He took a step toward her and despite herself Alyssa felt her blood freeze. “Ally, that will never happen.”
She was in control again. “Don’t touch me, Brett.” She wondered why she felt such alarm. He didn’t look threatening, but appeared to be buckling beneath the weight of remorse.
He drew back, smiling at her so tenderly it made her ill. “Sweetest love, will no amount of repentance wash away my sin?”
Another person, another role! “What are you playing at now, Brett?” she asked. “As far as I know, you have no links with any religion.”
He looked puzzled. “I believe in good and evil, Ally,” he said with absolute conviction. “I mightn’t believe in God, but I believe in the devil.”
“Maybe that’s because you’ve seen him!” She had no idea where that remark came from. “But you can’t have one without the other. If there’s a devil, there must be a God. Pick which team you want to be on.” She was on the verge of walking away from him. “I won’t thank you for coming today, bearing in mind your attitude to Zizi. It was just a pretext to see me.”
“I admit it.” Persuasion poured into his hypnotic eyes. “Perhaps you’ll see me some other time?” he asked, his voice full of a touching hope.
Alyssa didn’t reply.
“I give you my word I’ll seek help. I love you, Ally,” he repeated passionately. “I want to be with you. You were never in any danger that awful night.”
“On the contrary, you enjoyed punishing me.” She spoke with intuitive certainty. “And you wanted a whole lot more. You wanted forced sex.”
He drew a hand across his mouth as if wiping away a bad taste. “I just snapped, Ally. It was the way you seemed to be abandoning me for your aunt.”
She felt furious and humiliated. “That was all in your own mind, Brett. Don’t say any more. It isn’t working. We’ve buried Zizi today.”
“And my heart goes out to you, Ally.” He assumed an expression of deepest sympathy she knew perfectly well was feigned.
“That does nothing whatever to comfort me, Brett.”
She walked away.
She didn’t look back.
CHAPTER TWO
THE INTERIOR DOORS were never shut. Not unless there was a cyclone. Yet several of them were closed. Perhaps the police had shut them? Or Adam Hunt, the kindly neighbor. She intended to call on him. She and her mother had not made the long trip north following Mariel’s decision to have Zizi’s casket flown back to Brisbane. No family member had entered the house until now.
Flying Clouds was hers. She was her great-aunt’s sole beneficiary, excluding some things Zizi had willed to her niece and goddaughter, Stephanie. That included the beautiful portrait of Stephanie painted shortly before her marriage. It now hung in a place of honor above the white marble mantelpiece in her parents’ elegant living room. Alyssa had often wondered why Zizi, the most generous of women, hadn’t given it to her mother all those years ago. But for whatever reason, Zizi had decided not to part with it. What was puzzling was the fact that Mariel hadn’t even been mentioned in the will. Obviously Zizi had thought there was no need to make provision for her as Mariel was sitting on her late husband’s millions.
“It makes sense logically,” Stephanie said, herself puzzled about Mariel’s omission. “And yet, they were sisters….”
ALYSSA HAD BEEN too depressed to avail herself of a nap on the long flight. Nothing improved her mood. In the weeks after Zizi’s funeral, she’d found herself unable to sleep. Sometimes she imagined Zizi sitting on the side of her bed watching her or standing at the window watching her, as if she wanted to tell Alyssa something. The feeling was so incredibly strong that one night her heart had almost seized. Not in fright but in the actual belief that Zizi was showing herself.
“Zizi?” she’d cried out, unable to stop her tears, but silvery Zizi had faded from sight. Such was grief. The living often saw their beloved dead. Maybe the recently dead stayed around for a time, watching, neither side able to completely break off communication.
ALYSSA HAD RENTED a car that had been waiting for her at the airport. It was parked in the garage now. Tears flowing, she’d let herself into the house. The key had always been “hidden” among the spectacular psychedelic colored leaves of a potted caladium on the front veranda—silly place to hide it. They both used to laugh about it. That was probably the most likely place anyone intent on breaking in would think of, but Zizi had never had the slightest bother in all the years she’d lived there. Occasionally they’d driven into the town together, leaving the front and back doors unlocked.
For many years Zizi had kept dogs for company, usually two Labradors, so each would have a friend to play with. But since the death of old age of her beautiful golden Labrador, Molly, Zizi confessed she hadn’t the heart to buy herself another pet. Of course there was Cleo, Zizi’s sleek Abyssinian, who not surprisingly greeted Alyssa ecstatically and now accompanied her on her tour through the house, every so often snaking around Alyssa’s legs.
She had to find some way of properly thanking Adam Hunt. Her father had spoken to him several times on the phone and formed an excellent impression. What a shock Adam must have received coming on Zizi as he had. She’d imagined the neighbor as someone Zizi’s age, but her father said he sounded much younger. Whatever his age, her father had taken to him and apparently so had Zizi. The really strange—and, she had to admit, hurtful part—was that Zizi had never mentioned him to her. That was decidedly odd, given that she and Zizi talked about anyone new in their lives. She tried to brush the hurt aside. Zizi would’ve had a reason. Perhaps he was too recent to the area? A fellow artist? No, Zizi would’ve said something. A would-be property developer was more like it. It was boom-time North of Capricorn. Yet this stranger or near stranger had attained such a degree of intimacy with Zizi that she felt comfortable with his looking in on her.
Zizi, the self-styled recluse, must have liked him a lot. Alyssa couldn’t see Zizi trusting just anyone. Maybe Hunt was an art scholar planning a book that included a section on Elizabeth Jane Calvert. But wouldn’t Zizi have said? She definitely had to meet this mystery man. What exactly had drawn him to seek Zizi out? Pure coincidence? Perhaps they’d met while doing some shopping at the village. Alyssa told herself to put aside all the questions buzzing around in her head until she felt more able to cope.
How different everything was without Zizi! She supposed the raw grief would lessen with time, but right now the sorrow was practically unbearable. She inspected the labyrinth of rooms downstairs. It was a huge house, but she knew it so well she could’ve found her way blindfolded. Afterward, she mounted the cantilevered staircase that led to the upstairs bedrooms and sitting rooms. She glanced into Zizi’s bedroom—ivory and pale-green with a lovely canopied bed and an antique writing desk covered in informal family photographs in silver frames. The portrait Zizi had painted of her shortly before her twenty-first birthday hung over the mantel.
Who’d made the bed? It was Zizi’s practice to turn down the covers before taking her bath. So many questions to be answered, Alyssa thought, her shoulders hunched in a sob. She avoided the adjoining bathroom. Just thinking about how Zizi had met her end was like an icy cold hand squeezing her heart. She knew she’d have to get around to it sometime. Not now.
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