such words, not even after all his effort at sensing his world.
It was as if, in leading Ra-onto about the mesa and pointing out the places where rabbits nested or magpies roosted or deer browsed, he had looked at those things with different eyes. He had recognized in them and in the trees and shrubs about him capacities that he had never attributed to any but men. With that new vision had come the understanding that he lacked the ability to know them.
It had troubled him ever since. He had gone to his elder and asked him for advice, as soon as the problem was clear in his mind. The One Who Smelled the Wind had not been able to help him.
“Each of us must find the Way for himself, young one. For me it was as if a snowflake fell from the sky onto my head, opening my eyes and ears and heart to all things. It has been harder for you, as I have seen. Yet I cannot tell you how you must proceed from here. I believe that you will learn what is needful, however.
“You are perceptive, apt for the task in all other ways. Even as you stand, you will become a better than excellent Smeller of the Wind for the Ahye-tum-datsehe.
“If you can only achieve the higher perceptions, you will become such a master as we have not seen for many generations.” The old man sighed and laid his hand on the boy’s shoulder as if in apology. “It will come to you,” he said, his voice hopeful.
So it was up to Uhtatse alone. He had suspected that might be true, from the beginning. He was now forming a notion of the thing that might be hindering his search.
He had shed blood. Not since his childhood, it was true, and never since his training began. Even when he was being taught to hunt, he had not killed often, and yet it had been done, all those years ago. Now it seemed that the acts must be atoned.
He went to Ki-shi-o-te, when he was certain of his course, and said, “I must purify myself. The shedding of blood, of rabbits and deer and birds, when I was young, is a barrier standing between me and the things I must learn. I must clean from my spirit all the small deaths that I have caused.”
The old man looked into his eyes and nodded. “I will tell your mother. Go, now, Uhtatse. Purify yourself and return, if the gods will have it so. And if we do not meet again, go with my affection. If you were my own nephew I could not feel more love for you. You have great potential for usefulness to our people. I hope strongly that you will survive and return to us.”
He went away along the top of the mesa, avoiding the fields where his kin worked and the older pit houses, sunk into the earth, where a few of the people still lived. Shut into his own mind, he did not sense anything around him, but that did not mean that he stepped carelessly or injured anything that grew or crawled on the earth. Habit guided him safely amid the hazards of the way, and intuition took him far from the haunts of his kind to a point at which he could look away over long stretches of lowland.
It was a sharp cliff, thrust out into the space above the canyon below. The wind whistled between the teeth of rock that fluted its face, and the summer sun could not warm away the chill of the air. Not even a juniper grew near that perilous edge, as Uhtatse went over it, finding purchase with fingers and toes as he descended the sheer face.
He did not fear that a rotten bit of stone might collapse beneath his questing toe. Guided as he was, he knew that he was not meant to die at the foot of this precipice, before he found the answer to his problem.
Some ten of his own lengths into the gorge, he found the spot toward which he had been impelled as the shaft is cast from the atlatl when the hunter makes his throw. It was a shallow niche, just tall enough for him to stand. It was floored with sharp rock, which had pattered down over the years from the arch of sandstone overhead. It was too narrow for positioning the arms comfortably, and he was forced to hold them tight to his sides, hands folded over his belly.
In that terrible spot, hundreds of feet above a tumble of deadly boulders and splits of stone, he settled himself to await his purification.
Chapter Six
The wind was sharp, even by day, and as the evening drew in and the sun moved below the farther edge of the high place, a chill breeze whipped through the canyons and about the spot where Uhtatse stood. His bare skin flinched into goose pimples, but he would not allow himself to shiver. He kept his arms in place, his legs steady under him, his teeth clenched tightly to stop their chattering.
His thoughts seemed to float away, high above his patient flesh. The cold was a thing he would not let into his consciousness. The hunger that soon growled in his belly was likewise rejected. The pain of standing on the sharp slivers of stone was so minor that it took no act of will to foreclose it from his mind.
Night hid the cliff across the gorge. Only its deeper blackness loomed against the stars, as bats moved above the cliffs and down into the canyons. He could hear the shrill screeches, though few of his kind seemed able to detect those almost inaudible cries.
The long cry of a hunting cat came to his ears, from down in the Middle Way where the deer browsed. An owl quartered the cliff top skies above him. He could sense the downy beat of its wings. Somehow, in the darkness it was easier to sense all the hundreds of living creatures that shared the mesa with his own kind.
He concentrated fiercely, feeling for any whisper of the air among leaves and needles. He felt for the dim sensing of the yucca and even more humble plants. To know the living things, one must also know those that did not move or truly think. Yet their reactions could reveal many messages to one who could sense them.
It did not come in one night, nor yet in two, that ability he needed and sought. Uhtatse stood in the niche, his skin weathering like old wood, his mind soaring and searching among all the things living on the mesa and along its sides and in its streams.
As his belly flattened against his backbone, and his ribs began to stand out like the ribs of the baskets his grandmother wove so well, his mind grew fat with another kind of food. Even had he been able to hear the words of plants and beasts unerringly, from the beginning, he knew that he would have been greatly improved by the things his stay on the cliff side was teaching him.
He forgot to count the days and the nights, as his spirit drew farther and farther away from his body. Such matters ceased to have any meaning, and he began feeling as if he might be a part of the wind moving about him, the light or the darkness wrapping around his body. A day came when he knew something of the stone against which he stood. It was a long patient tale of sun and wind and weather leading back to a time when water, wonder of wonders, lapped at it, and it was gritty stuff not yet hardened into the pale golden sandstone that he knew.
Realizing that he had heard the stone, he awoke from the trance that had held him for so long. He listened hard, and piñons whispered to junipers, which hissed back at them news of birds perching on their branches, sun warming their needles. He heard in his mind the small shriek of oak leaves being nipped away from their tree by the deer in the Middle Way.
Then he pulled himself back into his flesh. That was no easy thing, for a spirit that has known the freedom of the air does not willingly return to the burden of bone and muscle and nerve. As his mother twisted yucca fiber on a spindle, drawing into it bits of fur or feather, he spun himself back into his body. When he moved, at last, pain shot through every part of him.
He shook himself, squeezing his eyes shut. Then he opened them wide. Sparks of red and blue and white danced before his gaze, until his eyes cleared and morning light shone steadily.
To move his hands and arms was very slow and terribly difficult. He took his time, flexing himself bit by bit, part by unwilling part. Now he felt that his body had grown light
