of afternoon tea because then she might have never known…
‘Stupid,’ she chided herself, and, tying back her hair, decided to spend the rest of the evening cataloguing her new books.
She saw Taris Wellingham again in the Book Society Library the very next afternoon, perusing the shelves with another man she did not recognise.
Today his clothes were immaculate and worn in the fashion of one who did not place too much importance on the way a cravat was tied or any other such frippery. The bruise on his cheekbone, however, had darkened and swollen.
It was too late for her to stand and make her way out as he was only a few feet away and coming closer. Consequently she merely sat, pasting what she hoped was an expression on her face that would relate the disappointment she felt in what had happened yesterday.
He passed her by without acknowledgement, and so close that she could hear what it was they were talking about.
Fox hunting and the hounds used at a ‘meet’.
The cut direct! She grimaced. In all honesty there were many after all who might consider the inability to stop heavy drinking as a small thing, and others who might laugh at the notion of a man who would lose himself in the unmindful disregard of drink. But these people could not have lived with someone whose very personality was being eaten away by it, exposing layers beneath that were hardly humorous.
As she had! She decided that to say nothing would be an act of cowardice on her behalf.
‘Excuse me, Lord Wellingham?’
He turned immediately and waited, as did the man with him. ‘Mrs Bassingstoke.’
‘I wondered if I might have a moment alone with you, sir?’
‘ Jack.’ Said with all the authority of a dismissal to the man next to him. Beatrice remained silent until the other was out of hearing range.
‘I would like to apologise for my behaviour yesterday, my lord. I realise that it was most unacceptable to leave a room in such a fashion, but in my own defence I might say that I have had some unfortunate experiences in my life because of heavy drinking.’
A heavy frown marred his forehead. ‘I was not—?’
She didn’t let him finish. ‘Denial is one of the first signs that something is amiss, as I am sure you must be aware.’
‘You think I cannot manage my drink?’
‘The poor effect it has on your balance is certainly a telling symptom especially so very early in the day.’
A smile began to play around his lips and Bea hated the answering heavy thud of her heartbeat when she saw it.
‘The good news is that there are remedies one might attempt.’ Today he barely looked at her, glancing over her head as though something was far more interesting across the room, though his next question was heartening.
‘What is it then that you would suggest?’
‘Some would say exercise to be the most beneficial.’
‘To keep my mind off the thought of another brandy?’
‘Exactly.’ She did not understand the humour that accompanied his question. ‘The most important thing, however, is to admit that you do have a problem; if one holds the notion that this affliction is trifling…’
‘I can assure you, Mrs Bassingstoke, that I do not think my affliction trifling.’
For the first time since she had begun talking to him she felt that they had the same viewpoint. ‘Your measure of honesty is something that should help then, my lord.’
When he remained silent she took her courage in hand. ‘Have you spoken to your family about this?’
‘As little as I possibly can.’
‘Would it help to speak to me of it?’
The silence was deafening.
‘I am a woman who would respect every confidence.’
‘I know you to be that.’
When his smile took on a quality of wickedness she realised exactly what he had said and flushed a bright beetroot red. ‘I did not mean, of course, to allude to the night we spent—’ She stopped as another thought struck her. Perhaps he had not meant that at all. She was too far in, however, to just pull back now. ‘I would never say anything of it—we had both agreed that we should not.’
As she moved to one side he did the same and their hands touched. She felt her heartbeat quicken, to know again that living spark of recognition.
Jerking away, she looked around to see if anyone watched them and was horrified to notice patrons hurriedly averting their eyes. Taris Wellingham was a man who drew the notice of all those around him, with his height and his presence and his bearing. He was a man who looked as though he did not fit into the dusty quietness of this reading room, but should be on a battlefield somewhere, danger imprinted in his eyes.
‘When could we start?’ His question in the light of such thoughts disorientated her.
‘Pardon?’
‘When is it that you would begin helping me?’
‘You are saying that you would like me to try?’
‘Indeed. After such an eloquent persuasion why should I not?’
‘Some men may be…too timid to admit to such a fault.’
‘Not me.’
‘Then you are unusual in such honesty, my lord, and I admire you all the more for it.’
His lopsided frown concerned her.
‘If you are free tomorrow, perhaps a walk in the park might be a good beginning.’
‘I am sometimes a little uncertain of my footing in wide-open spaces. The vestiges, I suppose, of the drink wearing down my balance.’
‘Then I shall, of course, help you.’
‘How would you do that?’
‘Would it be frowned upon if I threaded my arm through your own, my lord?’
He shook his head firmly.
‘Perfect,’ she answered, feeling for the first time in two days a little more in control of everything. She had let Frankwell get worse and worse without doing anything. Could his own redemption have been as easy as Taris Wellingham’s? My God. Why had she not tried such a remedy for him?
She knew the answer even as she asked the question. Because she had hated him, hated her husband and everything he stood for and in the late-night drunken ramblings he took by the river she always hoped he might just trip and sink unbeknown into the murky depths of the water. Guilt rose in force, as did contrition, though when the companion she had first seen with Taris Wellingham reappeared in the
