GOD have all the thing he want. A gold spoon and a gold plate and a gold chair and everything and then he want a ball to play with, so his Mummy tuk a lot of dirt and spit on it and roll it into a ball and this is the world, so you can see how big the little baby GOD is.
All the thing was very pritty. And because the little GOD was very polite and kind he want to share all the thing, so he told his Mummy and his Mummy say I cant make you a little brother and sister because it take such a lot of time. And the little GOD said ‘Oh dere what shall I do’? And the Mummy say ‘I have got a good idea’ and she tuk off the table a looking glas and say ‘What can you see?’ So the lit-tie GOD look and say I can see my face, it is a reflekshun. And Mummy say ‘Can you play with yor reflekshun?’ and the little GOD say ‘How can I share all the pritty thing with my reflekshun? That is greedy’. And it is too!
Then the Mummy say ‘Do you know where you come from?’ and the little GOD say ‘Yes, I come from yor woom’ and the Mummy smile a big smile and say, ‘Yes, but first you come from a pictur in my hart and the picktur in the hart come true if you love them enogh. What is the picktur in yor hart little one?’ And the little GOD say ‘Ther is a picktur of people and animal and I want to share all this pritty things and you and Daddy and all the angels with the animals and people’.
In the night time all the picktur come true becase the little God love them so much. And all the people and animals come out of the little God’s hart. And you know your hart is not very big, so you can see for milions of people and animals to cum out, they must be very tiny and so they were. Well, at the very first everybody was happy and the little GOD teech the people to talk and play musik and make things and everybody was happy because all the people could see him.
But when the little God grow up, he got so big that nobody could see him and all the people tuk the pritty things and say ‘This is mine’. Of corse, they wasnt but that is what they said and then they got greedy and greedy and then start to hit each other and throw stomes and make boms. Because the little GOD grow up and got so big that they culdn’t see him and they neerly forgot him.
So a lot of people make a statoor of GOD small enogh to see and then another lot of people make another statoor of GOD and then they fite to see what statoor is best. And they make boms and guns and a lot of peple is hurt and it is very silly because Mister God is much bigger than statoors.
Well, Mister God luvs peple very much, so he says ‘I know what, people cant see me because I am too big, so I will send my little baby boy who is the rite sise’. So he send his little baby boy who is called Jether to a lady called Mary to luk arfter and Mister God say ‘That is all rite now, Jether is just the rite sise’. And you would think that was the end, would not you? Arfter all the trubble Mister God tuk, woodnt you? But it wasn’t, Oh no!
Anna very rarely used the name Jesus; she preferred the name Jether, which she found in the Concordance. This is the next name in the list of proper names in the Concordance. Its meaning is ‘He that excels or remains; or that examines, searches: or a line or string.’
It was the idea of ‘line or string’ that so attracted Anna. We had often spent hours lying on the deck of a deep water sailing vessel, listening to Niels’s explanation of what all the ropes and gear were for. The fact that every rope had a place and a purpose, and that Englishmen, Frenchmen and Germans, every nationality, understood where the rope for a certain sail was to be found, was sufficient for Anna to rename Jesus as Jether. Kurt, a German sailor, told Anna she was ‘wider sinn’, that is to say, ‘against the sense’.
When Jether was a man, he started to tell all the peple about Mister God, but a lot of peple didnt want to here because first Mister God was too big and then he was too little and peple are eccasperating. They dont know what they want. And Jether keep on telling the people ‘You have got to becum little Or you wont know’. And they want to be big alredy, And you cant, becase Fansy being born full sise! Then a lot of people cort Jether and put nales in him and stuck him on a tree and stuck sords in him and then he was ded. All because he wasnt big enogh. Some of the people nearly know him, but not qite and like the statoors of Mister God they was rong. So they had another fite and this time a . worse fite called a war and this time with tank and aroplane and peple keep on fiteing because they dont know what sise they are and they are silly, becase Mister God and Jether and Vrach and all the angels are so luving. So I will tell you sum story about them.
Vrach was Anna’s own spelling of the Hebrew word Ruach, meaning spirit or breath, which was used in the Old Testament but linked with the Holy Spirit of the New Testament. I was surprised these words – Vrach, Jether – were so important to her, but felt that she had to find her way, in her own words, in her relationship with Mister God.
If you dont know what Mister God and Jether and Vrach look like I will tell you. Now I will tell you about Mister God first. He dont luk like me and you. He has not go no arms and legs and no face and no body like me and you so you will know he luk diffrent but he luk very luvley all the sam.
If you go for a walk you see a lot of things and you think a lot of things in yore hed. Well one of the things you think of is going home. So then you think it is a long way away and all the thinks is insid you and yore home is outsid you. So when you go home, all you think cum out of you and yor home go insid you, you see. Wen I am not with Mummy I have a lot of think in my hed, I think I wish I culd hold Mummy hand and I wish I culd kiss Mummy and I wish I culd tuch Mummy, but it all stay in my hed. But when I go home, it all come out of my hed, becase I do it. And when I do, Mummy go insid me and I go insid Mummy. If I dont go insid Mummy, how can I luk at me because I luk the wrong way. So when I luv Mummy then I go insid her and luk out out of her eye and see me and see how much Mummy luv me and this is very nice and thriling.
If someone luv you they let you cum insid. But if they dont luv you, they dont. Well Mister GOD is like that to. He let you com insid and see yourself, but you got to let MISTER GOD cum in too, becase he want to luk out to see himself. You see, MISTER GOD dont like no reflekshun and if he dont luk out of peples eye, how do he know what peple think of him? and this is the only way MISTER GOD can see himself. If you luk in a luking glas and see yor face reflekshun and then wink yore rite eye, the reflekshun wink the othre one, but if you see your reflekshun wink its rite eye then you know it is not a reflekshun, but you.
This is a story of Fin. Some people do not know how Fin is and I am sad for that because Fin is the best person in all of the world. Fin is very big and very strong but he is very delikat and very gentle. And he can frow me rigte up in the air like a bal and catsh me too. He is like a butefall flowre made from stone.
Fin say if you live in a howse and you let the window get sploshd and dirty and if you look out of the window it look like the world is dirty, but it is not. If you look inside it look dirty too but it is not dirty becase the window is dirty. Well I will say sum more of Fin becase Fin say all of the peple have two windows. First all peple have got eye window and then a hart window. The eye window is to look out and seen thing from and the hart window is to see inside to see you. Fin say wen you cry it is for to wash the window so you can see better.
One day I ask Fin for som sweet and Fin say no and I was sad and I cry som ters and I cry some ters to wash my eye window becas my eye window was all dirty, dirty with greedy for sweets. And Fin did not say nothing and Fin piket me up and put me to a luking glas to see my face reflecshun and it was all funy like rain on a hows window. And I culd not see proper and then I stop
