a heartbeat, and the other twenty percent are playing for the other team and just haven’t ’fessed up to it yet.”
“Stop it! You’re being terrible!” she managed through giggles.
“Mommy, is Daddy tickling you?” I heard from somewhere on the other end.
“Oh, is that what they’re calling it now?” I snickered.
“No, sweetie, Mama’s just talking on the phone with Aunt Dellie, and she told Mama a joke,” she called through the laughter.
“Aunt Dellie! Hi, Aunt Dellie! When can you come play?” I heard my niece screech in excitement.
“Yes, Aunt Dellie, when can you come play?” Charlie echoed.
“Oh, no you don’t,” I said. “Don’t bring your sweet little angels into this to throw me off topic,” I commanded.
“Never,” my sister agreed.
“I mean it, Charlie. You’re like the Proverbs 31 woman and Heidi Klum all in one. I think half the women on the planet hate you just on principle.”
“Yeah, right.”
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