as Polly had grown up among the boarders, most of whom petted her, no one can account for her slightly ungrateful reception of their good-will; but it is certain that the first time she was old enough to be trusted at the table, she grew very red in the face, slipped down from her high chair, and took her bowl of bread and milk on to the porch. She was followed and gently reasoned with, but her only explanation was that she did n’t “yike to eat wiv so many peoples.” Persuasion bore no fruit, and for a long time Miss Polly ate in solitary grandeur. Indeed, the feeling increased rather than diminished, until the child grew old enough to realize her mother’s burden, when with passionate and protecting love she put her strong young shoulders under the load and lifted her share, never so very prettily or gracefully,—it is no use trying to paint a halo round Polly’s head,—but with a proud courage and a sort of desperate resolve to be as good as she could, which was not very good, she would have told you.
She would come back from the beautiful home of her friend, Bell Winship, and look about on her own surroundings, never with scorn, or sense of bitterness,—she was too sensible and sweet-natured for that,—but with an inward rebellion against the existing state of things, and a secret determination to create a better one, if God would only give her power and opportunity. But this pent-up feeling only showed itself to her mother in bursts of impulsive nonsense, at which Mrs. Oliver first laughed and then sighed.
“Oh, for a little, little breakfast-table!” Polly would say, as she flung herself on her mother’s couch, and punched the pillows desperately. “Oh, for a father to say ‘Steak, Polly dear?’ instead of my asking, ‘Steakorchop?’ over and over every morning! Oh, for a lovely, grown-up, black-haired sister, who would have hundreds of lovers, and let me stay in the room when they called! Oh, for a tiny baby brother, fat and dimpled, who would crow, and spill milk on the tablecloth, and let me sit on the floor and pick up the things he threw down! But instead of that, a new, big, strange family, different people every six months, people who don’t like each other, and have to be seated at opposite ends of the table; ladies whose lips tremble with disappointment if they don’t get the second joint of the chicken, and gentlemen who are sulky if any one else gets the liver. Oh, mamma, I am sixteen now, and it will soon be time for me to begin taking care of you; but I warn you, I shall never do it by means of the boarders!”
“Are you so weak and proud, little daughter, as to be ashamed because I have taken care of you these sixteen years ‘by means of the boarders,’ as you say?”
“No, no, mamma! Don’t think so badly of me as that. That feeling was outgrown long ago. Do I not know that it is just as fine and honorable as anything else in the world, and do I not love and honor you with all my heart because you do it in so sweet and dignified a way that everybody respects you for it? But it is n’t my vocation. I would like to do something different, something wider, something lovelier, if I knew how, and were ever good enough!”
“It is easy to ‘dream noble things,’ dear, but hard to do them ‘all day long.’ My own feeling is, if one reaches the results one is struggling for, and does one’s work as well as it lies in one to do it, that keeping boarders is as good service as any other bit of the world’s work. One is not always permitted to choose the beautiful or glorious task. Sometimes all one can do is to make the humble action fine by doing it ‘as it is done in heaven.’ Remember, ‘they also serve who only stand and wait.’”
“Yes, mamma,” said Polly meekly; “but,” stretching out her young arms hopefully and longingly, “it must be that they also serve who stand and dare, and I ‘m going to try that first,—then I ‘ll wait, if God wants me to.”
“What if God wants you to wait first, little daughter?”
Polly hid her face in the sofa-cushions and did not answer.
Chapter II.
Forecasting the Future
Two of Mrs. Oliver’s sitting-room windows looked out on the fig-trees, and the third on a cosy piazza corner framed in passion-vines, where at the present moment stood a round table holding a crystal bowl of Gold of Ophir roses, a brown leather portfolio, and a dish of apricots. Against the table leaned an old Spanish guitar with a yellow ribbon round its neck, and across the corner hung a gorgeous hammock of Persian colored threads, with two or three pillows of canary-colored China silk in one end. A bamboo lounging-chair and a Shaker rocker completed the picture; and the passer-by could generally see Miss Anita Ferguson reclining in the one, and a young (but not Wise) man from the East in the other. It was not always the same young man any more than the decorations were always of the same color.
“That’s another of my troubles,” said Polly to her friend Margery Noble, pulling up the window-shade one afternoon and pointing to the now empty “cosy corner.” “I don’t mind Miss Ferguson’s sitting there, though it used always to be screened off for my doll-house, and I love it dearly; but she pays to sit there, and she ought to do it; besides, she looks prettier there than any one else. Isn’t it lovely? The other day she had pink oleanders in the bowl, the cushions turned the pink side up,—you see they are canary and rose-color,—a pink muslin dress, and the guitar trimmed with a fringe of narrow pink ribbons. She was a dream, Margery! But she does n’t sit there with her young men when I am at school, nor when I am helping Ah Foy in the dining-room, nor, of course, when we are at table. She sits there from four to six in the afternoon and in the evening, the only times I have with mamma in this room. We are obliged to keep the window closed, lest we should overhear the conversation. That is tiresome enough in warm weather. You see the other windows are shaded by the fig-trees, so here we sit, in Egyptian darkness, mamma and I, during most of the pleasant afternoons. And if anything ever came of it, we would n’t mind, but nothing ever does. There have been so many young men,—I could n’t begin to count them, but they have worn out the seats of four chairs,—and why does n’t one of them take her away? Then we could have a nice, plain young lady who would sit quietly on the front steps with the old people, and who would n’t want me to carry messages for her three times a day.”
At the present moment, however, Miss Anita Ferguson, clad in a black habit, with a white rose in her buttonhole, and a neat black derby with a scarf of white crêpe de chine wound about it, had gone on the mesa for a horseback ride, so Polly and Margery had borrowed the cosy corner for a chat.
Margery was crocheting a baby’s afghan, and Polly was almost obscured by a rumpled, yellow dress which lay in her lap.
“You observe my favorite yellow gown?” she asked.
“Yes, what have you done to it?”
“Gin Sing picked blackberries in the colander. I, supposing the said colander to be a pan with the usual bottom, took it in my lap and held it for an hour while I sorted the berries. Result: a hideous stain a foot and a half in diameter, to say nothing of the circumference. Mr. Greenwood suggested oxalic acid. I applied it, and removed both the stain and the dress in the following complete manner;” and Polly put her brilliant head through an immense circular hole in the front breadth of the skirt.
“It ‘s hopeless, is n’t it? for of course a patch won’t look well,” said Margery.
“Hopeless? Not a bit. You see this pretty yellow and white striped lawn? I have made a long, narrow apron of it, and ruffled it all round. I pin it to my waist thus, and the hole is covered. But it looks like an apron, and how do I contrive to throw the public off the scent? I add a yoke and sash of the striped lawn, and people see simply a combination-dress. I do the designing, and my beloved little mother there will do the sewing; forgetting her precious Polly’s carelessness
