want.
– That ж. – Will told. – I have to admit.
– In what?
Will told.
– The matter is that I was married twice. – he admitted. – My first marriage was unsuccessful, and is tragic. I will not be passed in a detail. – He made a long and long pause. – My family. – it continued, and on his face tears appeared. – My family had a rest in California when flew a hurricane. – he made a pause. – On his face tears were already visible. These tears of a grief and pain from loss, loss of people dear to it.
Nina understood that she in vain asked it about it. She abused herself for the fact that she dared to understand, understand something that Will wanted to tell her. But what he wanted to tell it? Now she knew it. He was married twice. On that which loved and which presented to it beautiful children who died in the hurricane Katrina, and his second wife. Veronika! He loved it too, but is obviously not so strong as the first wife and her children.
Nina took an interest.
– How she was called?
– Whom? – Will did not understand. – You it about whom?
– About your first wife.
Will having looked at Nina answered.
– Laura.
– Laura. – Nina told. – Charming name.
This moment the room was entered by Roman. He looked on talking, and having noticed that Will cries, took an interest.
– I passed something?
Having looked at Nin on Roman, answered.
– Anything. – then she asked. – Did you bring to me to tea?
– Of course brought. – Roman hurried to steam. He approached it, and having given it a cup of tea from a tray, looked at Will. That wiping tears from under eyes, recovered after the conversation with Nina of a conversation. He told. – And nevertheless something happened.
Nina answered.
– We just talk.
Roman politely answered.
– I will disturb you. – He left from the room back in kitchen.
Nina asked Will.
– Do not you want to fly to states because there you are afraid to face the past?
– Yes. – Will confirmed. – I am afraid. – he sat down near it, then told. – You do not represent what this flour! – he roared from the pain which collected in it. – All the time to remember the incident.
Nina having taken a sip of tea throats, told.
– The past always pursues us. From it not to get to anywhere. It is always with us. Where we went where we would not go, it will pursue us. And even when we about it forget, it always reminds of itself. Anyway it an integral part of ours existence in this world …
Will long was silent. He understood that Nina is right. The past will always pursue us eternally, to most to death. And when there will come time to die, the past will return. We will remember all past life. About our sorrows and grieves. About tragedies in life. About the happy moments of ours existence. About light days of this awful and at the same time wonderful life.
Nina continued.
… – you have to overcome yourself, meet the fears face to face.
Will answered.
– Perhaps you are right. – he made a long long pause. – You know. – he told. – I have such feeling that I run and I run on the road which has no end. Something inside to me shouts, stop! Stop! But I cannot stop. Something pushes me forward. There afar. "Now I understand. – he as if analyzing all these years spoke. – I am driven by my fear". Fear of which I cannot get rid in any way. Fear of emptiness, fear of fear to learn the truth.
Nina immediately took an interest.
– What truth?
Will for a second thought. He could not understand what truth he was afraid to learn? All this time he considered that his first wife died when the hurricane Katrina blew over California. But what if it not so? What if all on the contrary? Bodies did not find. What if his wife and children are alive? What if did not they die? This guess horrified Will. Will told Nina.
– Can you are right. – he made a pause then added. – I am afraid to meet the fear face to face. "But. – he told. – I nevertheless will depart tomorrow". Whatever was my fear, I will meet it face to face. And let will be that will be, it will not be worse.
– I am glad that I could help you. – Nina told. – As I already told, go to Veronika. There you will meet the past. What there was it, it only yours, and anybody's is more. I think, you will meet Laura there. From its past, and yours. And when it to happen, you remember that there is a present, and that the past. Many do not understand it, and eventually you die. Die because you will not be able to release the past. It will come back to you if it seizes you, to you the end. Do not allow it. – then she added. – I ask you.
– You are afraid for me?
Nina answered.
– No, I just know as often the person meeting the past perishes. The past tightens the person, and he perishes.
– I understood. – he told. Also assured her. I will be careful, I assure you.
– Well all of us about sad? – Nina told. – We forgot about Roman where it? – she called Roman. – Novel. You where? Go here.
Roman entered the room.
– I dared to make fried eggs. – he told, addressing Nina. – In your state it would not prevent to be supported.
Will agreed with Roman and added: – This rain, obviously for a long time, can we will talk.
Roman asked.
– About what?
– About you. – Will told. – Tomorrow I depart to states. As soon as to come to an end this rain I will take the leave.
Nina and Roman understood that he wanted to tell. Will after the conversation with Nina decided that it should meet the fears. What they would not be.
Nina asked.
– You are sure?
– Absolutely. – that answered. – I am long ran on this long road which has no end. The time will stop and to turn back, meet the fear face to face.
– I am very glad to it. – Nina answered rising from a bed. – You are obliged to go to states. – then she added. – But you remember what I told you.
– Of course.
She got out of beds, and having asked men to see off her in the room, asked Roman.
