27 Ockenden Square, S.W.’
Minna laid down the paper with a sickening feeling at her heart: she thought she saw in it just a vague chance by which Colin could manage to get to Rome and begin his education as a sculptor. After all, it was the getting there that was the great difficulty. Colin had ten or eleven pounds put away, she knew, and though that would barely suffice to pay the railway fare on the humblest scale, yet it would be quite a little fortune to go on upon when once he got there. Minna knew from her own experience how far ten pounds will go for a careful person with due economy. Now, if only Colin would consent to take this place as valet – and Minna knew that he had long ago learnt a valet’s duties at the old vicar’s – he might get his passage paid to Rome for him, and whenever this Sir Henry Wilberforce got tired of him, or was coming away, or other reasonable cause occurred, Colin might leave the place and employ all his little savings in getting himself some scraps of a sculptor’s education at Rome. Wild as all this would seem to most people who are accustomed to count money in terms of hundreds, it didn’t sound at all wild to poor little Minna, and it wouldn’t have sounded so to Colin Churchill.
But should she tell Colin anything about it? Could she bear to tell him? Let him go away from her across the sea to that dim far Italy of his own accord, if he liked; it was his fortune, his chance in life, his natural place; she knew it; but why should she, Minna Wroe, the London pupil-teacher, the Wootton fisherman’s daughter – why should she go out of her way to send him so far from her, to banish herself from his presence, to run the risk of finally losing him altogether? ‘After all,’ she thought, ‘perhaps I oughtn’t to tell him. He might be angry at it. He might think I shouldn’t have looked upon such a place as at all good enough for him. He’s a sculptor, not a servant; and I got to be a schoolmistress myself on purpose so as to make myself something like equal to him. It wouldn’t be right of me to go proposing to him that he should take now to brushing coats and laying out shirt studs again, when he ought to be sculpturing a statue a great deal more beautiful than those great stupid, bloated, thick-legged Michael Angelos. I dare say the wisest thing for me to do would be to say nothing at all to him about it.’
‘Miss Wroe,’ a small red-haired pupil called out, popping her shock head through the half-open doorway, and shouting out her message in her loudest London accent, ‘if yer please, ye’re ten minutes late for the fourth junerer, and Miss Woollacott, she says, will yer please come at once, and not keep the third junerer waitin’ any longer.’
Minna ran off hurriedly to her class, and tried to forget her troubles about Colin forthwith in the occult mysteries of the agreement of a relative with its antecedent.
But when she got back to Miss Woollacott’s lodgings at Kentish Town that evening, and had had her usual supper of bread and cheese and a glass of water – Miss Woollacott took beer, but Minna as a minor was restricted to the beverage of nature – and had heard prayers read, and had gone up by herself to her small bare bedroom, she sat down on the bedside all alone, and cried a little, and thought it all out, and tried hard to come to the right decision. It would be very sad indeed to lose Colin; she could scarcely bear that; and yet she knew that it was for Colin’s good; and what was for Colin’s good was surely for her own good too in the long-run. Well, was it? that was the question. Of course, she would dearly love for Colin to go to Rome, and learn to be a real sculptor, and get fame and glory, and come back a greater man than the vicar himself – almost as great, indeed, as the Earl of Beaminster. But there were dangers in it, too. Out of sight, out of mind; and it was a long way to Italy. Perhaps when Colin got there he would see some pretty Italian girl or some grand fine lady, and fall in love with her, and forget at once all about his poor little Minna. Ah, no, it wasn’t altogether for Minna’s good, perhaps, that Colin should go to Italy.
She sat there so long, ruminating about it on her bedside without undressing, that Miss Woollacott, who always looked under the door to see if the light was out and prevent waste of the candles, called out in quite a sharp voice, ‘Minna Wroe, how very long you are undressing!’ And then she blew out the candle in a hurry, and undressed in the dark, and jumped into bed hastily, and covered her head up with the bedclothes, and had a good cry, very silently; and after that she felt a little better. But still she couldn’t go to sleep, thinking about how very hard it would be to lose Colin. Oh, no, she couldn’t bear to tell him; she wouldn’t tell him; it wasn’t at all likely the place would suit him; and if he wanted to go to Rome and leave her, he must just go and find a way for himself; and so that was all about it.
And then a sudden glow of shame came over Minna’s cheeks, as she lay there in the dark on the little iron bedstead, to think that she should have been so untrue for a single moment to her better self and to Colin’s best and highest interests. She loved Colin! yes, she loved him! from her childhood onward, he had been her one dream and romance and ideal! She knew Colin could make things lovelier than any other man on earth had ever yet imagined; and she knew she ought to do her best to put him in the way of fulfilling his own truest and purest instincts. Should she selfishly keep him here in England, when it was only at Rome that he could get the best instruction? Should she cramp his genius and clip his wings, merely in order that he mightn’t fly away too far from her? Oh, it was wicked of her, downright wicked of her, to wish not to tell him. Come of it what might, she must go round and see Colin the very next day, and let him decide for himself about that dreadful upsetting advertisement. And having at last arrived at this conclusion, Minna covered her head a second time with the counterpane, had another good cry, just to relieve her conscience, and then sank off into a troubled sleep from which she only woke again at the second bell next morning.
All that day she taught with the dreadful advertisement weighing heavily on her mind, and interposing itself terribly between her and the rule of three, or the names and dates of the Anglo-Saxon sovereigns. She couldn’t for the life of her remember whether Ethel-bald came before or after Ethelwulf; and she stumbled horribly over the question whether this was a personal or a demonstrative pronoun. But when the evening came, she got leave from Miss Woollacott to go round and see her cousin (a designation which was strictly correct in some remote sense, for Minna’s mother and Cohn’s father were in some way related), and she almost ran the whole way to the Marylebone Road to catch Colin just before he went away for the night from Cicolari’s.
When Colin saw the advertisement, and heard Minna’s suggestion, he turned it over a good many times in his own mind, and seemed by no means disinclined to try the chances of it. ‘It’s only a very small chance, of course, Minna,’ he said dubitatively, ‘but at any rate it’s worth trying. The great thing against me is that I haven’t been anything in that line for so very long, and I can’t get any character, except from Cicolari. The one thing in my favour is that I know a little Italian. I don’t suppose there are many young men of the sort who go to be valets who know Italian. Anyhow, I’ll try it. It’ll be a dreadful thing if I get it, having to leave you for so long, Minna,’ and Minna’s cheek brightened at that passing recognition of her prescriptive claim upon him; ‘but it’ll only be for a year or two; and when I come back, little woman, I shall come back very different from what I go, and then, Minna – why, then, we shall see what we shall see!’ And Colin stooped to kiss the little ripe lips that pretended to evade him (Minna hadn’t got over that point of etiquette yet), and held the small brown face tight between his hands, so that Minna couldn’t manage to get it away, though she struggled, as in duty bound, her very hardest.
So early next day Colin put on his best Sunday clothes – and very handsome and gentlemanly he looked in them too – and walked off to Ockenden Square, S.W., in search of Sir Henry Wilberforce.
Sir Henry was a tall, spare, wizened-up old gentleman, with scanty grey hair, carefully brushed so as to cover the largest possible area with the thinnest possible layer. He was sitting in the dining-room after breakfast when Colin called; and Colin was shown in by the footman as an ordinary visitor. ‘What name?’ the man asked, as he ushered him from the front door.
‘Colin Churchill.’
‘Mr. Colin
