All of it, the sights, sounds, scents, could have belonged to any family. Even his, a few years ago.
Matt caught himself, stumbled through the kitchen on numb feet, passing Jeb and his keyboard in the dining room, and paced the living room, collecting himself.
Wondering what was taking Caroline so long, and what he was going to say to her when she returned, he paused at the bottom of the stairs. It was quiet up there.
As it was down here. The keyboard music had stopped.
“Caroline?”
No answer.
“Caroline? Is Jeb up there with you?”
Still no answer. Swearing under his breath, he headed for the dining room. It wasn’t his business. Caroline was the baby-sitter, not him. But he still had to be sure the boy was okay.
Matt found Jeb in the kitchen, with Alf. Blood pounding in his temples and a headache already well entrenched at the base of his skull, Matt swooped across the worn linoleum. “What the hell do you think you’re doing?” he roared.
Jeb pulled his head out of Alf’s fur, looked up with unseeing eyes. His thin arms clamped tighter around the dog’s neck. Alf thumped his tail and wheezed.
When Jeb didn’t answer, Matt unwound kid from dog. Holding Jeb by the upper arms, he lifted until the boy’s sneakers swung a foot off the floor. “I asked what you were doing.”
Jeb’s dark eyes pinched shut. His mouth gaped and pursed like a fish. But instead of an answer, the boy let out a wail that half the county would probably mistake for the tornado siren.
The hairs on the back of Matt’s neck jumped to attention. He almost dropped the kid in his hurry to save his eardrums.
The sound abated as quickly as it had begun. Jeb crouched on the cold floor, his chest heaving. His eyes rolled wildly.
Matt steadied himself with a breath, waiting for his buzzing nerves and ringing ears to quiet, then brushed his fingers across Jeb’s trembling knee. “Hey, kiddo—”
Hardly a blur he moved so fast, Jeb sprang to his feet, lashed a solid kick into Matt’s knee and squirreled under the table. Against the wall, he curled into a ball, arms locked around his knees and head buried between his elbows, and rocked himself, sobbing silently.
Matt watched him, guilt and self-loathing swelling inside him. Jesus, God, what had he done?
Bare feet slapped across the floor behind Matt. Caroline flung herself into the room in a dead run, grabbing onto the doorjamb to stop her momentum. “What happened? What’s wrong?”
Her gaze fell to the crumpled boy beneath the table. She dropped to her knees next to him. “Oh my God.” She reached out to Jeb. “Hey, little rebel. What is it? What’s wrong?”
Jeb pulled tighter into his little ball.
The fire in Caroline’s eyes scalded Matt. “What happened? What did you do to him?”
Matt tried to move. To help her. But his feet might as well have been stuck in cement. The cement might as well have been sinking in a foul river. He couldn’t breathe, either.
She gave him one heartbeat to answer. Two. Then her lips curled back in a snarl. “Get out.” Fury swam close to the surface in her voice. “Get the hell out. Now!”
He stumbled back a step. Then another. He turned. He could hear Caroline cooing and clucking behind him, childish, nonsense words. The screen door slammed shut behind him as he made it out of the house. Out onto the porch. Into the air.
But he still couldn’t breathe.
Chapter 3
“I thought you’d gone,” Caroline said, pushing open the squeaky screened door and stepping onto the front porch. Matt’s big frame was hunched over on the steps, elbows propped on his knees, head bowed. He looked so miserable that it was hard to stay mad at him. She couldn’t possibly hate him more than he hated himself right now.
“I wanted to be sure he was…okay.”
“He’s okay now.” It had taken Caroline ten minutes to talk Jeb out from beneath the table. Now, he was sitting at the table plucking out a sort of childish dirge with one finger on his electric keyboard, with a glass of extra-chocolate milk she’d put in his free hand.
She thought about sitting next to Matt. Decided to stand. “Tell me what happened.”
He straightened himself with the agility of someone twice his age. But when he was upright, he sat tall. Like an accused man before a jury. “I didn’t mean to hurt him.”
“You didn’t hurt him,” she had to admit.
“I scared him.”
She sighed and sat on the porch swing he had fixed a few days ago, rocking the seat backward with her feet. “He gets scared easy.” She looked up at her husband. “He’s had good reason to be afraid of big, strong men.”
She saw when the truth clicked in his mind.
“Damn,” he said. “I knew it. I saw it in the way Savannah carried herself, like she was always ready to duck.”
“Her and Jeb both.” When his eyes widened again, Caroline knew he’d figured it all out.
“Jeb’s blindness?”
“His father threw him into a wall when he was ten months old.”
“Why the hell didn’t Savannah get out if she knew he was abusive?”
“She did. He found her.”
Matt went deadly still, his muscles coiled like a snake ready to strike. “I hope the bastard went to jail.”
Caroline rocked the swing back and forward again. “He got six months. He’s out now.”
She was glad Jeb was still inside, where he couldn’t hear what Matt said next. No telling where the boy would repeat that kind of language.
“What happened in there, Matt?” she asked so softly that the rumble of the storm moving in almost drowned out her words.
“I told him not to pet Alf.”
Caroline laughed mirthlessly. “This was all over a dog?”
“It isn’t safe for Jeb to play with Alf.”
“Agreed. Unsupervised.”
Matt blinked, clearly he hadn’t quite caught on to her train of thought.
“But what would it hurt for you to let him pet the dog a little with you standing by?”
“No.”
“Alf used to love to play fetch with Brad. Jeb could throw the stick.”
“Absolutely
