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SO LUCKY
Dawn O’Porter
Published by HarperCollinsPublishers Ltd
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First published in Great Britain by HarperCollinsPublishers 2019
Copyright © Dawn O’Porter 2019
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Source ISBN: 9780008126070
Ebook Edition © October 2019 ISBN: 9780008126087
Version: 2020-08-21
Dedicated to Caroline
LUCK [n] /:
Success or failure apparently brought by
chance rather than through one’s own actions.
Everyone else is OK
Everyone else’s life is perfect
Everyone is talking about me
Everyone has this figured out except me
Everyone knows I can’t do this
We are all SO LUCKY.
What could we possibly have to complain about?
Everyone has their shit
Everyone needs to be kinder to themselves
Everyone’s in the struggle together
Everyone isn’t me
Everyone is fighting a battle you know nothing about …
Contents
Copyright
Dedication
Epigraph
Chapter 1
Chapter 2
Chapter 3
Chapter 4
Chapter 5
Chapter 6
Chapter 7
Chapter 8
Chapter 9
Chapter 10
Chapter 11
Chapter 12
Chapter 13
Chapter 14
Chapter 15
Acknowledgements
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About the Author
Also by Dawn O’Porter
About the Publisher
Ruby
My kid moved out the day she was born. For someone like me, becoming a mother was when I thought I’d finally give my whole self to another human without being constrained by the limitations of my condition. I thought my undying love for this little person would be met by her needing me in a way I had never been needed before. But as it turns out, I’m not sure my kid has ever needed me other than in a physical capacity to keep her alive. Being a mother hasn’t been the sweet experience I imagined it to be. In fact, my kid is an asshole. Some might say she gets it from me.
It’s 7.05 a.m. I am lying on my bed and she’s screaming like she’s being attacked in the next room. She isn’t being attacked, she is fine. She doesn’t sleep in a cot, she knows how to get up. But still, she shouts and screams until I go into her room. Only to tell me to get away from her when I do.
I didn’t want a girl. I wanted a boy. I have no idea how to teach a girl to love herself. I thought, if I had a boy, then Liam could just take care of that side of things. I also don’t like how
