only go out that archangels may come in… . We do not believe there is any force in to-day to rival or re-create that beautiful yesterday. (Sob.) We linger in the ruins of the old tent where once we had shelter… . We cannot again find aught so dear, so sweet, so graceful. (Sob.) But we sit and weep in vain. We cannot stay amid the ruins. The voice of the Almighty saith, ‘Up and onward for evermore!’ … The sure years reveal the deep remedial force that underlies all sorrow… . The man or woman who would have remained a sunny garden flower, with no room for its roots and too much sunshine for its head, by the falling of the walls and the neglect of the gardener is made the banian of the forest, yielding shade and fruit to wide neighborhoods of men.”
“Do you see, Polly?”
“Yes, I see; but oh, I was so happy being a garden flower with the sunshine on my head, and I can’t seem to care the least little bit for being a banian-tree!”
“Well,” said Mrs. Noble, smiling through her own tears, “I fear that God will never insist on your ‘yielding shade and fruit to wide neighborhoods of men’ unless you desire it. Not all sunny garden flowers become banian-trees by the falling of the walls. Some of them are crushed beneath the ruins, and never send any more color or fragrance into the world.”
“The garden flower had happiness before the walls fell,” said Polly. “It is happiness I want.”
“The banian-tree had blessedness after the walls fell, and it is blessedness I want; but then, I am forty-seven, and you are seventeen!” sighed Mrs. Noble, as they walked through the orange orchard to the house.
Chapter XIV.
Edgar Discourses of Scarlet Runners
One day, in the middle of October, the mail brought Polly two letters: the first from Edgar, who often dashed off cheery scrawls in the hope of getting cheery replies, which never came; and the second from Mrs. Bird, who had a plan to propose.
Edgar wrote:—
… “I have a new boarding-place in San Francisco, a stone’s throw from Mrs. Bird’s, whose mansion I can look down upon from a lofty height reached by a flight of fifty wooden steps,—good training in athletics! Mrs. Morton is a kind landlady and the house is a home, in a certain way,—
“But oh, the difference to me
‘Twixt tweedledum and tweedledee!
“There is a Morton girl, too; but she neither plays nor sings nor jokes, nor even looks,—in fine, she is not Polly! I have come to the conclusion, now, that girls in a house are almost always nuisances,—I mean, of course, when, they are not Pollies. Oh, why are you so young, and so loaded with this world’s goods, that you will never need me for a boarder again? Mrs. Bird is hoping to see you soon, and I chose my humble lodging on this hill-top because, from my attic’s lonely height, I can watch you going in and out of your ‘marble halls;’ and you will almost pass my door as you take the car. In view of this pleasing prospect (now, alas! somewhat distant), I send you a scrap of newspaper verse which prophesies my sentiments. It is signed ‘M. E. W.,’ and Tom Mills says whoever wrote it knows you.”
WHEN POLLY GOES BY
‘T is but poorly I ‘m lodged in a little side-street,
Which is seldom disturbed by the hurry of feet,
For the flood-tide of life long ago ebbed away
From its homely old houses, rain-beaten and gray;
And I sit with my pipe in the window, and sigh
At the buffets of fortune—till Polly goes by.
There ‘s a flaunting of ribbons, a flurry of lace,
And a rose in the bonnet above a bright face,
A glance from two eyes so deliriously blue
The midsummer seas scarcely rival their hue;
And once in a while, if the wind ‘s blowing high,
The sound of soft laughter as Polly goes by.
Then up jumps my heart and begins to beat fast.
“She ‘s coming!” it whispers. “She ‘s here! She has passed!”
While I throw up the sash and lean breathlessly down
To catch the last glimpse of her vanishing gown,
Excited, delighted, yet wondering why
My senses desert me if Polly goes by.
Ah! she must be a witch, and the magical spell
She has woven about me has done its work well,
For the morning grows brighter, and gayer the air
That my landlady sings as she sweeps down the stair;
And my poor lonely garret, up close to the sky,
Seems something like heaven when Polly goes by.
“P. S. Tony has returned to the university. He asked after the health of the ‘sunset-haired goddess’ yesterday. You ‘d better hurry back and take care of me! No, joking aside, don’t worry about me, little missionary; I ‘ve outgrown Tony, and I hope I don’t need to be reformed oftener than once a year.
“Yours ever, EDGAR.
“P. S. No. II. I saw you twice after—you know—and I was dumb on both occasions. Of all people in the world I ought to have been able to say something helpful to you in your trouble, I, who lived with you and your dear mother through all those happy months before she left us. It will be just the same when I see you again: I shall never be able to speak, partly, I suppose, because I am a man, or on the road to becoming one. I know this is making you cry; I can see the tears in your eyes across all the distance; but it is better even that you should cry than that you should think me cold or unmindful of your sorrow. Do you know one of the sacred memories of my life? It is that, on that blessed night when your mother asked me to come and live under her roof, she said she should be glad to feel that in any sudden emergency you and she would, have a near friend to lean upon. There was a ‘royal accolade,’ if you like! I felt in an instant as if she had bestowed the order of knighthood upon me, and as if I must live more worthily in order to deserve her trust. How true it is, Polly, that those who believe in us educate us!
“Do you remember (don’t cry, dear!) that night by the fireside,—the night when we brought her out of her bedroom after three days of illness,—when we sat on either side of her, each holding a hand while she told us the pretty romance of her meeting and loving your father? I slipped the loose wedding ring up and down her finger, and stole a look at her now and then. She was like a girl when she told that story, and I could not help thinking it was worth while to be a tender, honorable, faithful man,
