Strangers. Rob Taylor

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rel="nofollow" href="#ua7cf7384-690b-5228-8f0c-87ad2241da54">Most days you still remember

       Old Game

       Why and Why

       Transmission Tower

       Reprieve

       Return to Roblin

       Are your flies grass, like mine?

       Matryoshka

       Now I must be gentle

       Long Distance

       Notes

       Acknowledgments

       “But we are different,” she said. “I would have us exactly the same.”

       “You do not mean that.”

       “Yes I do. I do. That is a thing I had to tell thee.”

       “You do not mean that.”

       “Perhaps I do not,” she said speaking softly with her lips against his shoulder. “But I wished to say it.”

      — Maria to Robert,

       For Whom The Bell Tolls

      Strangers

      At three, on vacation, my mother and I alone

      on an aerial tour (two seats, no exceptions),

      my father waving until he was very small

      then unfolding the paper from under his armpit,

      I wept with the depth of the assured—

      the Ruahine Range irrelevant below.

      My mother asked, coddled, pleaded.

      The pilot offered ridiculous faces,

      an early return. Only in the sight

      of my father, rising from a bench beside

      the helipad, hand raised again in greeting,

      was my world, pulled apart, reassembled.

      Nine years later his hand, warm,

      was thirty minutes later cold. I watched

      him wheeled away. I held his ashes

      and wondered where to put them.

      And I waited for his return.

      I wait still, whatever sense it makes.

      Alright, okay, we do not live forever. Our works

      are lost and are not found. There is no consolation.

      But, Elise, I read your poems today.

      Each rose and greeted me as if everything

      was normal, as if my return had been expected.

      And in this act I saw my father.

      It makes no sense. You would be strangers

      if not for this. But I saw him, Elise.

      He was your poems.

      He was waving and becoming larger.

      You ask me about my mother

      so I tell you how she slammed

      the trunk of our Toyota on my neck

      when I was three and wandering

      and she was in a rush for groceries.

      No harm was done, I say, and so you laugh,

      and I laugh, as does my mom

      each time she hears me tell my story

      which isn’t mine, of course, but hers—

      my brain back then a roil of loose ends,

      a squall within which stories wouldn’t last

      unless she lashed them there: the scene,

      the thud and wail, the nightmare snap

      that might have been, the unexpected ways

      that terror rises from its resting place

      beneath. All these she offered me,

      wrapped within her story and her laugh,

      the laugh which smoothed the knots

      and fused the sea

      inside me.

      Smoothing the Holy Surfaces

      One winter, two a.m., his doctor’s

      bad prescription setting in,

      my dad went into shock—

      my mom ten-minute-tumbled

      his six-two, two-fifty tremble to the car,

      the windshield scraped, ignition on,

      before she caught a vision of my cherub’s face

      tucked above my covers.

      She scooped me up too quickly, swung

      around towards the car, her ears

      astounded by the sound as cherub-skull

      thwacked

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