freak out.”
He frowned. “The doctor can prescribe something for you to take. It will be okay. I’ll be right beside you all the way.”
She nodded, her eyes tearing again. “I know, and I’m sorry. But it is what it is.”
“You do not need to apologize. Anyone in their right mind would feel the same. Don’t worry, okay? I’ll take care of the meds and everything else.”
“Okay,” she said, and then made herself change the subject. “What’s in that one?” she asked, pointing to a bag at the foot of her bed.
He handed it to her. “It’s another pair of pants and a heavy sweater. I wanted you to have choices.”
All of a sudden her eyes were swimming with tears.
“What, honey? What’s wrong? Are you in pain?”
“I was just thinking about Marcy and Dan, and the pilot. I get to go home, and they’re dead and buried.”
He dropped the sack and took her in his arms. Her hair, still damp from her morning shower, clung to his cheek as he held her. She was trembling and weepy, and he wished this could be fixed with a kiss and a hug, but it couldn’t. After a few moments he leaned back and tilted her chin up to meet his gaze.
“I’m very sorry about your friends, but I’m grateful beyond words that you survived. You have no idea how frightened Sarah and I were when we got the news.”
Laura leaned into his embrace.
“I can imagine. I am so tired of crying, and I’m very thankful that I’m still here, too, but some days it still overwhelms me.”
“How do you feel about Sarah moving to London?” he asked.
She shrugged. “Happy for her. This is what she’s been working toward.”
“You’ve still got me,” he said.
A crooked smile shifted the somber expression off her face. “I’m not about to forget that.”
“Good, because when we get home, there’s something I want to discuss with you.”
“What?” she asked.
He grinned. “Not until we get home.”
Her eyes widened. “Is it a secret?”
“It won’t be after we have that discussion.”
She groaned. “Seriously, Cameron, you can’t just drop such a loaded comment and then make me wait to find out what it is.”
He grinned again.
When she realized he wasn’t going to budge, she shrugged.
“At least I’ll have another reason to want to get on that plane tomorrow. The sooner we get back, the sooner I find out the big secret.”
Cameron was thinking about that engagement ring in his safe at home and the Valentine dinner that never happened. Sarah was moving out. Maybe it was time for him to move in.
An airport attendant pushed Laura and her wheelchair through the airport, with Cameron about a step and a half ahead, parting the crowd for them to pass.
They’d checked their luggage at curbside and were traveling light on their way to the boarding gate. Laura’s new coat and purse were in her lap, giving her something stable to hold on to, pushing her fear of the flight down to a level just below screaming. As they approached yet another shop on the concourse, Cameron slowed down.
“Hey, honey, it’s almost an hour until takeoff. Do you want something to read, or some snacks to take with us?”
Laura’s stomach was rolling. The thought of food made her want to throw up.
“No. Better not,” she said. “I feel kind of queasy already.”
“I have the meds your doctor gave you for traveling. You’re going to be fine.” He stopped the attendant. “Please, wait here a second. I’m going to get her some pretzels. Something salty might help.”
The attendant wheeled up to the storefront, then parked her out of the line of traffic as Cameron went inside the store.
Laura watched, noting his confident stride and the way he had of slipping in and out of the moving crowd, grabbing snacks, magazines and a couple of bottles of water. When he turned around to look at her and caught her watching, he winked, which made her smile. Just for a moment, the fear within her settled. She didn’t have words for how much she loved him.
A few minutes later he was back, and then they were off, negotiating the crowds, the rise and fall of conversations as they passed different gates, the continual announcements of arrivals and departures.
Anxiety returned with a vengeance. God, oh, God, she couldn’t believe she was about to do this.
All of a sudden Cameron’s hand was on her shoulder, as if he’d sensed she was already freaking out.
“Get out the meds the doctor gave you,” he said, and she did. He handed her a bottle of water as she popped them in her mouth and washed them down, then packed it back up. “Just breathe easy,” he said softly.
She closed her eyes and nodded, but it was easier said than done. Minutes later they were at the gate. Before she could wrap her head around their imminent departure, early boarding for those needing extra time was announced.
Cameron caught the frantic look on her face and took her hand.
“Laura, sweetheart, just close your eyes and picture home.”
And so she did, flooding her mind with images of the way sunlight came through the front window of her house in the afternoon and through the blue glass dish that had belonged to her great-grandmother Jewel. She thought of how the hardwood floors took on an amber gleam just after they were cleaned, and how the chime of the grandfather clock at the end of the hall reminded her of her childhood, counting off the hours until bedtime.
Her eyes were still closed when they handed the attendant their boarding passes. As they entered the jet bridge, fear of what she was about to do made her lose the connection to home. The inside of the covered walkway smelled of plane fuel and cold air. When the ramp began to slope downward, she felt the slight pull of gravity and panicked. It felt just like the plane had when it began to go down. She whimpered slightly and leaned forward, bracing herself for impact.
Cameron frowned. He didn’t know what was going through her mind, but he could tell it was bad. Her knuckles were white and her body was shaking.
“You’re okay, baby. You’re okay.”
She could hear voices. People were talking and laughing, nothing like what she’d heard before. No praying. No crying. She took a breath and finally looked. There was a family of three in front of them: a man, a woman and a small child in a stroller.
