Susannah bit off words of protest. She was afraid that her mother had lost her grip on reality and grown comfortable in her fantasy world.
Vivian studied her as though waiting for Susannah to comment on her father’s visits.
“Actually, Mom,” Susannah said, gathering her resolve. “There’s something we need to discuss.”
“What is it?” her mother asked.
“Mom,” Susannah said, praying for the right words. “I’m concerned about you being here all alone, especially now that Martha’s quit.”
“Don’t be,” she said, calmly dismissing Susannah’s apprehensions. “I’m perfectly fine.”
“Would you consider moving to Seattle?” That would solve so many problems, but even as Susannah asked she knew it was futile.
“And leave Colville?” Her mother appeared to mull it over, then shook her head. “I can’t. Much as I’d love to be closer to you and the grandchildren, I won’t leave my home.”
Susannah knew that change of any kind terrified Vivian.
“Doug and your father are buried here,” her mother went on.
“Mom—”
“My friends are close by.”
Most of whom were dead or dying, but Susannah couldn’t bring herself to mention it. “I’d be able to visit far more often,” she offered as enticement, hoping against hope that her mother would see the advantages of moving.
Vivian sipped her coffee and allowed the cup to linger at her lips a moment longer than usual, as if she was considering the prospect again. Slowly she shook her head. “I’m sorry, dear, but this is my home. Seattle is way too big a city for me. I’d be lost there.”
Susannah reached across the table and took her mother’s fragile hand. “That’s something else we need to discuss. Mom, I’m afraid this house is too much for you.”
“What do you mean?” An edge sharpened her voice.
“I worry about you here all alone, trying to cope with maintenance and—”
“Nonsense.”
“Who’ll shovel the sidewalk when it snows?”
“I’ll hire a neighborhood boy.”
“What would you do if a water pipe broke?”
“The pipes aren’t going to break, Susannah. Now stop being difficult.”
Susannah didn’t feel she was the one who was being difficult. The more she thought about the problems faced by an elderly person living alone—especially an elderly person losing her memory—the more worried she became.
“I don’t know why you’d want to come all the way from Seattle to talk such nonsense to me,” Vivian said in a querulous voice.
Susannah remembered what Mrs. Henderson had said about her attempt to discuss assisted living back in March. That had probably influenced today’s response—if Vivian even remembered the earlier conversation. Regardless, Susannah had hoped that by pointing out a number of practical issues, she could get Vivian to realize on her own the advantages of moving into an assisted-living complex. Clearly that approach wasn’t going to work.
“Mom, I think we need to sell the house.”
“What?” Vivian banged her cup against the saucer, her eyes wide. “For the last time, Susannah, I am not leaving my home. I am stunned that you would even suggest such a thing.”
“Mother—”
Without another word, Vivian stood, deposited her cup and saucer in the sink and disappeared down the hallway to her bedroom, muttering as she left.
Susannah planted her elbows on the table, and cupped her ears with her hands. She closed her eyes, silently praying for wisdom. She hadn’t expected this to be easy, but so far she was getting absolutely nowhere.
After Vivian had dressed, she came back into the kitchen. Ignoring Susannah, she collected a straw basket and clippers. The garden was in full bloom; irises and roses were two of Susannah’s favorites and they were in abundant display along the white picket fence. The lilacs were pruned and shapely, and their heady scent drifted through the open window.
Given her mother’s limited endurance, Susannah had been surprised to discover that the garden looked quite good, although the fence was a disaster. The paint had faded and one entire section tilted precariously. Her father would never have allowed that to go unfixed for more than a day. He was a stickler for order, at home and in the courtroom.
“I thought I’d clean out the refrigerator,” Susannah said, making a peace offering.
Vivian kept her shoulders stiff as she pulled on her gloves. “If that’s what you want to do, go right ahead.”
“Mom.” Susannah walked toward her. “We still need to talk.”
“Not about me moving. That subject is closed.”
“I need to make sure you’re safe and well.”
“I don’t know why you’re so concerned all of a sudden. Besides, I’m getting stronger every day.” The back screen door slammed as Vivian walked out of the house.
Susannah sighed heavily. She didn’t want this to dissolve into a battle of wills between her and her mother.
It took her forty minutes to clean out the refrigerator. She discarded all the containers; the contents of some were impossible to determine. Among the identifiable remains, she found old tuna fish, green-tinged cottage cheese, rotting fruit and vegetables. Her mother saved every scrap and bit. Rather than leave this garbage to smell up the kitchen, she wrapped everything in plastic and carried it outside to the receptacle by the garage.
As she returned to the house, Susannah noticed that the shelves on the back porch were filled with dozens of senseless items. Her mother must’ve kept every plastic container she’d bought in the last six months. Piles of aluminum trays were neatly stacked, not for recycling, but for some future use. As a daughter of the Depression era, her mother tended to save everything, but it had never been this bad. Even empty toilet paper rolls were carefully piled up.
“Mom, what do you intend to do with all this stuff?” Susannah asked.
Her mother looked over from where she stood in her garden, a hose in one hand, and shrugged. “I’m saving it.”
“For what?”
“I don’t know yet.” She paused. “I never snooped around your house.”
“I’m not snooping. Everything’s out in plain sight.”
“Do I question what you save and don’t save?”
Susannah had to agree that she didn’t. She went back to the kitchen and wiped the counters. This wasn’t how she wanted the visit to go,
