If it was, the feeling of inadequacy that I might have about my work would be a self-felt primary feeling that would be unrecognizably arising solely from my unconscious entity and was finding a focus on my work. With enough of my unconscious entity focused this way, that primary feeling of inadequacy it’s producing could make me feel my work is inadequate regardless of the reality of my work. That primary feeling of inadequacy that is arising, not from my reality, but from my increased unconscious entity, may then have a resulting secondary feeling that would come from that primary feeling with its focus on my work. The secondary feeling might be, “I feel I have to work harder and longer.” If my work really was inadequate, my reality could be producing the same feelings, and if so, these primary and secondary feelings, arising from my unconscious, are added to those experienced feelings that are arising from my reality. These added feelings from my unconscious would intensify the feelings that come from my reality, making me feel proportionately more emotionally uncomfortable about my work. To me, my inadequate work is my emotional problem, and that emotional problem will worsen and become a bigger emotional problem to me from that which is being unrecognizably contributed from my unconscious. I’ll erroneously believe that it’s only the reality of my work, and that alone, that is worsening my emotional problem, when it might be my increasing unconscious entity in my unconscious that’s producing intensifying primary and secondary feelings, that is much more the cause of my being so emotionally uncomfortable about my work.
The primary feelings of this unconscious entity may go by a host of possible synonyms rather than the names of the unwanted feelings we listed. For instance, the primary feeling of being “unacceptable” might be expressed by some people as a “fat feeling” where they might tell themselves or others, “I feel fat.” This too can duplicate feelings that might also be arising from reality where these people actually are obese. The unwanted feeling of being unacceptable, that’s expressed as a “feeling of being fat,” that is arising from someone’s increasing unconscious entity may be the predominant origin of that feeling. It could be the only origin. For instance, it might show itself in a college woman who might appear as having an “eating disorder” where she is obviously underweight, but still “feels fat.” Her reality is not producing the “fat feeling” at all. Her secondary feeling from her unconscious entity might be, “I feel I have to eat less.” If the primary feeling of “feeling unacceptably fat” increases further, from an increasing amount of her unconscious entity, she might look like she was just released from the WW2 Auschwitz concentration camp, but be still complaining of “feeling fat,” and intensely feeling that she has to eat less. No one would be able to talk her into eating more, unless that hidden unconscious entity was first decreased. A decrease would make those primary and secondary feelings be experienced as less intense. Or rather than decrease, the unconscious entity could focus instead on something other than her appearance with some other primary feeling which would then result in a different secondary feeling. This would produce a different emotional problem, and, with the same amount of unconscious entity, she could be, but not necessarily, as we’ll soon learn, just as emotionally uncomfortable. As another primary feeling going by a synonym, a feeling of “guilt” may appear as a feeling of being “sinful” in people who are trying to avoid feeling “sinful,” which is an example of how the unconscious entity produces unwanted feelings especially “tailored” to fit the person, which, in turn, may create a resulting emotional problem that might then appear as unique to that person, and to no one else.
All the primary feelings are related and seem to blend into each other in meaning. For instance, the person who feels “sinful,” may in addition feel “unacceptable,” or “unclean,” or “headed for a personal disaster” – like “going to Hell.” That feeling of “going to Hell” is that primary feeling of an impending disaster that’s “tailored” for this person. It could be a secondary feeling as well from a primary feeling of being sinful. This person, who feels sinful, may have done something, or didn’t do something in the past, that for this religious person does create those same feelings. But what could arise from this person’s reality can be greatly surpassed by what might be unrecognizably produced from this person’s increased unconscious entity, that then gets added to the experienced feeling of being sinful arising from reality. As a result, a person feeling sinful could feel immensely more sinful from what might be unrecognizably added from that person’s increased unconscious entity. People feeling sinful, with enough of this added component from their unconscious entity, might feel they are the very worst sinner in the world. With more of this added component from their unconscious entity, they might tell you that they don’t just “feel” they are the world’s worst sinner, they “know” they are. That’s much worse than “feeling” so. This would be like that starved-looking college woman, that with more unconscious entity doesn’t just “feel” she’s fat and has to eat less, she “knows” she’s fat, and secondarily “knows” she has to eat less. This contrasts with an obese woman whose unconscious entity isn’t focused on her appearance, but what’s met of her basic emotional need is. She can look in the mirror and feel she looks “very nice” and therefore feels she doesn’t need to eat less, or to exercise more, when she does.
Another synonym for a primary feeling might be that of feeling “poor,” where the primary feeling might be a feeling of being “inadequate,” and is being focused upon the person’s finances. This too could be a feeling that is arising from the reality of a person who has insufficient funds. But the feeling of being poor could also be arising from that person’s unconscious entity. If the person has more unconscious entity that is being specifically focused in this person’s reality this way, he or she will feel more intensely poor. With still more of this unconscious entity, this person might not just “feel” poor, but may now “know” he or she is poor. This person could feel this way, or perceive his or her reality as “factual” this way, when the person has a lot more money than a lot of other people who don’t feel poor. These other people might be people who don’t have a high level of their unconscious entity and who are meeting more of their basic emotional need. Meeting more of their basic emotional need would tend to give them a feeling of satisfaction about their financial worth just the way it is. It could make them feel this way even if, in fact, they really were poor! Or, if these people do have a high level of their unconscious entity, they could have a different predominating primary feeling than the feeling of being poor that would then find a different focus about themselves, which would then produce a different secondary feeling and a different emotional problem. How uncomfortable they then would feel, would depend on how problematic the feeling is to them.
Another primary feeling similar to being “unacceptable” might be the feeling of being “not good enough” about one’s self which then may find a focus, and where the person will attribute that unwanted feeling as arising solely from wherever it’s focused in the reality of that person. The person then feels his or her emotional problem is only that specific reality focus, when it may not be. Or it may be only minimally so. The unrecognized increased unconscious entity may be what is producing most of the experienced feeling of being “not good enough,” and not the reality of its focus. For instance, I knew of a person who felt “not good enough” about her violin playing. She always felt she could have played better at a concert. That feeling of being “not good enough” was coming from her unconscious and not at all from her reality because she became a widely acclaimed violin player. People felt she played the violin “perfectly,” but she didn’t. She always felt her violin playing was “less than perfect,” and that she could improve it with a lot more practice. The amount of practicing she did at any one time always reflected the level of her unconscious entity at that time with its secondary feeling of needing to practice more. With more unconscious entity, she practiced more. With less unconscious entity, she practiced less. But her unconscious entity always was characteristically increased enough, that it would never let her feel her violin playing had reached perfection.
How a primary feeling is chosen, and then becomes focused in our reality, is often determined much more by our unconscious, and much less by our reality. Perhaps this is borne out by the fact that the people who feel the most guilt in this world are not the people doing time in prison, after having been judged guilty in a court of law. Where they ought to, many
