such a fatal disability for a soldier.
‘I see well enough with the eye that God has seen fit to spare, my lord. The infidel who dealt me the blow no longer breathes God’s air.’
‘But perhaps you can no longer fight.’ Ned was frowning. ‘With the sight of only one eye.’
Thomas smiled, which stirred my heart a little. ‘The King of Bohemia, famed throughout Europe for his courage, has lost his sight completely. He is determined to fight again on the battlefield with his knights leading him into the fray. Why should he not since he can still ride a horse and wield a sword? My state is not so desperate. I will assuredly fight again.’
Filled with awe, Ned reached across to touch the white silk. ‘I would be as brave as you.’
‘As you will, my lord.’
At my side, Will was as silent as I.
Until Edward led Thomas away, leaving a little hiatus of disappointment now that the excitement was gone. I simply sank to the ground with a mouth as arid as a summer stream, still clutching the lute. Thomas had managed one more fleeting glance in my direction, which might have been a question, or perhaps even a warning that he would in the fullness of time seek me out.
But not before I sought him.
‘Are you going to play that?’ demanded Isabella who had not been centre of attention for a good half hour. ‘If not, give it to me.’
‘Take it!’ As I handed it over, since playing dulcet melodies on a lute was no longer a priority for me, a hand fastened round my wrist. I looked up at Will who was on his feet, standing over me.
‘What are you planning to do?’ he asked, sotto voce.
‘Find some means of speaking with Thomas Holland in private, of course.’
How could he even ask? The three of us could not remain incommunicado, hoping that this problem would simply evaporate in the warm air. What did Will think that I would do?
‘I forbid it.’
Exasperation took its toll of my tone. ‘You have no authority to forbid it.’
‘I have every authority. You are my wife.’
I stared at him until he blushed and released me.
While I was moved by a little compassion; this was not Will’s fault. ‘I have to see him, Will. He needs to know. I have to discover some means for us to meet alone.’
‘So he does need to know, but it is a matter of much interest to me, what exactly you will say to him. And how he will reply.’
It was a matter of much interest to me too.
‘I will be sure to tell you,’ I said. ‘Every word.’
‘You will not allow him to kiss you.’
‘I doubt that in the circumstances he will discover any desire to kiss me. I expect he will find my behaviour sufficiently incomprehensible to douse any passion!’
Allowing Will to pull me to my feet, I curtsied neatly towards the Queen, and began to walk away in the direction of the departed King and his brave knight.
‘In fact,’ Will added, keeping pace with me. ‘I am coming with you.’
I hurried my steps.
Thomas, my courageous, lamentably absent but heroically wounded husband, met with me in the private chapel, an intimate space much used by the Queen. Set aside to the honour of the Blessed Virgin, Thomas was directed there by a servant I had dispatched, for I could think of no other means of ensuring the lack of an audience at this time of day when the public rooms were full of servants and those who would come to petition the Queen in her abundant mercy. I was waiting for him, offering up a final silent prayer at the little jewelled altar with its benignly smiling Virgin when Thomas, offering a coin to the page, walked in.
I had heard his firm footsteps approaching. This time I was prepared.
‘Joan.’ For a long moment, as I turned to face him, he stood and looked at me, then held out his hand. ‘How could I have forgotten that my wife was beautiful?’
His face, bronzed and a little hardened through campaigning, undoubtedly lit with pleasure, which should have pleased me. And it did, flattering as it was. But once the pleasure had been buried, I knew that this was going to be just as difficult as I had envisioned.
‘Thomas.’
I placed my hand in his and angled my cheek for a kiss.
‘Can I not claim your lips? You were my wife when I left. Even though the Blessed Virgin had not sanctified our union.’
‘You have been gone a long time,’ I said, uncertain whether I wished to throw myself into his arms or retreat beyond Philippa’s little prie-dieu. My emotions were all awry. He was all I recalled, dominating the little space with his height and his military air of polished competence, but there had been far too much water under this particular bridge to simply take up where we had left off.
‘A year,’ he said. ‘Perhaps a little more.’
The expression on his face had stilled, becoming wary as if he saw a distant troop of horsemen approaching, and he was unsure whether it be friend or foe.
‘Which is a long time for a wife not to hear from her husband.’
Startled at my sharpness, Thomas now regarded me with some indecision. ‘But you knew where I was. You knew my plans. Have you fallen out of love with me already?’
‘No!’ I pressed my fingers to my lips. Here was no time for emotion. ‘It’s not that.’
‘Then what? Do you feel to be a neglected wife? There’s no one to gossip here. The holy saints won’t judge us if I kiss you.’ He pulled me nearer as he bent his head to do just that. Then paused as a pair of feet scuffed the stone paving behind the pillar to my left. Thomas looked up, over my shoulder, the kiss postponed. ‘Will!’ Then back to me. ‘I did not know that we were not alone. Why are we not alone?’ I could all but see his mind working. ‘You arranged this tryst. Why did you bring Will with you?’
Because Will, with a surge of Salisbury authority, had insisted.
‘Yes, I did arrange it. There is a complication,’ I said, scowling at Will who promptly scowled back.
Catching the tone of this exchange: ‘What is it?’ Thomas asked. Then turned to Will. ‘Do you need to be here? Have you become chaperone in my absence? The lady is quite safe in my company.’
Will redirected his scowl from me to Thomas. ‘You should not be kissing her.’
‘Why not? It is perfectly acceptable for a knight to kiss a lady’s cheek.’
‘But not her lips!’
‘I have not yet done so. She has not allowed it.’ Exasperation was setting in. ‘Princess Joan is capable of being her own chaperone. She certainly was when I left. Now, go
