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from the very depths, has found a fellow whom he can love, a love he celebrates without looking aside in these poems. Say what you will, he proves to us, in spite of the most debasing experiences that life can offer a man, the spirit of love survives to ennoble our lives if we have the wit and the courage and the faith—and the art! to persist.

      It is the belief in the art of poetry that has gone hand in hand with this man into his Golgotha, from that charnel house, similar in every way, to that of the Jews in the past war. But this is in our own country, our own fondest purlieus. We are blind and live our blind lives out in blindness. Poets are damned but they are not blind, they see with the eyes of the angels. This poet sees through and all around the horrors he partakes of in the very intimate details of his poem. He avoids nothing but experiences it to the hilt. He contains it. Claims it as his own—and, we believe, laughs at it and has the time and effrontery to love a fellow of his choice and record that love in a well-made poem.

      Hold back the edges of your gowns, Ladies, we are going through hell.

       HOWL

      For

      Carl Solomon

      I

      I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked,

      dragging themselves through the negro streets at dawn looking for an angry fix,

      angelheaded hipsters burning for the ancient heavenly connection to the starry dynamo in the machinery of night,

      who poverty and tatters and hollow-eyed and high sat up smoking in the supernatural darkness of cold-water flats floating across the tops of cities contemplating jazz,

      who bared their brains to Heaven under the El and saw Mohammedan angels staggering on tenement roofs illuminated,

      who passed through universities with radiant cool eyes hallucinating Arkansas and Blake-light tragedy among the scholars of war,

      who were expelled from the academies for crazy & publishing obscene odes on the windows of the skull,

      who cowered in unshaven rooms in underwear, burning their money in wastebaskets and listening to the Terror through the wall,

      who got busted in their pubic beards returning through Laredo with a belt of marijuana for New York,

      who ate fire in paint hotels or drank turpentine in Paradise Alley, death, or purgatoried their torsos night after night

      with dreams, with drugs, with waking nightmares, alcohol and cock and endless balls,

      incomparable blind streets of shuddering cloud and lightning in the mind leaping toward poles of Canada & Paterson, illuminating all the motionless world of Time between,

      Peyote solidities of halls, backyard green tree cemetery dawns, wine drunkenness over the rooftops, storefront boroughs of teahead joyride neon blinking traffic light, sun and moon and tree vibrations in the roaring winter dusks of Brooklyn, ashcan rantings and kind king light of mind,

      who chained themselves to subways for the endless ride from Battery to holy Bronx on benzedrine until the noise of wheels and children brought them down shuddering mouth-wracked and battered bleak of brain all drained of brilliance in the drear light of Zoo,

      who sank all night in submarine light of Bickford’s floated out and sat through the stale beer afternoon in desolate Fugazzi’s, listening to the crack of doom on the hydrogen jukebox,

      who talked continuously seventy hours from park to pad to bar to Bellevue to museum to the Brooklyn Bridge,

      a lost battalion of platonic conversationalists jumping down the stoops off fire escapes off windowsills off Empire State out of the moon,

      yacketayakking screaming vomiting whispering facts and memories and anecdotes and eyeball kicks and shocks of hospitals and jails and wars,

      whole intellects disgorged in total recall for seven days and nights with brilliant eyes, meat for the Synagogue cast on the pavement,

      who vanished into nowhere Zen New Jersey leaving a trail of ambiguous picture postcards of Atlantic City Hall,

      suffering Eastern sweats and Tangierian bone-grindings and migraines of China under junk-withdrawal in Newark’s bleak furnished room,

      who wandered around and around at midnight in the railroad yard wondering where to go, and went, leaving no broken hearts,

      who lit cigarettes in boxcars boxcars boxcars rocketing through snow toward lonesome farms in grandfather night,

      who studied Plotinus Poe St. John of the Cross telepathy and bop kabbalah because the cosmos instinctively vibrated at their feet in Kansas,

      who loned it through the streets of Idaho seeking visionary indian angels who were visionary indian angels,

      who thought they were only mad when Baltimore gleamed in supernatural ecstasy,

      who jumped in limousines with the Chinaman of Oklahoma on the impulse of winter midnight streetlight smalltown rain,

      who lounged hungry and lonesome through Houston seeking jazz or sex or soup, and followed the brilliant Spaniard to converse about America and Eternity, a hopeless task, and so took ship to Africa,

      who disappeared into the volcanoes of Mexico leaving behind nothing but the shadow of dungarees and the lava and ash of poetry scattered in fireplace Chicago,

      who reappeared on the West Coast investigating the F.B.I. in beards and shorts with big pacifist eyes sexy in their dark skin passing out incomprehensible leaflets,

      who burned cigarette holes in their arms protesting the narcotic tobacco haze of Capitalism,

      who distributed Supercommunist pamphlets in Union Square weeping and undressing while the sirens of Los Alamos wailed them down, and wailed down Wall, and the Staten Island ferry also wailed,

      who broke down crying in white gymnasiums naked and trembling before the machinery of other skeletons,

      who bit detectives in the neck and shrieked with delight in policecars for committing no crime but their own wild cooking pederasty and intoxication,

      who howled on their knees in the subway and were dragged off the roof waving genitals and manuscripts,

      who let themselves be fucked in the ass by saintly motorcyclists, and screamed with joy,

      who blew and were blown by those human seraphim, the sailors, caresses of Atlantic and Caribbean love,

      who balled in the morning in the evenings in rosegardens and the grass of public parks and cemeteries scattering their semen freely to whomever come who may,

      who hiccuped endlessly trying to giggle but wound up with a sob behind a partition in a Turkish Bath when the blonde & naked angel came to pierce them with a sword,

      who lost their loveboys to the three old shrews of fate the one eyed shrew of the heterosexual dollar the one eyed shrew that winks

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