had come at the busiest times, and even though the two of them had managed to have a drink together, Ryan had never seen her. Now all of a sudden she had turned up on his doorstep.
Even after he’d gotten her calmed down he hadn’t been sure what she’d wanted. It didn’t matter. Still, he owed Joshua. He should check on her. But first he’d see what Sophia could tell him.
The next morning, at the clinic, Ryan flipped through his schedule for the day. He had a number of patients to see but none had babies due any time soon. Maybe he would get a few days’ reprieve before things got wild again.
“You look deep in thought.”
He recognized Sophia’s voice and looked up. “Not that deep. You’re just the person I wanted to talk to.”
The slim woman took one of the functional office chairs in front of his desk. “What can I do for you?”
“I was just wondering what you know about Phoebe Taylor.”
“Trying to steal my patients now?” Her eyes twinkled as she asked.
Ryan gave her a dubious look.
She grinned. “She’s due in about five weeks. What’s happened?”
“She was waiting for me when I got home yesterday. At first I thought she’d gotten my name and address from you. That you were sending her to me because you would be on your honeymoon when it was time to deliver.”
Sophia shook her dark-haired head. “Oh, no, it wasn’t me. But I remember she mentioned you at one of her appointments and said she had your address.”
“I thought maybe she was looking for a midwife. She later told me she was the wife of an army buddy of mine.”
“Yes, she told me that you were good friends with her husband. Did she seem okay?”
“Not really. It was all rather confusing and she was quite emotional. I let her get warm, gave her something to drink and took her home.”
“She’s usually steady as a rock. I’ll find out what’s going on at her next appointment.”
“Thanks, Sophia. I owe her husband.”
“I understand. You are coming to my wedding, aren’t you?”
Sophia was marrying Aiden Harrison in a few weeks and she wanted everyone there for the event. Ryan wasn’t into weddings. He’d never been so close to someone he’d felt like marrying them. After his years in the military he was well aware of how short life could be. Too young to really understand that kind of love when he’d entered the army, he’d soon realized he didn’t want to put someone through what Phoebe Taylor had been experiencing.
He didn’t understand that type of love. Knew how fleeting it could be. His parents sure hadn’t known how to show love. His foster-parents had been poor examples of that also. They had taken care of his physical needs but he’d always been aware that they hadn’t really cared about him. The army had given him purpose that had filled that void, for a while. That had lasted for years until the hundreds of faces of death had become heavier with every day. He well understood that losses lasted a lifetime. Even delivering babies and seeing the happiness on families’ faces didn’t change that. Those men he’d served with were gone. Yet, like JT, they were always with him.
He smiled at Sophia. “I plan to be there. I’ll even dust off my suit for the occasion.”
“That’s great. See you later.”
Ryan had seen his last patient for the day and was headed out the glass doors of the Prenatal Clinic in the hospital. A woman was coming in. He stopped to hold the door for her, then glanced up. It was Phoebe Taylor.
“Ah, hey.”
“Hello.” Her gaze flicked up at him and then away.
Phoebe must have been coming here for months. How many times had he passed her without having any idea who she was? She looked far less disheveled than she had two days ago. Her hair lay along her shoulders. Dressed in a brown, tan and blue dotted top over brown slacks and low-heeled shoes, she looked professional, classy and fragile.
“Are you looking for me?” Ryan asked.
“I’m here for my appointment with Sophia.”
Another mother-to-be came up behind Phoebe. She moved back and out of the way, allowing the woman to go past her. Ryan held the door wide, moving out into the hall. He said to Phoebe, “May I speak to you for a minute?”
A terrified look flicked in her eyes before she gave him a resigned nod. He had the impression that if she could forget they had already met, she’d gladly do so.
Before he could say anything she started, “About the other evening. I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have put you on the spot. I had no right to do that.”
Here she was the one apologizing and he was the one who should be. “Not a problem. I should have visited you after Joshua died.”
Her look was earnest. “That’s all right. I understand. Well, I have to get to my appointment.”
Apparently whatever she’d needed had been resolved.
“It was nice to meet you, Phoebe.”
“You, too.” She walked by him, opened the door and went through it. With a soft swish it closed behind her.
Why did he feel as if he needed to say or do more?
Ryan made it as far as his car before curiosity and a nagging guilt caused him to return to the clinic. He waited until Phoebe was finished with her appointment. Phoebe might not agree to him taking her to dinner, but he was going to try. He needed to know why she’d come to see him and even more if there was some way he could help her.
Now that she had contacted him he felt like he owed Joshua that.
On the way to his office he passed a nurse and asked that she let him know when Mrs. Taylor was finished.
Thirty minutes later the nurse popped her head in the door and said Phoebe was on her way out.
Ryan hurried to the waiting room and spotted her as she reached the door. When he called her name she stopped and turned. Her eyes widened in astonishment, then filled with wariness.
“I thought you had left.” Phoebe sounded as if she had hoped not to see him again. After his behavior the other night he shouldn’t be surprised.
“I came back. I wanted to ask you something.”
She raised her brows.
Phoebe wasn’t opening the door wide for him. She wouldn’t be making this easy.
Thankfully this late in the day the waiting room was empty. “I wondered if I could buy you dinner?”
Phoebe turned her head slightly, as if both studying and judging him. He must have really put her off the other evening. He prided himself on his rapport with people, especially pregnant women and their families. He had let this
