Tatterdemalion. John Galsworthy

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perceive what he himself had just been perceiving, struck him forcibly, and he said:

      "Cheer up."

      She looked up again swiftly: "Cheer up! You are not lonelee like me."

      For one of that sort, she looked somehow honest; her tear-streaked face was rather pretty, and he murmured:

      "Well, let's walk a bit, and talk it over."

      They turned the corner, and walked east, along streets empty, and beautiful, with their dulled orange-glowing lamps, and here and there the glint of some blue or violet light. He found it queer and rather exciting—for an adventure of just this kind he had never had. And he said doubtfully:

      "How did you get into this? Isn't it an awfully hopeless sort of life?"

      "Ye-es, it ees—" her voice had a queer soft emphasis. "You are limping—haf you been wounded?"

      "Just out of hospital to-day."

      "The horrible war—all the misery is because of the war. When will it end?"

      He looked at her attentively, and said:

      "I say—what nationality are you?"

      "Rooshian."

      "Really! I never met a Russian girl."

      He was conscious that she looked at him, then very quickly down. And he said suddenly:

      "Is it as bad as they make out?"

      She slipped her yellow-gloved hand through his arm.

      "Not when I haf any one as nice as you; I never haf yet, though"; she smiled—and her smile was like her speech, slow, confiding—"you stopped because I was sad, others stop because I am gay. I am not fond of men at all. When you know, you are not fond of them."

      "Well! You hardly know them at their best, do you? You should see them at the front. By George! they're simply splendid—officers and men, every blessed soul. There's never been anything like it—just one long bit of jolly fine self-sacrifice; it's perfectly amazing."

      Turning her blue-grey eyes on him, she answered:

      "I expect you are not the last at that. You see in them what you haf in yourself, I think."

      "Oh! not a bit—you're quite out. I assure you when we made the attack where I got wounded, there wasn't a single man in my regiment who wasn't an absolute hero. The way they went in—never thinking of themselves—it was simply superb!"

      Her teeth came down on her lower lip, and she answered in a queer voice: "It is the same too perhaps with—the enemy."

      "Oh yes, I know that."

      "Ah! You are not a mean man. How I hate mean men!"

      "Oh! they're not mean really—they simply don't understand."

      "Oh! you are a baby—a good baby, aren't you?"

      He did not quite like being called a baby, and frowned; but was at once touched by the disconcertion in her powdered face. How quickly she was scared!

      She said clingingly:

      "But I li-ike you for it. It is so good to find a ni-ice man."

      This was worse, and he said abruptly:

      "About being lonely? Haven't you any Russian friends?"

      "Rooshian! No!" Then quickly added: "The town is so beeg! Haf you been in the concert?"

      "Yes."

      "I, too—I love music."

      "I suppose all Russians do."

      She looked up at his face again, and seemed to struggle to keep silent; then she said quietly:

      "I go there always when I haf the money."

      "What! Are you so on the rocks?"

      "Well, I haf just one shilling now." And she laughed.

      The sound of that little laugh upset him—she had a way of making him feel sorry for her every time she spoke.

      They had come by now to a narrow square, east of Gower Street.

      "This is where I lif," she said. "Come in!"

      He had one long moment of violent hesitation, then yielded to the soft tugging of her hand, and followed. The passage-hall was dimly lighted, and they went upstairs into a front room, where the curtains were drawn, and the gas turned very low. Opposite the window were other curtains dividing off the rest of the apartment. As soon as the door was shut she put up her face and kissed him—evidently formula. What a room! Its green and beetroot colouring and the prevalence of cheap plush disagreeably affected him. Everything in it had that callous look of rooms which seem to be saying to their occupants: "You're here to-day and you'll be gone to-morrow." Everything except one little plant, in a common pot, of maidenhair fern, fresh and green, looking as if it had been watered within the hour; in this room it had just the same unexpected touchingness that peeped out of the girl's matter-of-fact cynicism.

      Taking off her hat, she went towards the gas, but he said quickly:

      "No, don't turn it up; let's have the window open, and the moonlight in." He had a sudden dread of seeing anything plainly—it was stuffy, too, and pulling the curtains apart, he threw up the window. The girl had come obediently from the hearth, and sat down opposite him, leaning her arm on the window-sill and her chin on her hand. The moonlight caught her cheek where she had just renewed the powder, caught her fair crinkly hair; it caught the plush of the furniture, and his own khaki, giving them all a touch of unreality.

      "What's your name?" he said.

      "May. Well, I call myself that. It's no good askin' yours."

      "You're a distrustful little party, aren't you?"

      "I haf reason to be, don't you think?"

      "Yes, I suppose you're bound to think us all brutes?"

      "Well, I haf a lot of reasons to be afraid all my time. I am dreadfully nervous now; I am not trusting anybody. I suppose you haf been killing lots of Germans?"

      He laughed.

      "We never know, unless it happens to be hand to hand; I haven't come in for that yet."

      "But you would be very glad if you had killed some?"

      "Glad? I don't think so. We're all in the same boat, so far as that's concerned. We're not glad to kill each other. We do our job—that's all."

      "Oh! it is frightful. I expect I haf my broders killed."

      "Don't you get any news ever?"

      "News! No indeed, no news of anybody in my country. I might not haf a country; all that I ever knew is gone—fader,

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