September 1, 1939. Ian Sansom

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uncommon.

      There are, of course, individuals who write great books at great speed, and with great success, and to great acclaim – Auden’s first book with Faber was published when he was just twenty-three and he went on to produce a book about every three years for the rest of his life. The truth is, it takes most of us years to get a book published, and even then those books end in massive failure: neglected, overlooked and forgotten.

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      This book I began long before I had written or even contemplated writing any of my other books. It was the first – and it may be the last. It may be time to admit defeat, to admit to my own obvious lack of whatever it was that Auden had, which was just about everything. In Auden, one might say – if it didn’t sound so dramatic, if it didn’t sound like I was trying to talk things up by talking myself down – in Auden was my beginning and in Auden is my end.

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      One might, I suppose, console oneself with the knowledge that even some of Auden’s books were not entirely successful: Academic Graffiti, City Without Walls.

      But to dwell on the minor faults and failings of the great is hardly a comfort.

      It is merely another sign of one’s own inadequacies.

      The greater the equality of opportunity in a society becomes, the more obvious becomes the inequality of the talent and character among individuals, and the more bitter and personal it must be to fail, particularly for those who have some talent but not enough to win them second or third place.

      (Auden, ‘West’s Disease’)

      But surely – surely? – literature is not a competition. Literature is not a sport. One cannot measure oneself by the usual standards of success.

      (Auden, ‘Red Ribbon on a White Horse’)

      Let’s not kid ourselves.

      It is a competition.

      It is a sport.

      One does measure oneself by the usual standards of success.

      When writing about any great writer – or indeed about anyone who has achieved great things – one can’t help but compare oneself.

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      If Philip Larkin was no more than a five-finger exercise compared to Auden, then this – this! – is, what? At the very best, a one-note tribute?

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      Polyphony

      ↓

      Monophony

      ↓

      Penny whistle and kazoo

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      Parnassus after all is not a mountain,

      Reserved for A.1. climbers such as you;

      It’s got a park, it’s got a public fountain.

      The most I ask is leave to share a pew

      With Bradford or with Cottam, that will do.

      (Auden, ‘Letter to Lord Byron’)

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      Fountain?

      Pissoir.

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      Perhaps one of the only things the rest of us share with the truly great writers is the sense of struggle, the sense of inadequacy.

      Flaubert: ‘Sometimes when I find myself empty, when the expression refuses to come, when, after having scrawled long pages, I discover that I have not written one sentence, I fall on my couch and remain stupefied in an internal swamp of ennuis.’

      Gerard Manley Hopkins: ‘Birds build – but not I build; no, but strain, / Time’s eunuch, and not breed one work that wakes.’

      Katherine Mansfield: ‘For the last two weeks I have written scarcely anything. I have been idle; I have failed.’

      We all know that feeling, that sense of despair and woe-is-me and all-I-taste-is-ashes, and all-I-touch-has-turned-to-dust.

      Great writers, it seems, are not necessarily those who are most confident about their own capacities or skills. They

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