never seen that book. »
Dalain tried to hide it, knowing that his cousin's gaze had already had time to indulge in the golden embellished leather overcoat.
«I’ve…found it. »
Nephelim sat next to him, patiently. Spring slowly turned to summer and it was lovely to relax in the open air, in the shade of the huge apple tree planted by the deceased Lady. His mother. The attic was his Heart Place: he spent most of the day there.
The book was hers.
Dalain was not able to climb the stairs alone.
« I asked Alissa to bring it to me. I told her to have your permission, to choose the one with the most beautiful cover: green. It's my favourite colour. »
Nephelim's lips bent into a half smile, trying to look less inflexible.
Dalain was careful. He took advantage of the nurse's ignorance to get her to bring him as much as he wanted. Unlike the woman, he had learned to read and count fast.
« You know that "stuff" is forbidden. It should be burned in the fire. »
The child grabbed the book tightly against his chest. He challenged him to make good on his threat, knowing that he would not be able to do it.
«There is nothing forbidden. I have read enough to know it is not dangerous "stuff." It's magic that has been banished from the Kingdom, not its history. »
Loreana was of the same opinion: she loved to collect ancient texts that narrated the past and the Ancient Religion. Her husband considered it a harmless habit.
Her aunt had never been able to get her hands on her things. She was forbidden to enter the attic. A decision that was agreed by both father and son.
Dalain returned to lock himself in silence, watching some of the boys running across them. Many of the servants' children were living at the estate: they were on their way to the pasture, laughing loudly. He understood that theirs was a race.
Nephelim observed him expression becoming sad. He did not used to complain it was only his dark eyes that made the melancholy appear.
He stood up, giving him a hand. «Come. » He looked back, noticing that he was holding his tome again. «Give it to me, I'll hide it over the tree. «Your mother is not used to climb like a squirrel. The idea of uncovering her ankles would make her faint from shame. »
He grabbed the book and hurried up to the highest branches. He found a tangle of young foliage and covered it up from the sight of people passing by.
Once on the ground, he waved back to him, warning him to join him. Dalain got up uncertain, feeling the weight of his gaze: Nephelim's eyes were the colour of iron, grey and strong.
Unlike others, he was not afraid of his cousin. He knew that he would give his right hand, the one with which he held the sword, for him. It had always been so.
They shared the same room since he was born. Nephelim slept in front of him, letting his breath reach his face. He had learned to know every breath to the point of falling asleep only when he was cuddled by what he knew to be the natural rhythm. Every broken whisper was enough to make him quickly recover consciousness.
Dalain hesitated. «Why do you love me? I am completely useless. »
The boy knew he had heard that whisper from the lips of many: servants and relatives. His fragility led many to ignore that the mind was ready to make every whisper its own. That expression made him look more like him than he would have liked. Their facial features, their colours, were not so different: both light skin and hair, both with long facial features and a thin nose.
«Because I admire your courage: you fight for your life from the first breath. I do not know if I could carry the weight that weighs you down. It is easy to be strong when you have nothing to fear. You are not useless. I will never be equal in intellect. The Henders have been watching over you for a long time. »
He turned his back to him, kneeling on the ground. Waiting.
«Do you want me to climb on your back? » He came a few steps closer, intimidated.
Nephelim nodded, gazing over his shoulder. «You know how to do it, it's no different than when we climb the stairs. Hold on tight. »
Dalain squeezed his arms around his neck and when he lifted him off the ground, he felt he could touch the sky with his finger. He hooked his legs on the boy's hips with all the strength he had, letting him wrap his arms around them. He was used to being carried by him when his breathe was so short that he could not even walk.
He felt the Nephelim's confidence through the fluid movement of his back muscles against his lean chest. He stood up straight to look out over the meadow and when he started to run a spontaneous smile widened his lips.
As his cousin's long legs were slitting thorugh the sea of grass in front of them, he knew that he had pretended not to care about games like that. He had locked himself in his room, excluding any sound in the backyard, letting his mind run and punch for him.
They reached the barn very quickly, overtaking the group of boys who had gathered there. Some pointed them out to their comrades, surprised.
Dalain felt his heart beating: emotion.
Nephelim was used to running long stretches of country road. His walking pace had become regular: he was able to transmit to him the strength of his moving muscles. It seemed to him that his muscles also responded to some extent and moved in harmony. The sensations that enveloped him had no comparison with those created by his imagination.
He only realized he was laughing when his own voice came to his ears in a euphoric scream.
Nephelim decided to return home as soon as he heard him taking a breath from the laughter that had overwhelmed him. Although Dalain responded well to the medication at the time, he did not want to let his guard down.
He knew he deserved a slap from Alissa, and he did not want to endanger the baby's health.
He found his nanny on the doorstep of the mansion, with folded arms. One of the children must have told her that he saw them running over the barn.
The woman looked at the little boy's red face on horseback, winking like a witch. She took him in her arms without giving Nephelim time to complain, clutching him like a furious hen. «I hope you know what you're doing, wise guy! »
She was the only one who called him like that. She was the only one he would allow doing it. «He's all right, can't you see how happy he is? »
Alissa looked at Dalain with a critical eye: he looked drunk. He kept giggling, clinging to his neck. She took a disdainful look at the older one. «With all the money you spend to get him medicine suitable for a king, you should treat him like a crystal vase!» She returned to focus on the child, looking at his face. «He's all sweaty... he needs a hot bath. Make yourself useful and ask Glinee to bring a couple of buckets to his room. »
Nephelim gave her a half bow. «It is done, my lady. »
The roar of laughter, like rain in spring. Thin, intense. Magic.
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