door, but there was no answer. “Sophie, it’s me, Jake,” he called. “Can I come in?”
The door opened, and Sophie peered out at them, her expression wary. “What do you want?” she asked.
“I just want to see you,” he said. “It’s been a long time.”
She looked past him to Carmen. “All right,” she said and held the door open wider.
The little trailer was crowded but neat, despite Sophie’s schoolbooks scattered across the dinette table and the kitchen counter covered with jars of dried herbs, a bowl of the wild raspberries they had picked that morning and a tin can filled with purple and yellow wildflowers. “Are you okay?” Jake sat on a small sofa next to his sister.
“Sure.” She shrugged. “I’m just worried about Mom.”
“Has she fainted like this before?” Carmen asked.
“A couple of times—” Sophie worried her lower lip between her teeth “—that I know about. And she’s been tired a lot lately.”
“When was the last time she saw a doctor?” Carmen asked.
“She doesn’t believe in doctors,” Sophie said.
“I’ll talk to her and see what I can find out,” Carmen said.
Sophie brightened. “That would be great. She won’t say anything to me ’cause, you know, I’m just a kid.”
“Did that guy, Metwater, upset you?” Jake asked.
Her expression clouded once more. “You upset me. Going all caveman and arguing over me like I was, I don’t know, a dog or something. It was embarrassing.”
Jake looked at Carmen, desperation in his eyes. “I wasn’t trying to embarrass you,” he said. “I didn’t like the way he was holding you. I didn’t think you liked it, either.”
“I don’t like him because he keeps saying he’s my father now and stuff like that.”
“He hasn’t ever, like, touched you, um, inappropriately, has he?” The tips of Jake’s ears were red, but he marshaled on. “You know what I’m talking about, right?”
“Yes, I know.” Sophie looked miserable. “And he hasn’t done anything like that. I’d call him on it if he did. I’m not afraid of him like some of the people around here.”
“Why are they afraid of him?” Carmen asked.
“Well, maybe afraid isn’t the right word. Mom is just in awe of him and thinks he really is this holy man. And he has those bodyguards he orders around to enforce his rules, so I guess that makes some people nervous.”
“What kind of rules?” Jake asked.
“Oh, just stuff like you’re not supposed to have guns in camp, and we don’t eat meat on Mondays and Fridays—stuff like that. It’s no big deal.”
“What did Mom mean when she said Metwater had saved her life?” Jake asked.
“He got her off heroin. I thought you knew that.”
“I wasn’t sure she was off,” Jake said.
“She is.” Sophie looked around. “I mean, where is she going to score drugs out here? Anyway, the Prophet got her to quit, and he gave her her new name.” She looked at Carmen. “She was Anna before. Now she’s Phoenix. You know, that mythical bird that rose from the ashes. Mom loves that kind of thing.”
“I take it Grandma and Grandpa don’t know where you are,” Jake said.
Sophie’s eyes widened. “No, and you can’t tell them.”
“Why not?”
“Because the court awarded them custody of me, back when Mom was still doing drugs—right after you left to join the military.”
Jake scowled. “Why didn’t anyone tell me about this?”
“I don’t know. I guess because you and Mom argued before you went away, and she figured you would side with Grandma and Grandpa against her.”
“She was probably right,” he said. “If you were with Grandma and Grandpa now, you’d be living in a real house and going to school and having friends your own age.”
“And where would Mom be? If you make me go live with Grandma and Grandpa, she’ll be all alone.”
“Sophie, it isn’t your job to look after Mom,” he said. “She’s supposed to look after you.”
“She’s doing that. We’re fine here.”
“Except you’re hiding from our grandparents.”
Sophie pushed her lips out in a pout. “I don’t want to live with them. I want to stay with Mom.”
“Then she should go to court and get legal custody of you. I could even help you with that.”
Sophie looked skeptical. “Mom would never do that. She hates lawyers and cops and people like that.”
“A lot of times people like that are on your side,” he said. “Don’t ever be afraid to go to the police if you need help.” His gaze met Carmen’s over the top of Sophie’s head and a warm thrill ran through her. She really didn’t want to like this guy as much as she was starting to—not when she still had so many unanswered questions about him.
“Promise me you won’t tell Grandma and Grandpa we’re here,” Sophie said.
Jake looked stubborn. “Mom is breaking the law by keeping you here with her,” he said.
“You don’t understand!” Sophie’s face twisted, the picture of teenage angst. “Mom needs me.”
Carmen put a steadying hand on the girl’s shoulder. “Your brother is just trying to understand the situation.” She gave Jake a hard look. He needed to tone it down and stop putting Sophie on the defensive. “He wants what’s best for you and your mom.”
“Of course I do.” His smile looked a little forced, but Carmen appreciated that he was trying. “I want you both safe and happy.”
“We’re safe and happy here.”
Jake opened his mouth as if to argue but wisely thought better of it. Instead, he stood. “I’ll come back to see you as soon as I can,” he said.
“Promise?” Sophie’s eyes were shiny, as if she was holding back tears. “You won’t leave us again, will you?”
“No, I won’t leave.” He gave her a last, desperate look before leaving.
“Will you be all right here by yourself?” Carmen asked Sophie. “You can come stay with me if you like.” The tent she had brought with her wasn’t that big, but she would make room for the girl.
“Mom
