let the memories flow for a moment, but then, even as an unfathomable desire rose in him, he forced them to fade. The memories that is. Wanting her may never fade. He’d practiced exactly what he’d say when he finally found her, just like he did closing arguments, but she wasn’t close enough to speak to yet, so he just stared. And fought what the sight of her did to him. From the moment he’d seen her long dark honey-colored hair and snapping blue eyes, she’d lit up his world like sunshine, and, ironically, did so again right now.
Damn it.
She was almost within touching distance when she stumbled to a stop, wide-eyed and breathing hard. Silent for a moment, she stared at him as if he was some sort of nightly apparition.
He might have chosen the most beautiful woman on earth to marry, but Clara was just like all the others. Selfish. Deceitful. Devious. He’d be glad to be rid of her once and for all.
“How’d you find me?” she snapped, her blue eyes as cold as December.
“It wasn’t easy, I’ll give you that,” he growled.
“It wasn’t meant to be easy.”
His foul mood exploded, spewed throughout his system. “Damn—”
“Watch your language,” Clara interrupted, amazed at the fortitude she had. The shot had sent her across the field, instinctively knowing Nathan had snitched the old shotgun out of the barn and fired it. The boy’s fascination with guns just didn’t end.
About like hers when it came to Blake Barlow.
Every emotion she’d ever felt—from depressed bitterness to the sweetest love imaginable—erupted like fierce thunderheads. She’d thought the storm inside her had played itself out when it came to him. Her husband. The man who’d betrayed her mere weeks after vowing to remain faithful to her for the rest of their lives.
She drew that forward—his betrayal. Pain, though, wasn’t what overcame her. Even after four months of telling herself she hated him, the joy of seeing him flooded her bloodstream.
Forcing her toes deep in the ground before she lost all control and jumped into his arms—as she had done when he’d return home from work each night—she balled her hands into fists. They were tingling, remembering what it was like to bury themselves in his dark hair, too brown to be called black and too black to be called brown. His eyes were a unique shade, too, not quite green or brown, but a combination of the two, and parts of her melted when he looked at her just right.
“I didn’t mean to shoot him, Clara. It was an accident, I swear.”
Catching Nathan’s words moments before the wind carried them off, she asked, “Shoot who?”
“Me.”
Though Blake’s tone was sharp, she had to blink a couple times, trying to calm the way the sound of his voice had other things leaping to life inside her. It had been that way the first time he’d spoken to her in the park in Chicago, where she’d been feeding the pigeons, waiting on the lawyer to deliver the papers she had to sign. She hadn’t known he was the lawyer. Not at first anyway. They’d talked of other things—the weather, the birds, the lake—before he’d asked her name and then started laughing and explained he was who she was waiting for.
He’d pulled out the paperwork then, and they’d both laughed again, as they did so many times in the weeks following.
He wasn’t smiling now.
Neither was she.
Pulling her gaze from his face, air lodged in her lungs at the splotches of red covering his brown pants. Her first instinct was to reach out for him, but she stopped herself in time. She couldn’t react to him—not even to his injuries—not if she hoped to save herself.
“Your little friend shot me right off my horse.”
Bracing for all she was worth, she forced herself to remain still. Didn’t let even an eye wander, though both eyes wanted to, from the toes of his boots to that thick hair. He was too tall and broad to be a lawyer, that’s what she’d thought the first time she’d seen him, and of course before she’d come to know every flawless curve, every muscle and dimple of his hard, perfect body.
Clara lifted her chin, rallying her courage to remain intact. “It doesn’t look too bad to me.”
“What?” Blake barked.
It would take more than a little buckshot to bring him down. She’d known that from the first time they’d met—how strong and potent he was—and all of a sudden she understood what it meant—for her that is. “Get the gun, Nathan. We have chores to do.”
The grasp that snagged her elbow was firm, but not hurtful, other than the way it made her skin heat up. It, too, remembered him. His touch. How it had made her feel special and loved. A person didn’t forget that. No matter how hard they tried.
“Clara,” he said in that smooth way he had.
She told herself his voice was no different from any other man’s. That it didn’t affect her. She wouldn’t remember how it had sounded when he whispered in her ear late at night, especially on their wedding night when he’d made promises. He’d kept those ones, that night and many nights afterward. Many wonderful promises. It wasn’t until—
“Uh, Clara?” Nathan interrupted her thoughts and whatever Blake had been about to say. “Shouldn’t I chase down his horse first? It seems only right after shooting him and all.”
“I’d appreciate that,” Blake said, though his eyes—full of ire—never left her.
Clara bit her lips against the fire in her throat, and all the other things going on inside her. Even with his anger, she wanted to wrap her arms around him, be held close, just one more time.
“It only ran as far as the creek,” Nathan assured. “I’m sure I can catch it.”
Breathing past the sting, knowing touching Blake could never happen, Clara nodded at Nathan.
The boy uttered a response before he took off in a dead run, while Clara closed her eyes and dug into the last dredges of salvation. “What are you doing here, Blake?”
“I’d think that would be obvious.”
Hostility laced his voice. It should increase the opposition inside her, but everything about her was dissolving. She had to stay strong. Had to. “I told you I never want to see you again.”
“No you didn’t,” he insisted. “I went to Springfield for a trial and you left while I was gone. I came home to an empty house. No wife. No explanation.”
“I left a note.”
“That didn’t explain anything.”
It was strange, how calm and, well, dead, she suddenly felt inside, as if none of it mattered anymore. Perhaps because nothing did matter anymore. “It said I granted you a divorce.”
He spun her around then, tightening his hold when her knees threatened to give out, and stared down with clear, bitter eyes. “That’s not how divorces work.”
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