paperwork and check with Jeff that the trainees were happy and feeling looked after.
Jeff told him that he was taking the guys out in the van that evening, for a steak-frites and a few beers at the village brasserie. ‘You fancy coming along too?’ As he said it, he was opening drawers and sifting through papers.
Ben shook his head. ‘Another time. What are you looking for?’
‘The bloody number for those security-fence guys.’
‘4642891,’ Ben said instantly.
‘How do you do that?’
‘Do what?’
‘Remember numbers like that.’
Ben shrugged. ‘I don’t know. I just can. Always could.’
‘Beats me,’ Jeff said, picking up the phone.
Dark was falling by the time Ben and Brooke sat down to eat in the farmhouse kitchen. Dinner was a rustic beef and olive stew with rice, and a bottle of the red wine they’d picked up earlier.
‘I still can’t believe how quickly you’ve got this place up and running,’ she said. ‘You’ve done an amazing amount in such a short time.’
‘I might need you to come over more often, if things keep moving at this rate. Can you make it back here again in two weeks’ time?’
‘Love to. I like it here. I feel at home.’
‘Me too.’
She cocked her head, resting her chin on her hand, watching him. ‘You know what, Hope? In all the years I’ve known you, I’ve never seen you like this. You actually look happy.’
He smiled. ‘You know what? I actually think I am.’
Brooke was about to answer when the phone rang from the kitchen sideboard. Ben tutted.
‘Why don’t you leave it? If it’s important, they’ll call back.’
‘Better answer it.’ He stood up and went to grab the phone. ‘Hello?’ He glanced at Brooke, as if to say, this wont take a minute.
But then he heard the voice on the other end of the line. It shook him to the core, instantly transported him back.
It was a voice he hadn’t heard for a long time, and hadn’t expected to hear again. He took the phone into the adjoining study and shut the door behind him.
When he came out five minutes later, Brooke saw the frown on his face. ‘Is everything all right, Ben?’
He made no reply, and instead went back over to the sideboard, took out a bottle and a glass, cracked the seal and poured out a large measure. He suddenly remembered Brooke and grabbed a second glass. ‘Sorry,’ he muttered distractedly. ‘Want some?’
‘Sure. Something wrong?’
For an instant it was on the tip of his tongue to tell her, but he decided against it and shook his head. ‘It’s fine. Nothing.’
‘I can see it’s not nothing,’ Brooke said. ‘Bad news?’
‘I told you. It’s not important.’ He handed her the Scotch. Drained his own glass in a gulp and slumped in his chair at the table. There was silence between them. He refilled his glass. She’d barely started her first.
‘Hey, where did the conversation go?’ she said with a laugh.
‘I’m sorry,’ he muttered. He looked at his watch. ‘Listen, it’s getting late. I’m a little tired. Maybe I’ll turn in.’
‘I’ll take care of the dishes.’
‘Leave them. I’ll deal with it in the morning.’ He stood up, scraping his chair over the flagstones.
‘See you tomorrow, then,’ she said. ‘Sweet dreams.’
But he barely registered it as he walked slowly out of the kitchen and headed for the stairs to his apartment.
His heart was pounding and his stomach clenched.
A swirling confusion of blurs and echoes. Sounds of chaos and pain, screams and gunfire intermingled. Everything slow motion. The strobe of muzzle flashes illuminating the jungle; shapes flitting through the trees. The heat and the blood and the pumping terror. More of them coming. Always more of them.
Then the man walking towards him out of the killing frenzy, his body silhouetted black against the roaring flames. The eyes, wild and livid with hate. The fist clenching the gun. The big wide black ‘O’ of the muzzle, like the mouth of a tunnel leading to oblivion.
Then the searing, reverberating blast of the gunshot that filled his head, and the world exploding into white light.
Ben sat bolt upright in the darkness, the sweat cooling on his face. For a moment he was disorientated, and his pulse raced as he struggled to understand where he was. Then he remembered he was here. Home. Safe. Far away, where the horror could never touch him.
It’s nothing. Just a dream. The same dream from long ago.
He reached out for the bedside light, but in his daze he felt his arm knock the lamp off the table. It fell to the floorboards with a crash.
Brooke was leaning back in bed in the next room, going over her lecture notes for the next day, listening to the wind in the trees through her open window and enjoying the lazy tranquillity of the place after the hubbub of London.
The sudden noise next door startled her. She jumped up, scattering papers, pulled on her dressing gown and went out into the dark hallway. She could hear Ben muttering and cursing through the door. She knocked, paused and went into his room.
He was sitting up in bed, naked down to the waist, setting a fallen reading lamp back upright on his bedside table. He looked up as she walked into the room. ‘Sorry if I woke you,’ he said. ‘I knocked the lamp over.’
‘I wasn’t asleep. All right if I come in?’ She moved over to the bed and sat down on the edge. ‘You OK? You look a little pale. What happened?’
He rubbed his face. ‘Bad dream.’
‘Want to talk about it?’
‘You sound like a psychologist.’
‘I am a psychologist, remember?’ She laid a hand on his. ‘So tell me. What were you dreaming about?’
He shrugged. ‘I don’t want to talk about it.’
‘Are you sure?’ she asked gently.
‘I’m
