and tell me your lies
So much of my time was wasted
on thinking that what we had decided
was really going to happen.
I now realize that you were
changing the plans all along
just because you could
Your promise was a fake one.
She Said
Her sadness from yesterday
was so disturbing to her
She was not used to such painful words
The words that came from someone she loved dearly
She never expected to hear such cutthroat words from her
The fire and anger in which her words were used
Were very damaging and they cut like a hot knife going through butter.
What made her speak in such a manner, why was she so distant
It’s like she wanted to do this, to hurt me, to turn her back on me
I don’t know quite how to feel about this or about her.
I’m Awake
I’m awake now
but the morning seems
A mess already
What’s going on
I’m not happy like I
Want to be
Then she said
Wait a minute
Let’s rewind and go back to
Me waking up
There it is
My morning is here she said
I’m healthy she said
I have this wonderful bed and this
Roof over my head
She said I have the
Air in my lungs
And a wonderful family
My man has a couple of jobs and he loves me
Thank you, Father, for all of your blessings
I know that I am in control of my own mind
And I chose to be thankful
and not negative
So here I go downstairs
to start this beautiful
Day that is here and now
Mr. Coffee, here I come.
Who Am I Kidding?
Here I am sitting by myself
once again
Who am I kidding when I say to myself
that I don’t want or need anyone
Everyone I know thinks that I am strong
and independent and that I never
ask for help of any kind from them,
If they only knew what I was going through
they wouldn’t believe it, not about me,
not Loreal.
I wonder why I am so proud
and why am I so conscientious about my wants
and needs. And asking for help.
I don’t think I’m better than any of them
I just don’t like to ask for help
I don’t like feeling unworthy of my own happiness
and I believe that I am a good and loving person
and that I will make the best of what life
throws at me, I always have and I always will
overcome even my darkest times,
I just wish that sometimes I would reach out
for help.
You my love
have been assigned
this mountain
to show everyone
It can be moved.
In His Arms
Is where I want to be
I want to be in my
Favorite mood
Promise me you won’t
Step out of line
Don’t think everything is okay
Just because I’m still here
I feel all the days where together
I wish for better
You think your loving me
But you hurt me
And I don’t like it
Are you mine
’Cause I stay here all
The time
Let’s just see
How it goes
This is all so
Familiar
I wonder how long
This will last
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