Agape and Personhood. David L. Goicoechea

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put the brain on the platter and he did the same with the lamb.

      He told her that tomorrow they could have scrambled eggs

      and brains for breakfast and he said it with obvious delight.

      She talked to her mother about her feelings and her mother

      told her what a good sheep-man her father was and how

      lucky they were to have such a good life during the depression.

      At breakfast next morning the twelve year old Joneva could not

      identify with the hearty appetite of her parents and siblings.

      And she was being weaned again and through her life.

      Traumas can either break us or make us stronger teacher-healers.

      I.2.4 In the First Deceptive Weaning

      Although Grandpa Coates’ family pioneered with the Mormons

      they were not practicing Latter Day Saints and as “Jack Mormons”

      with a completely secular attitude they loved drinking and good times

      and would not enter the church except for the occasional funeral.

      The parents agreed that the two girls would be raised Episcopalian

      and the boys raised Mormon but mother was the only one with

      any religious inclinations and she often went to the Mormon church

      and primary school with her school friends and she liked to pray.

      She greatly admired the healthy family life of her Mormon friends.

      For Christmas Aunt Sadie gave the thirteen-year-old Joneva

      a golden necklace chain with a beautiful golden cross and

      she loved it so much she could hardly wait to wear it to school.

      But one of the Mormon boys whom she admired asked her

      “What kind of charm is that?” And she felt embarrassed.

      And though the cross of the Good Shepherd was dear to her she

      wore it to school no more and though she loved and admired

      her Mormon friends she would not let them know that she

      wore it at home and she prayed for them when she took it off.

      And she began to hide many of her thoughts and to reflect on deceit.

      Her mother got along well with the Mormons and they

      admired her for she had winning and weaning ways

      as she taught mother to be open to all and offensive to none.

      And de Silentio wrote: “When the child is to be weaned, the

      mother blackens her breast. It would be hard to have the breast

      look inviting when the child must not have it. So the child

      believes that the breast has changed, but the mother—she is still

      the same, her gaze is tender and loving as ever. How fortunate

      the one who did not need more terrible means to wean the child.”

      Her father thought it was only a black sheep and she should not fret.

      The boy thought it was some evil, magical charm and she

      became weaned by loving them with acting beyond deceit.

      I.2.5 In the Third Weaning of Mutual Mourning

      Mother loved her four years at Carey High School from the time

      she was fourteen until eighteen and the Mormon atmosphere

      suited her well as it fostered a sense of vocation-mission-destiny.

      Some of her friends were already talking about going to college and

      going on a mission to teach others that our Heavenly Father loves us.

      Mother was especially impressed with the good Mormons in that

      they did not drink or smoke or swear and in fact they did not

      even drink coffee or tea and she could easily appreciate that.

      When she visited her cousins Nelson, Burl and Frieda over

      at her Uncle Chuck’s and Aunt Omas’ she loved them dearly.

      Uncle Chuck was very funny, loveable and always joking

      but sometimes he did drink a bottle of beer and go across the street

      to the pool hall where some of his friends were just a bit rowdy.

      Her father would also drink with his friends and even though

      he was a very hard working and productive man mother asked

      her mother about such activity and they both saw dark horizons.

      They went into the Great Depression that swept the country and

      even though farmers were fairly self-sufficient and they now

      had their farm the banking system was failing and the sheep business

      shut down and mother and her mother felt that an idle mind

      is the devil’s workshop and alcoholism began to make them anxious.

      And de Silentio wrote: “When the child is weaned the mother, too,

      is not without sorrow because she and the child are more and more

      to be separated, because the child who first lay under her heart

      and later rested upon her breast will never again be so close.

      So they grieve together the brief sorrow. How fortunate the one

      who kept the child so close and did not need to grieve anymore.”

      The weaning process is a kind of mourning process and the loss

      of his mother when he was only five left Levaur Coates

      with a lack of inner security that needed the boost

      of alcohol and the warm camaraderie that it deceitfully fostered.

      I.2.6 In the Fourth Weaning of Providing Sustenance

      In

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