had happened to her. He spoke, his voice clipped. “We’ve got bad weather moving in. If we’re to stay ahead of it, we’re going to have to hit the road pretty damned quick.”
He watched her struggle for control, and he saw her physically pull it together. His earlier estimation of her climbed up a notch. She also had one hell of a lot of grit.
Her face fixed like cast wax, she rose up off the bunk, her shoulders square, her chin held high as she slipped her feet into her shoes. “Excuse me,” she said, her tone royal. “I need to make a trip outside.” Her whole body stiff with indignation, she picked up his coat and put it on, then went to the door. “If you can give me ten minutes, I’ll be ready to go.”
With far more force than necessary, she slammed the door shut behind her, and Finn heard all the snow slide from the tin roof. Then he heard her swear. Great. Now both her shoes and her coat would be wet. Resting his hands on his hips, he let out a sigh and looked at the ceiling. Okay. Maybe he’d been a bit sharp. And she’d been through a hell of a lot. It wouldn’t have killed him to be a little nicer. He let out another sigh. It was going to be a damned long day.
She was gone longer than he expected, and he had coffee perking and a pot of instant porridge steaming by the time he heard her at the door, cooing to Rooney. Finn dropped his head, priming himself to be nicer. And in deference to her sensibilities, he had gotten a tin bowl out of the plastic storage container, so she wouldn’t have to eat out of the pot again. And he’d even mixed up a small portion of powdered milk.
The door swung open and he looked up, expecting a haughty, royal entry. Framed by the gray light from outside, the snow falling behind her, she huddled in the warmth of his coat, a guilty look on her pale face. I’m sorry,” she said, her voice uneven and sounding as if she meant it. “I can be a real pain sometimes.”
It was the look in her eyes—that solemn, imploring look—that made Finn’s pulse stumble, and he found his chest suddenly tight. An odd kind of intimacy crackled between them, suspending time. It was as if this had happened before, as if they had known each other a very long time. The sensation upended his equilibrium, and he curled his hands into fists, his heart suddenly pounding in his chest. It was all he could do to force air into his lungs and dredge up a warped half smile. “Under the circumstances, I think that’s allowed.”
She stared back at him, time still weirdly suspended, then she turned abruptly and closed the door, and more snow slid off the roof. “No, it’s not,” she said, her voice even more unsteady. “There is never an excuse for bad manners.”
Finn experienced a flash of unexpected insight. And he knew, from that one comment, that Mallory O’Brien had grown up being brutally honest with herself. And probably with anyone she came in contact with. Needing to alter the mood, he spoke, his tone clipped. “Sure there is.”
She turned and looked at him, a startled expression in her eyes; then she gave a soft laugh. Finn felt the effects of that chuckle down the entire length of his spine.
Watching him, she folded her arms and tipped her head to one side, amusement still dancing in her eyes. “Really? You might change your mind on that. You don’t know the levels of rudeness I can sink to.”
He held her gaze a moment, then looked away, finding it far too easy to get lost in her eyes. “Breakfast is ready,” he said, his tone gruff. “And there’s warm water in the washbasin on the stove. It’s about all I can offer.”
Her voice was subdued when she answered. “Warm water sounds like heaven.” Feeling suddenly claustrophobic, Finn did up the bottom two snaps on his vest, then picked up the rifle. “There’s a towel on the washstand, and there’s brown sugar and powdered milk on the table, coffee in the pot.” He settled his hat on his head and reached for the door. “I’m going to water the horses and get them ready to move out.”
Once outside, he blew out a deep breath, his heart still pounding, his body far too hot. He didn’t know what in hell was wrong with him, but it had to stop. He had to stay focused, damn it—her life could depend on it.
Sobered by that thought, Finn watered the horses in the creek, guessing that the temperature had dropped by another few degrees. He led them back to the corral, then brushed the snow off them and rigged up a hackamore for Trouper. The packhorse didn’t even have a halter on, and since Finn would be breaking trail with him, he needed some method to guide him. He figured he’d killed maybe twenty minutes, maybe half an hour when he went back to the cabin.
He didn’t know what he expected, but it definitely wasn’t for the bedrolls to be perfectly rolled and stacked neatly on the floor, the dishes washed and packed in the storage container, the towel neatly folded and laid by the repackaged food she had placed by his saddlebags. From the pricey clothes she had on, from her jewelry, he hadn’t expected that kind of capable efficiency. It hit him again that he only knew what she had told him, and that had been damned little. And for some reason, that suddenly irked him.
His face felt wooden when he tipped his head toward the stacked supplies, acknowledging her effort. “Thanks,” he said, avoiding her gaze. Crouching down by the gear Trouper had been carrying, he undid one waterproof kit bag and started pulling extra clothes out. “The wind has picked up and it’s going to get damned cold before the day’s over. So I want you to put this stuff on. We need to get as many layers on you as possible.”
She didn’t say anything as she picked up the stack of clothing he’d piled on the floor, a faint scent of soap he had left out for her snagging his senses. He clenched his jaw, giving himself a moment; then he eased out his breath very carefully. Too close. She had gotten far too close.
His shearling coat appeared on the pile of gear as he pulled another item of clothing out of the waterproof kit bag. He handed her back the coat. “You’ll need that as well.”
“No,” she said, her tone quiet—rebelliously quiet. “I won’t.”
He looked up at her, getting nailed with a hot rush as his gaze slid up her long, long legs, the cashmere sweater clinging to the shape of her breasts. He turned away and closed his eyes, forcing himself to take some even breaths. Hell. He hadn’t had this kind of slip in years—and he didn’t know why it was happening now. Over the years, he’d learned to shut everything down. Especially that. Sexual encounters had always been on his terms—not something that snuck up on him and nailed him from behind.
He took another deep breath and fixed his gaze on her, giving her a don’t-mess-with-me look. “Yes,” he said, his tone short and abrupt. “The last thing we need today is you experiencing another bout of hypothermia.”
She jammed her hands on her hips, pulling the fabric of her sweater tight. “Oh, of course,” she said, her tone snippy as she looked down her nose at him. “And just where would I be if you fell off your horse and froze to death? I’d be dead, that’s where I’d be. So it’s pure common sense that you wear the coat.”
For some reason, Finn wanted to grab her and shake her, but he ground his teeth together and literally counted to ten. Then he spoke, his own tone measured and quiet. Dangerously quiet. “I have another coat,” he said, lifting up the lined mackinaw he had just pulled out of the bag. “You will wear that one.”
She gave him one of her heated looks, snatched it out of his hand and tossed it on the bunk. “Fine,” she snapped.
Finn started stuffing things back in the kit bag, his annoyance escalating. It was going to be a damned long day if she argued with him over every damned thing. He pulled the flap over the zipper on the bag and snapped it shut, and was just setting the
