after,” Mark said in the face of my stunned silence.
“Well, what … what are you looking for, Mark?” I asked. This was the first time ever that Mark had disagreed with a concept of mine. He’d tweaked, made suggestions, sure … but he’d never rejected anything of mine before. Well. Any of my work, that is. He’d rejected me just fine.
“I think we’re looking for something a little more … whimsical,” Mark said now.
“Whimsical?”
“Yeah.” He didn’t meet my eyes.
My heart raced sickly. There was another word he used that gave me pause. “And who’s ‘we,’ Mark?”
His expression hardened just a little. “Well, Muriel pointed out that … she thought it was a little … It just wasn’t what we wanted.”
Muriel. “Well, I stand by it. I think it’s a really good idea.”
“That’s fine, Callie, you’re welcome to think that.” His mouth tightened. “But I want something else. We have a meeting with John on Friday morning.”
“And did you and Muriel have anything specific in mind?” I asked.
“Look!” Mark barked. I jumped. “You’re not infallible, okay? You do great work, Callie—we all agree on that—but could you just give us another concept? I need something by Thursday afternoon, if it’s not too much of a problem, okay?”
I swallowed hard. “Yes, of course, Mark. I just … I’m on it.” I paused. “What time’s the meeting on Friday?”
“You don’t need to come,” he said harshly, and with that, he left my office, the door gaping open so I could see straight into Muriel’s black-and-white splendor across the hall. She was on the phone, but she gave me a nasty smile.
My computer chimed with an instant message. He’s jealous! Fleur wrote. I didn’t even know what she was talking about.
My hands were shaking, and my heart stuttered in my chest. So Muriel was weighing in on my work, huh? And Mark was listening. There was nothing wrong with the Hammill Farms ad. Not a damn thing. I’d be hard-pressed to come up with something better than that.
And I wasn’t going to the meeting. That was a first. A very bad first.
For the next three and a half days, I worked furiously. Pete and Leila stayed late, laying out the storyboards for the television spots, finessing the PowerPoint presentations, designing new print ads. For three nights in a row, I worked at both the office and at home, staying up past 1:00 a.m., setting my alarm for 6:00 a.m. I kept my door closed at work, and everyone pretended things were normal. Mark said hello, Muriel pretended to smile, Fleur sent me encouraging e-mails and schmoozed with my nemesis, playing both sides.
By Thursday, I had two more ad campaigns. Neither was as good as the original, but both were still pretty solid. At one o’clock (because Mark had said afternoon, right?), I knocked on the open door to his office. He waved me in, though he was on the phone.
“Okay, Mom. I should go. See you for dinner Sunday, right? Oh, great, I’m glad you liked them. Love you, too.” He smiled and hung up. “Hey, Callie.” As if he hadn’t chewed me out the other day. As if things were peachy keen.
“How’s your mom?” I asked.
“She’s great, Callie. Thanks for asking. What’s up?”
“Is now a good time to go over the new Hammill concepts?”
His mouth fell open. “Oh,” he said. “Well, actually, I … um … I’m glad you’re here.” He got up and closed the door, then turned to me, his hands clasped behind his back. “I’ll take a look at those later, but … actually, we came up with something else.”
I blinked.
“Yeah, and we’ll show it to John tomorrow. But leave those there, just in case.” He ran a hand through his hair and looked at me, his expression sheepish.
“What do you mean, you came up with something else?” I asked faintly.
He winced. “Well, Mure and I were kicking it around at home and—”
That was the last straw. “Really, Mark? I just spent three days on these. And so did Pete and Leila—your employees, in case you forgot. We’ve been busting our asses on this, while you and Mure …” My voice broke. “Here. Keep them.” Tossing the comps and CDs on his coffee table, I turned to leave. My hands were icy, and I was dangerously close to tears.
“Callie, wait. Wait, honey. Don’t go.”
He was using that voice. That low, smoky, intimate voice and I felt a flash of anger so hot and sharp, it was like a razor left in the sun. I hated him in that moment. Wanted to punch him in the teeth.
But more than that, I hated myself, because that voice still had an effect, dammit all to hell.
He came a little closer. “Callie, come on,” he whispered.
“What?” I snapped.
“Callie, look. Turn around. Please.”
I took a slow breath and obeyed.
Mark tilted his head and looked into my eyes. “Muriel is not a threat to you. She’s just cutting her teeth. She’s got some talent, she really does.”
Right, I thought. I’ll just bet she does.
“Please don’t be upset. I’ll be taking your ideas, too.”
“Whatever, Mark. You own the company.”
“Yes,” he said. “I do.” There was a warning in his voice. “But, Callie, you’re an important part of this place, you know that.”
“Yes,” I answered, my fists clenching. “I do know that. And I just spent three and a half days coming up with two new campaigns, pulling the art department off everything else, just to replace a perfectly good ad campaign because your girlfriend wants to play creative director.”
Good for you, Mrs. Obama cheered. I didn’t feel so triumphant. Christ, what if he fired me right now? I never talked like this! I never had to.
Mark stepped closer to me. Unlike the rest of us, he didn’t have glass walls. My heart rate kicked up, and I felt my cheeks prickle with heat. “You’re right,” he said softly. “And I’m sorry. About a lot of things, Callie.”
My throat tightened in helpless anger … and other things. Sorrow. Heartache. Memories of feeling so stupid for so long. Don’t cave now, the First Lady urged. You’re doing great.
“Look at me, Callie,” Mark said softly.
Ah, shit, Michelle sighed. Here we go again.
Mark’s eyes were ridiculously appealing. Dark, dark brown with thick, long lashes. It wasn’t fair. I totally understood the old expression, damn your eyes. As if
