“No. I wish I did.”
“Then I’m going to run out and get you some right now. Along with a pregnancy test.”
“A pregnancy test? What are you talking about?”
“Your emotions are swinging wildly, you’re chomping antacids like candy and a sip of wine sends you running for the bathroom. I’ve been pregnant two times and the signs are pretty unmistakable.”
Jen sat down on the cold leather couch and leaned her head back. “It’s not possible. I was using birth control.”
“Which you missed for a couple of days when you and Philip went to St. Louis. Remember?”
Jen frowned. “That’s true.”
“Well, something like that can alter your fertility all month, even if you did double up on the pills for a couple of days when you got home.”
“I’ve heard that, of course. I just wasn’t…thinking.” Something gnawed at Jen’s heart. Was it dread? Or hope? Whatever it was, she dismissed it immediately. “But I had my period a couple of weeks ago.”
Susan raised an eyebrow. “Was it normal?”
She thought for a moment. “Actually, it was really light,” she admitted slowly, but her mind raced. Was it truly possible? “Oh, dear lord, do you honestly think…?”
“Do you have to pee every five minutes?”
“At least.”
“Does the smell of smoke or perfume make you feel sick?”
Come to think of it, she had been more sensitive to smells lately. “In a big way.”
Susan gave a short nod. “I’m getting you a test.”
Jen swallowed hard, but it did nothing to dislodge the lump in her throat. “Hurry.”
Chapter One
Seven months later
Jen woke to the sound of the door buzzer at 7:00 a.m. First she rolled over and tried to go back to sleep, hoping it had been her imagination, but it sounded again. And again. She pulled herself up awkwardly and slipped a robe around her ripe form.
“I’m coming, I’m coming,” she called, stumbling across the still-dark living room of her apartment. She got to the door and put her hand on the chain lock. “Who’s there?”
“It’s Abigail Sedgewick,” a voice answered, without a trace of apology for the early intrusion. “Philip’s mother.”
As if Jen wouldn’t remember who Abigail Sedgewick was. In the weeks following Philip’s death, she’d had quite a bit of contact with Abigail and her husband, Dutch. They demanded every remnant of Philip that was in Jen’s apartment, from clothing to tie clips to tweezers. They had even taken the engagement ring that Philip had bought for Jen. Everything had “sentimental value” they said, never asking Jen if anything had sentimental value for her.
As it turned out, almost nothing did because her memories of him were colored almost daily with new revelations about his character. Philip, it seemed, had enjoyed many, many liaisons with women—mostly married women—during his engagement to Jen. There were so many gold-ringed weeping women in black at his funeral it had looked like a convent.
Jen leaned heavily against the door and said a short prayer for strength. “What can I do for you, Mrs. Sedgewick?”
“You could open the door, dear, rather than leave me standing in the hall,” came the terse reply.
Jen opened the door a crack and looked out at the perfectly manicured and coiffed woman before her. “I’m not really dressed yet—”
“Not dressed? At 7:00 a.m.?” The look of disapproval was unmistakable. “Most people are already on their way to work by now.”
“I don’t have to be there until nine and it’s only ten minutes—” She stopped herself. She didn’t owe Abigail Sedgewick an explanation for anything. “What can I do for you, Abigail?” The name didn’t trip easily off Jen’s tongue; the older woman had never suggested she call her anything but her formal title.
“It’s about Philip’s tennis racket.”
My God. Has something happened to it? Jen squelched the sarcastic response. “His tennis racket?”
“I believe you have it here,” she said, an unmistakable accusation dripping from her words. “We need it back. It isn’t yours, you know, and it has great sentimental value to his father and myself.”
Jen couldn’t imagine that the sentimental value was that great since it had been seven months since he’d passed away, and they’d never mentioned it before. On top of that, it was November—hardly tennis season, although the Sedgewicks’ club undoubtedly had indoor courts. “I wasn’t trying to steal it,” Jen said. “He left it here when—”
“Do you know where it is?” Abigail interrupted. “Or should I wait while you search for it?”
As it happened, Jen did have the tennis racket and she knew just where it was because she’d used it a couple of weeks earlier to smooth a new border along the wallpaper of the nursery. Giving in with a sigh, she pulled her robe as closely around her as she could and opened the door. “Come on in, I’ll get it from the back room.”
Abigail took a single step over the threshold and waited as Jen walked down the hall to the small storage room she was converting into a nursery. She picked up the racket, scratched some wallpaper glue off the handle, and took it back to the door where Abigail stood waiting.
“Here you go,” Jen said, stifling a yawn. “Is there anything else?”
There was no answer.
“Is there anything else?” she asked again, then, with a start, realized the reason for Abigail’s silence.
She was staring at Jen’s belly.
“…and heaven knows how long Jennifer Martin’s going to be out when she has that baby. She doesn’t have a husband to help take over the work at home, you know. We need to start at least three temps on staff right away, to do whatever grunt work they possibly can, freeing others to help with Jen’s workload. And if I were you, Matt, I’d make sure at least one of them is interested in staying on permanently and learning the ropes. Jennifer might not be back.”
Matt Holder frowned. “What do you mean she might not be back?” he asked his assistant, Leila, sharply.
“She’s single?” Kane Haley asked before Leila could answer Matt.
“This is the brunette in Benefits, right?”
“She’s the Benefits Manager,” Matt told him, then turned back to Leila. “Why do you say she might not be back? Did she say something to you?”
“I thought she was married,” Kane went on, making it sound as if that was as important as whether
