no opposition.”
All the fight had gone out of her; she looked both frightened and defenseless. Slade hardened his heart and headed back along the pier to a restaurant that specialized in seafood. Because they were early for lunch, he was able to get a table in one corner, overlooking the bay. A table with a degree of privacy, he thought, and sat down across from her.
She picked up the menu; to his consternation, he saw how she had to rest it on the table to disguise the trembling of her hands. But by the time she looked up, she had herself under control again. Unsmiling, she said, “I’ll have the sole.”
Quickly he ordered their food, along with a bottle of Chardonnay from a Napa Valley vineyard. The service was fast; within minutes he was raising his glass of chilled pale golden wine. “To international relations,” he said with a crooked smile.
Her mouth set, she said, “To international boundaries,” and took a big gulp of wine. Putting her glass down, she said, “Slade, let’s get this out of the way, then maybe we can go back to enjoying each other’s company. What happened out there on the sidewalk—it frightened me. I don’t want a repeat, nor do I want to discuss the reasons you frighten me. And, of course, it simply confirmed what I’ve already told you—I’m not available. No sex. No affair. Is that understood?”
Banking his anger, Slade said curtly, “Of course it’s not understood—how could it be when I have no idea why I frighten you? It’s certainly not my intent to do so.”
“I didn’t say it was.” She took another reckless gulp of wine. “We’re strangers—and strangers we’ll remain. That’s all I’m saying.”
“I want far more than that.”
“We don’t always get what we want. You’re old enough to know that.”
“You kissed me back, Clea. And I’m going to get what I want.”
Heat flushed her cheeks. “No, you’re not.” Quickly she reached for her purse. It was time to produce her usual line of defense with a man who wouldn’t take no for an answer. Hadn’t she known when she’d left the hotel this morning that she’d need it with Slade Carruthers?
Taking out an envelope, she plunked it on the table. “You should take a look at this.”
“Are you about to ruin my appetite?” he said.
“Just look at it, Slade.”
The envelope was full of clippings from various tabloids and newspapers the width of Europe. Clea was pictured in every article, hair up, hair down, in evening gowns and jewels, in skimpy bikinis, in jeans and boots. Accompanied by, Slade saw, a succession of men. Aristocrats, artists, businessmen: none of them looking at all unhappy to be escorting the rich, the elegant, the charming Clea Chardin.
“What are you trying to tell me?” he said carefully.
“What does it look like?”
“Like you date a lot of different men.”
“Date?” she repeated, lifting one brow.
“Are you trying to tell me you’ve slept with all of them?”
“Not all of them, no,” she said. It was the truth, but not the entire truth. She should have said, “With none of them.” But a reputation for flitting from man to man was, at times, extremely useful; right now she needed every weapon she could lay her hands on.
The waiter put their plates in front of them, said, “Enjoy,” and left them alone again.
Clea said, as if there’d been no interruption, “If you want to take me to bed, you should know what you’re getting into. I date lots of men and that’s the way I like it.”
Her hair shimmered in the light. Slade flicked the clippings with his finger. “So I’d be just one more guy to add to the list.”
“You don’t have to keep on seeing me if you don’t like the way I operate,” she said mildly.
He didn’t like it. At all. “Are you saying if we had an affair, you wouldn’t be faithful to me for its duration?”
“That’s the general idea,” she said, wondering why she should feel so ashamed of her duplicity when she was achieving her aim: to send Slade Carruthers in the opposite direction as quickly as she could.
Slade looked down at his cioppino. He wasn’t the slightest bit hungry. Picking up his spoon, he said, “I happen to have a few standards. I’m not into long-term commitment or marriage, but when I have a relationship with a woman I expect fidelity, and I promise the same.”
She shrugged. “Then let’s enjoy our lunch and say goodbye.”
He said with dangerous softness, “Perhaps I could change your mind. On the subject of standards.”
“You’re not going to get the chance.”
“I make frequent trips to Europe. If we exchange e-mail addresses, we can keep in touch and arrange to meet some time.”
She was attacking her sole as though she couldn’t wait to be rid of him. “No. Which, as I’m sure you know, is spelled identically in English and Italian.”
He’d never begged a woman for anything in his life. He wasn’t going to start with Clea Chardin. “Commitment is what you’re really avoiding. Why?”
Clea put down her knife and fork and looked right at him, her remarkable eyes brilliant with sincerity. “I don’t want to hurt you, Slade. And hurt you I would, were you to pursue me, because—as you just pointed out—our standards are different. So I’m ending this now, before it begins.”
He said sharply, “I don’t let women close enough to hurt me.”
Her temper flared. “Why am I not surprised?”
“You must have hurt some of those other men.”
“They knew the score and were willing to go along with me.”
Cut your losses, Slade thought. Get out with some dignity. What’s the alternative? Grovel?
Not your style.
Biting off his words, anger rising like bile in his throat, Slade said, “So you’re going to play it safe. Ignore that kiss as if it never happened.”
With a huge effort Clea kept her eyes trained on his. “That’s right.”
“Then there’s nothing more to say.” Picking up his spoon, he choked down a mouthful of the rich tomato broth.
She was eating her fish as fast as she could. She hadn’t lost her appetite, Slade thought sourly. Why should she? He didn’t matter a whit to her.
Rationally he should be admiring her for turning her back so decisively on all his money. Unfortunately he felt about as rational as a shipwrecked sailor brought face-to-face with Miss America.
Clea drained her wine. “You’re sulking.”
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